Me, Mas and Masyha

2009-03-16T07:54:00.000-07:00

i was wandering around FB and found this.. hahaha.. i'm THAT bored :p

Put an X in every box that applies to you.

Add up all the x's and title subject with the sum as "My marriage age is__"

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[x] You balance your own checkbook – i think i know how :P
[x] Your parents have better things to say than your friends

Total: 6

[x] You show up for school/college/work every day early – have something for punctuality, habit?
[ ] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[x] You have never smoked a cigarette
[x] You have never gotten completely trashed – i think so
[x] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You've watched talk shows
[x] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[ ] You drink coffee [caffeine] at least once a week.

Total: 8

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language. – English, malay, Korean, Chinese i think hahaha :p
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] My parents trust me – i think they do, i just don’t trust myself
[ ]You can mow the lawn [hehe au lah..main lawn bowl pun pandai]
[ ] You can make adults laugh without being stupid – i think i made people laugh BY being STUPID
[ ] You remember to water the plants – need to be reminded for this
[x] You study when you have to – KEYWORD is ‘have to’ so yea 
[x] You pay attention at school/college – attention span up to 1 hour, lucky if it’s 1.5 hours :P
[ ] You remember to feed your pets

Total: 5

[x] You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis. – Used to
[x] You clean up your own mess
[x] The people at Starbucks know you by name – i know someone who works in Starbucks does that count?
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You have gained weight since middle/high school – i think it’s the other way round :p
[x] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine – i need hot drinks early in the morning.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need – actually i can. This is what we call SELF-CONTROL. But i can’t do it when Hanna’s around.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said – I’m so bad with British jokes. Does a political joke make any difference? :s
[x] You can type quickly – practice people that’s all you need.

Total: 6

[x] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour – This is what we call British weather. They suck big time.
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment – that’s what i call colleagues lah..
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party – org dating bawa Tupperware???
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job – At times during discussion they will take this into consideration.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] Most of all your friends are older than you are – i can’t bother to count who’s older than me actually. Hahahaha in BonaFide im the youngest, no? Hahaha :p
[x] You can say no to staying out all night
[x] You use the internet every day – i pay for it :p
[x] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while – you can say that again. I need to shop, i’m downsizing already :s
[x] You can read a book and actually finish it – Some books...

Total: 6

Sum: 6 + 8 + 5 + 6 + 6 = 31... waaa i wish it to be before that though :s

2009-03-16T07:23:00.000-07:00

I'm procastinating again. I'm suppose to start on my assignment last weekend and i end up watching Code Blue and had the most depressing weekend. I'm not saying the drama is bad, it's actually the opposite. Pi-kun is so Hot there. The other characters plays their role so well, that i'm annoyed at some of them. Good acting deserve this kind of responds.

See!!! I actually want to do my presentation slide today and i'm planning to do it at 12. *checking the time* it's 2.30pm. Poor Time management. this is what you need from a business student *sarcasm*. Funny how there's nothing going on in my life that i have all the time to actually do research and such but yet i just don't want to do it. This thing surely need to end!!! am i on my vacation mood? already?

I was reading some Korean news, there's still this issues about Triple S are mad at HyunJoong. Actually i noticed it the day i watched him getting the inki award and made his speech. When i listened i was like, he didn't mention Double S. This reminds me of SNSD's Yoona when she received KBS new actress award. She was so speechless that she didnt mention SNSD at all when right after the award show she has to perform with the girls. She confessed it during Kangin and Taengoo's ChinChin, that she felt so bad that she caused me to tear up and so were the other girls. You can tell how guilty she was. In the Baeksang award she did mention SNSD. But on Double S case it's different. Somehow i feel scared for them. i know they feel dissatisfied but it's weird for them to actually confessed it to others (during star golden bell show), why can't they say it to HJ themselves first? They're like bringing the leader down or something. I'm not sure why am i acting this way but it's scary as it came from the member themselves rather than the netizen.

On the cheery side!!!! SUJU is BACK with SORRY SORRY!!! WOWWIIIEEEE. i don't want to talk about issues in the forum now talking about Kibum's absence and such. it does make me fell incomplete and upset (a bit) but yeah!!! they're back and they're HOT.
credit: SJ3jib@ youtube
i'm more excited (and still am) about Super Generation during Music Bank last weekened. it's what i anticipated weeks before!!! Congrates to SNSD for the 9th win!!! Listen Shawty Shawty Shawty.. Gosh how much i love SM Town!!!

THSK is out with two new PVs. don't know how long will this PV will be out though since Avex is very strict.
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credit: yilei123@youtube

2009-03-04T03:39:00.000-08:00

Cold and Freezing

There are things that are hard to describe. Some are new to me, some are just repetition on others. Today i had only one class. I don't why i talk alot during the tutorial maybe because i just had a phone conversation with Hanna due to the fact that (1) my ipod abis battery and (2) my legs are not feeling all that well. Kesian the tutor because of the lack in participation of the class, i end up talking alot as in asnwering all her questions. So she was like 'good, why am i only hearing from her. How about the rest of the class'. So there's a short period where she's giving us a lecture about practicing our participation and confidence in class. So for a moment i was exempted in answering the questions. I sounded as if i brag at this part LOL. However, the session end up with a discussion between me, the tutor and another coursemate (lupa ku namanya.. hmmm come to think of it, we never really introduce each other). After class me and her were discussing about the fact that both of us are anaemic. Random? i know LOL but it's good fun :)

I woke up tadi and watched the recent episode of VOICE. Gosh the drama is not only funny because i love Eita's character... Can he be any more dramatic? Nande? Nande? Toma Ikuta is hot as ever of course, not much of him in this episode compare to the previous one. I was a bit sad that BBF nada on Monday that i end up watching BBF special without subs. Lee MinHo is seriously growing on me. Another reason why to watch BBF of course. I'm always a fan of KimBum since ia belakon arah Gosa and East of Eden. My god this guy has grown alot!!! In Gosa he's a high school student, so nampak kanak2. In EOE he's a teenage kid as well... Both of this aku liat with Hanna.. we both minat how cute he is, that when something happened to him in Gosa (not wanting to spoil) me and hanna was like 'noooooooo'... Wow, he'll make it big for sure.. along with MinHo.. Not sure about HyunJoong, hehehehehe, my opinion he still hold the idol title so it's kinda hard. Kim Joon, i have no comment on him, his character has the least impact but it's not complete without him. Watched episode 17 before i went to sleep, wow.. im not used in watching only one episode per week, im craving for more!!! It's sweet how HJ is always there (wish i have a guy like him).. i want my own firefighter LOL!!! I was a bit confuse when Junpyo saved Jandi... i was like.. was he swimming before? is that place a swimming pool? Why is he wearing only shorts? Maybe i'm just confuse on my own perception of the scene...

RESCUE... kenapa subs nya lambat??? Maybe stories about super ranger is not as exciting as i thought it would be to others.. but common i want my Massu LOL.. I'm kinda up-to-date with my Jdorama somehow.. Not all but i watched the recent ones hehehhe.. Korean so far only BFF and i want to finish TBDAW.. JunKi is HOT!!! LOL

On a random side.. a new MV feat Yoona (SNSD), singer 24/7... a three guys group!!!! HOT guys of course.. Hello ada c ROSE kali aaaaah.. can't believe he can actually sing (he used to be the drummer in TRAX). I like the Lee JunKi look-a-like as well..

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2009-03-03T05:39:00.000-08:00

Down and Mellow.

Woke up this morning thinking that my class would be at 10. However, it turns out my class is at 11. Thus, i end up watching three episode of Korean drama 'Time between Dog and a wolf'. I watched the first episode before when it first came out, but somehow i didn't continue. Maybe at that time my mood is not into some serious gangster drama, so i dropped it. Now, because Ummul is on Lee Jun Ki phase, she recommended the drama to me again. Balik2 tanya if i started watching them already or not. Well, guess what Mul, i'm hooked now :). I'm trying to get it finished before this weekend (if possible).

Just when i thought my life is begining to straighten out, there are always something that i stumbled upon. I think it's all about myself and my own self-esteem. For instance, today, as i was tying my shoelaces i have the thought of skipping my 11am class. How stupid is that? I was already dress up and ready to go and the malasness came. then i sat back and think carefully 'eh, there's registration of this class', so i went to uni. It seems like this semester i'm too malas and too tired to do anything about it. i know in the near future i'll be regreting the time i wasted. But why am i not doing anything about it? I always blame my health condition, regardless, which today my condition is not that well. The weather is cold that i can't even walk properly.

Earlier i had a class about culture and the lecturer said how important participation is so he gave us the chance to sign in the register and leave the class if we don't want to participate. But the most annoying thing is that the students who sat next to me JUST CAN'T STOP TALKING. I was on the verge of screaming at them, or at least said something to them (which i should), but i end up just giving them hints with my body language which is not successful. i was asked again in the class, i was quite happy that i participated but why can't i control the redness on my face. i can still feel it. Maybe Public talking is not my thing, but i want to be. Something to learn for the next lecture, not to sit next to chincau students (no offence), they just can't whisper quietly. I'm not being racist over here it's just the fact that it annoys me, not only in this class but also in other classes. it's funny how they whispered loudly but when were asked to participate they all shut up and looked confuse. What was that all about? Am i PMSing now? it seems like every little things bother me so much than before. Im not even sure if i'm getting mature or immature about the whole situation.

this post payah kan publish.. my ending paragraph selalu ilang.. i'm too tired to type it back.. let's just end it this way :P...

Edit: this post is actually yesterday's because of the stupid uni system i can't seem to post it :s

2009-02-25T05:05:00.000-08:00

Lee Eun Mi - I Have a Lover

아직도 넌 혼잔거니
ajikdo neon honjangeoni
You ask me, ‘are you still alone?’

물어보네요 난 그저 웃어요
mureoboneyo nan geujeo useoyo
And I just laughed

사랑하고 있죠 사랑하는 사람 있어요
saranghago itjyo saranghaneun saram isseoyo
I am loving someone, I have someone to love

그대는 내가 안쓰러운 건가봐
geudaeneun naega ansseureoun geongabwa
You seem to worry about me,

좋은 사람있다며 한번
joheun saramitdamyeo hanbeon
Telling me there is someone

만나보라 말하죠
mannabora malhajyo
that you would like me to see

Chorus:
그댄 모르죠 내게도
geudaen moreujyo naegedo
Do you know that

멋진 애인이 있다는 걸
meotjin aeini itdaneun geol
I do also have a great lover?

너무 소중해 꼭 숨겨두었죠
neomu sojunghae kkok sumgyeodueotjyo
Someone that I cherish so much that I had to hide

그 사람 나만 볼 수 있어요
geu saram naman bol su isseoyo
That someone, only I can see him

내 눈에만 보여요
nae nuneman boyeoyo
He is only visible to my eyes

내 입술에 영원히 담아둘거야
nae ipsure yeongwonhi damadulgeoya
I Will keep him locked in my lips forever

가끔씩 차오르는 눈물만 알고 있죠
gakkeumssik chaoreuneun nunmulman algo itjyo
Only the tears that fill my eyes know

그 사람 그대라는 걸
geu saram geudaeraneun geol
That person is you

나는 그 사람 갖고 싶지 않아요
naneun geu saram gatgo sipji anhayo
I don’t want to have him

욕심내지 않아요
yoksimnaeji anhayo
I don’t want to be greedy

그냥 사랑하고 싶어요
geunyang saranghago sipeoyo
I just want to love him

Back to Chorus:
그댄 모르죠 내게도
geudaen moreujyo naegedo
Do you know that

멋진 애인이 있다는걸
meotjin aeini itdaneungeol
I do also have a great lover?

너무 소중해 꼭 숨겨두었죠
neomu sojunghae kkok sumgyeodueotjyo
Someone that I cherish so much that I had to hide

그 사람 나만 볼 수 있어요
geu saram naman bol su isseoyo
That someone, only I can see him

내 눈에만 보여요
nae nuneman boyeoyo
He is only visible to my eyes

내 입술에 영원히 담아둘거야
nae ipsure yeongwonhi damadulgeoya
I Will keep him locked in my lips forever

가끔씩 차오르는 눈물만 알고 있죠
gakkeumssik chaoreuneun nunmulman algo itjyo
Only the tears that fill my eyes know

그 사람 그대라는걸
geu saram geudaeraneungeol
That person is you

알겠죠 나 혼자 아닌걸요
algetjyo na honja aningeollyo
Can you see I am not alone

안쓰러워 말아요
ansseureowo marayo
So don’t worry about me so much

언젠간 그 사람 소개할께요
eonjengan geu saram sogaehalkkeyo
I’ll introduce him to you someday

이렇게 차오르는 눈물이 말하나요
ireoke chaoreuneun nunmuri malhanayo
Can you hear my tears filled up in my eyes say?

그 사람 그대라는 걸
geu saram geudaeraneun geor
That person is you

Romanization by Kreah @ kreah-craze.com
English translation by elobuiee @ naver
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i'm loving this song.. One of my sleeping songs. Lately my heart is not at peace. I know what bothers me, i just don't want to admit it. I am settle with my life at the moment. It's in order so far. I want to continue like this. Some may argue, some may agree but it's the heart that i will always follow. I'm selfish with my own need but i failed to find courage to act upon it. Chances and lights will come my way and eventually i will let it pass me by. Wish i will say it.. but wishes can just disappear out in the thin air.. Let the cold wind bring me back to the harsh reality..

I will have this feeling for you.. hidden..

2009-02-14T05:26:00.000-08:00

what i want to share... my angauness!!!!

hopefully they won't delete this soon :P

always love this song from G.O.D and now 2pm sang it with HoYoung i was spazzing. man i miss this song. amazed how the fans sing along as well :)

Now here's my ranting!!!!

Dudududududu few days ago 12th FEB to be exact was the 18th Seoul Music award. i didnt watch it live because i had class. So who won the Daesang?????? Wonder Girls!!! it's not that i hate them but i wish DBSK won (i might be bias since i'm their fan). Rumours said that they didn't win the Daesang due to their absence. Only Bonsang winner entitle to win the Daesang. DBSK won the Bonsang and mobile popularity award, Shinee (they're so cute) is their representative. Well, at least they got some award although they're not there to accept it unlike GDA, if ur not there, no award for you. what i don't get was how come BigBang won the best album??? maybe the definition of best album is not equal to album sale.. anyways congrates to all winners. i guess ummul stress baca my texts masa aku ngusut about the award. there's another shocking and sad (probably.. more to worrying for me).. DBSK went to Japan on the 12th and dumdumdumdum they're back in Korea on the 13th.. n i was like (00); as much as i want them to rest, if this is their dream and this is what they want.. i let it be.. as jaejoong said in 2009 he wants to be as busy as possible.. but oppa.. take care as well your body also have some limit on their own. Jae grow in me lately.. can't wait for his drama...............daym those picture from SM town concert. wish im there!!! support SMTOWN all the way :) SM LOVE <3

Love SM interaction Love Jae oppa.. Ahem.. still love my hubby (looking at Yunnie to make sure he's not jealous)

there's nothing interesting in variety shows nowadays.. still watching the top weekend shows of course.. 1N2D, FO and WGM (only the cuts)... can't wait for the next WGM since the whole snsd will be there and Suju members will be there.. hmmm why suddenly MBC trying to put as many SM people as possible.. anyway can't wait for Suju's comeback.. funny how i notice since SNSD did their comeback, they're in control and they've matured all this while.. loving them.. lol.. when i watched idol's world with 2pm and snsd i was like... dude 2pm is definitely fanboying.. you can tell the difference in 2pm's attitude with snsd and other girl's group. just now i watched Cult-two's radio with snsd, 2am n kara. i felt bad for kara because when 2pm were asked which group they like. it's obvious they love snsd more.. jinwoo is all stuttering and seolong was all lol... well anyway kara n snsd are friends although i'm annoyed with kara. they're just too mcuh for me to handle.. too fake probably or maybe too cute (not that i'm jealous.. too annoying type of cute.. the voice perhaps)

Bah listen to Someday's 알고있나요!!! Love that song so sweet. OST Boys Before Flower.. anyway their OST is selling well.. but im hoping SNSD's Gee will win the Music Bank next week and break Jewelry's record for winning 7 consecutive weeks.. two more to go girls.. come one S<3ne!!! you can do it... Sorry SS501, but the Triples are doing strong nowadays :) On another note, read this Dbsk's interview and one of the qn raised to Yoochun was about his worries nowadays... n he said he's worried about his chingu, hyunjoong about his acting dilemma since HJ talk to him on the phone all the time.... HEHEHEHEHE i love these guys friendship.. Jae,chun, HJ n TOP!!! odd.. but loveable :))))

2009-02-14T04:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's Stories - Thursday

Yep.. snowing... takde warning at all. i was stuck in the university for 6hours, not because of the snow of course :p because i had a HUGE gap between my timetable due to my another tutorial only starts next week. it's fun to walk home in the snow since it's not slippery. i'd be cranky if it is since my ankles are quite fragile. As soon as masuk Torrington St. dorg asmah and the others were making snow man (well Didi's work) while asmah mostly guling2 n main snow fight hitting people at random. Mizah meanwhile trying to buat snowman duduk (make sense? no?) LOL which of course tidak berhasil since the kaki so panjang :P So yeah went home tired.

Yesterday, Friday, one lecture, and ONE LECTURE ONLY. i departed early since ada appointment early. i went there 20 minutes early. punctual? no laa.. i thought i estimate my time correctly but apparently my legs feel happy yesterday :) Konon kan ambil darah but it turns out that i have to make another appointment with the nurse so reschedule to Tuesday. met my 'lovely' GP and minta prescription since I'm running out of it and i told her about my low blood count issue and she prescribe me with another ubat to increase iron and.... have to eat it with Vitamin C. this one can cause constipation!!!! OMG!!!! bagaimana hidup ku turun naik tangga.. udahtah kuat gastrik now this.. i havent go to Boots yet.. hmm maybe tomorrow if not malas.

Today... Valentine's Day. what's going on?? i'm all alone in Torrington Street. Sad? yea.. where are the others? the guys went to London yesterday for some taklimat. The girls with syukri, ucup n gmie went to Leeds for the invited tournament. Why am i here? i'm tired.. i don't feel like travelling.. See now i have time to actually blog. :)

i don't like my Semester 2 timetable it is soooooo scattered that i have to stay in uni for long hours. it's good if i have some research to do but somehow the lecturer alum give us the topic yet (People Management) like hello the due date is in March and now is already mid of February!!! i want to be a good girl this semester but i don't want to be overconfident (which somehow what i'm feeling right now.. i dont know why).

I'm bored. i don't know what else to do or watch. BBF only airs like twice a week (thankful? yes of course) i'll watch it on the day itself, thanks to Arashi.vox.com. they're super fast :) Watching some Jdorama as well (recommended by Han) which im stuck with one because of Massu kuuuuuuuuu :)))) and one becasue of Mizushima Hiro aka nanba senpai kuuuuu (inda kira han aku mau jua) But since all these drama still ongoing... yelah have to wait of course :) i should have continue East Of Eden since tergendala because of revision. to start all over again is hard.. the storyline is intense and well very long of course all type of conflicts is in there. i guess i kinda lost interest the moment LeeDaHae left but i'm still curious about HanJiHye's character. she's so pretty in the story :P After exam i watched 'the world they live in'. i must have been so stupid to not watch it the moment it's out. probably because i have my own personal issues and because people are complaining about SongHyeGyo's acting. the rating is Low but funny enough i LOVE it. it's different, i actually thought it'll be more like 'on air' or 'spotlight' since it's about broadcasting. there are overlaps but not much, it's more about what's inside their head or something.. about their story.. the world they live in.. hahaha back to the topic.. nice i love HYUNBIN n HYEGYO couple. so loveable. at first u can see SHG a bit odd in her acting but if you continue to watch it you'll understand why.

hehehehe :) let's end the drama talk now huh..

2009-02-01T11:24:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum Everyone!!!

it's been a while. typical introduction, no? but this time i have my reason :)
December after i handed in my assignments, my laptop broke down. The motherboard just died, meaning it's useless so need to get a new laptop. After a MONTH worth of surveying i bought a new one, SONY VAIO. Comment on it: it's nice, I'm loving it plus it's 16" so enjoying my Korean things in bigger version. Sort Off :) Haven't done much of Drama-ing.

Semester 2 starts tomorrow! As far as i know i have no class tomorrow. Another free day for me but.... i have late classes every Tuesday and FRIDAY!!!! i don't mind plang but still it's LATE and the Temperature also VERY SAJUK. I want to start this semester with a big smile. Come to think about what's going on in my life, i had a hard one last semester. Partly because I'm mentally not prepared with all the changes happening in my life. I'm coping well with it, insya Allah. There are always new things i found about me in this life. I always thought i have a stable life in my own comfort zone but it turns out when there's a drastic change, i kinda went crazy and lost. I realised that there's a big world outside my comfort zone, a world that i need to figure out myself. I'm in my 20s and i yet i don't think i know anything. What's this? What's that? How does that feel? and so on.

I never feel so lonely until i realised that I'm alone.. make sense? There's a lot of wishes right now in my head. But... wishes are just wishes and will not be realised until i do something about it. The next question would be, How?

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos some one's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Natasha Bedingfield's Soulmate. that's what I've been listening to the whole day. I might sound desperate but i want to find HIM. My heart feels lonely by days. Funny how i want to put this at the back of my mind because of my current condition but i just can't help to feel being love by someone else other than my family. Desperate much? i know. but i don't call this desperation.. more like... it's time for me to be out there and give myself a chance and give someone a chance to be important in my life. it's a privilege kali ah :)

Missing something..... i will sure find it :)

2008-12-09T03:52:00.000-08:00

THANKFUL!!!

I don't know why but somehow I'm feeling a bit emotional today. Yea, a week before my assignment due. to be honest, i am in my panicking mood, but I'm trying to remain calm. Everything going to be alright. Insya Allah.

Friends
Sahabat
Chinggu
Amigos
Tomodachi...

I don't know why all of sudden, but I'm thankful. i realised that i haven't done anything much for them. but they always stay by me and support me no matter what. Touching? yea, I'm touched. We've been through a lot together, that it becomes natural. i was bored and checking up my friends' blogs LOL. "HEY I DROPPED BY TADI :)" Kali, i can't help but to smile and laugh. They're happy and so am i :) The thing that makes me happy is that they think of me. Hehehehehe i'm not sure whether im getting my message through but just the thought of it makes me happy. Love you guys. Despite my stressful life, i think there are always something that lighten up my life. i want to fight for my smiles.. for my hapiness.. for my own hopes.. Kumawo Chinggu ya~ Nadu chincha chincha saranghae~

1, 2, 3, 4!

If this world makes you sad, say my name whenever and wherever
I am 911 emergency, for you only, I’m only 5 minutes away, yeah yeah

Your sorrow that you feel isn’t sorrow
It’s a rope that bonded us together

I’ll get wet in rain for you, run without a stop, go through a rough wind yeah
Your heavy burden, dark shadow; I will block them all now

Oh my friend oh my friend; I will be your friend forever
Oh my friend oh my friend; only you can make me live
Oh my friend oh my friend; I will become a tree behind you silently
Oh my friend oh my friend; my friend I love you (dear) friend

Let’s rock & roll, man I don’t control
Close your eyes and open your heart (Love & Peace)
(A) Hope you dreamed (of), trust me, tells only truth without lies
Walk straight, limp at least once, mistakes can happen to anyone
Step on a failure and get up, goodbye to a wound that aches

Come on! Hold my hand and let’s go, let’s look for a lost dream again
Let’s fly together, brush up dusts, let’s go together, a person next to you as well
We can’t see an end but future is bright, there are many chances because we are young
Let’s love each other, scream louder, FREEDOM!

Leave from bored daily life as you dreamed
Run toward the dream, dear
Go away go away, let’s go away baby
Everybody RUN!

Big Bang - Oh my friend
credit: jeska + gdluvzmc

2008-12-04T05:53:00.000-08:00

Thursday.. that's what the day today is.. sekajap ah.. maybe because as we getting older we didnt know how much time leaving us behind. Remember masa primary school.. lama rasanya the bell for break or the bell for 12.30 balik rumah.. those moments, i wish i can cherish my time masa atu.. kekekekeke

ok, i'm being a bad girl today. i skipped my tutorial. i woke up paning and cold n the weather not helping at all. My mood always depend upon the weather :p. Actually the main reason is aku inda tau answers to my tutorial questions, or maybe my mind is more on my Learning Journal assignment and Marketing, rather than on the tutorial. So i was thinking of the thought of being kick out of the class because of that, alang2 ku ke uni for that one very class kan tuu.. so ilang my motivation.

i was doing my work and as usually im easily distracted. so i was looking through my pictures and liat ada folder of my summer trips.. somehow i miss my family.. <3 to say that i'm homesick.. i think i'm a bit right now. :p

kays~ better get back to my research.. banyak panya :s *cries*

2008-12-01T03:37:00.000-08:00

First day of December!! that's what the day is today.. am i excited? Well not really. To think that i have THREE assignments to hand in, in the next TWO WEEKS, with TWO i haven't even started, yea I'm not that excited.

The next question would involve 'What's wrong with me'. For some reason, i don't have any desire at all in my life right now. My driving force weakened. i know there are a lot of people behind my back that i don't want, do not wish to disappoint, but i still have the same pessimistic attitude about life. it's like as if I'm the only one who is suffering while others not. this is like me being angry at myself. yeah, sounded like I'm living a double life ain't it. at times i think that's the case.

So i had three days free last weekend. been stayed at home for those three days. when Hanna asked me how's my weekend. i answered 'work and sleep'. to be honest, i did work but mostly I SLEEP. i do get tired easily during weekend. why is that? i think the sajuk-ness of the weather took control of my desire to finish up my assignment.

So i am a bit cranky at the moment, mainly because my right feet sakit and the fact that I'm having a headache, which is weird because i did have enough sleep. the first class today is a burden to me. all my eyes wanted to do is CLOSE and sleep. i don't sleep easily but recently i can just sleep anywhere anytime. i'm starting to be one of those cha-ya-nun-alif in my class. the class itself was interesting, with constant pain in my head each time im trying to focus, is pretty much distracting.

Busy Busy Busy Busy Busy... that's what im planning to be starting today... that's what i wish to do starting today. that's what i will be!!! i must be!!! there's no more avoidance mas... NO MORE!!! time is ticking... time is ticking!!!

oh yeah, enough about my ranting.. here's my weekend story. Friday slept at 8.50 ish pm. Early? yea.. too tired. Woke up at 12.38am because of some drunk guy umban a bottle of vodka at my window. Surprised? Very much so. i can even hear the cling cling of the bottle rolling. Nasib baik my window inda pacah. if pacah, what am i going to do. i might freeze to death man~ Saturday! did some work being a good girl n meet dorg c beb, haven't seen much of the Hullians nowadays (sorry you guys..pretty much a social-outcast). Sunday... known to be my malas day and i have to admit how true it is. all i did all day was sit on my bed because the floor is too cold (i need to buy the electrical heater soon). Asmah came to pinjam the jamban because Beb mandi. we talk for a bit. she mentioned something about her coursemate broken up with the girlfriend because of his parents inda suruh sama ia because she has Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA). i was shocked and disappointed. i just read the RA in wiki and for some reason, im really sad and i'm afraid. I know my life will not be the same and i know i have sacrificed a lot. i dont know how much more i have to sacrifice in the future. the future, that once i see so bright and cheerful seems like slowly leaving me behind. Cuma Allah saja yang tahu my feeling right now. Hendak berserah tetapi hendak Berusaha until the last breathe i will take. i dont want to REGRET and yet my Motivation to live just dissipating. i can't believe i even have this thought. Where have the Happy mas gone to? at times i feel like asking for everyone help to make everything go away. is that even possible? i wont be able to love someone. that's the thing i will not be able to give. i'm scared of every consequences. i envy those who have their love ones with them, whether they are happy or sad. they don't realise how lucky they are just to have someone to love them or be there for them.

Enough of the sad story i suppose. or else i break down here at the computer center with people looking at me, which i hate the most.

i want to live this live with full of smiles despite the pain and despair i'm having. So Lord please help hamba mu ini.. Stay strong.. Hwaiting!!!

2008-11-27T01:21:00.001-08:00

MORNING!!!!!!! YEAP YEAP it's morning!!!
Woke up and did my tutorial work. WHY? because i get sleepy after dinner. Lack of concentration so end up TIDUR awal.

Here's the sub version credit to lovely mickytoho@youtube.

Yea, this made my day berabis. will not tutup it until i get bored of it but i still love it. HAPPY WAAAAA!!!! if aku sad. LIAT LAGI~~~~

on the other hand been listening to this song all morning. A good refreshing song. Got the mp3 lastnight. i watched the movie already back in Brunei but didn't realise that this song is the OST. my bad~ i know this song as Shinhwa Eric's dial-tone. Then because Kangin and Taeyeon sang it for their DJ concert. Enjoy

After tutorial.... my weekend starts yey!!!! ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!! NO KID YAW!!!

2008-11-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

Im just too HAPPY today i suppose... Mainly because of THIS!!!!

credit: phutran1981vnn2@youtube

Randomness... i know...

credit: YunJaeMinYooSuHolic@youtube

Okay that's all i want to share :)

2008-11-11T06:45:00.000-08:00

9 more days until my dateline... this makes me think what I've been doing for the past few weeks. I actually cried before i go to sleep thinking about how the clock is ticking so fast. WEIRD? i know.

however, this stress helps me keep on going with my assignment. i would like to thank my lecturer at today's tutorial for mentioning what the facts needed in the assignment. now i know what I'm going to do tonight. Don't get me wrong i have started the assignment with the introduction. it's just that I'm pretty bad at structuring. So I'm glad for his guidance because now i know what's the sub-heading for the next chapter.

My mind is kind of in stable at the moment. i know that i am emotionally vulnerable and have a low self-esteem. i can't deny that because i feel it too. the fact of ACCEPTING the reality of life haven't sink in yet. My fault? Certainly is. Problem Solving? Currently None. Do i need a psychiatrist? I don't think it's that major.

Apa nya orang.. berantakan rasanya my life any. trying to stay strong, but i dont know how long i can take it. i'm actually fighting with my own self. As crazy as it may seem but it's true. i kept quiet because i dont think anyone can do anything about it. they're not the one who's experiencing it. im in denial? i think i'm still am. There are a lot of wishes in my mind right now but i know only 20% can be fulfilled. Sad ain't it?

Well, on the bright side, i'm still a Korean craze girl. when i stressed out, i turned on my Korean mode which is almost all the time. CAn't help it. LOL.

Well, i got to go back to my research now and grab some food after this before my tutorial. i think i've been gaining some weigth recently. if i said this to Mizah, she always give me that look 'are you kidding me'. LOL. woaaaa my shoulders hurts and my right knee hurts.. ALLAH KUATKAN LAH HAMBA MU <3

2008-11-06T05:42:00.000-08:00

Tired~ Tired~ Tired~

Monday... Tuesday... Wednesday... Today, Thursday...

Time constraint. that's what I'm feeling now. Going back home, trying to rest but the brain keep on processing. i don't think my brain have enough rest. had my tutorial earlier. didn't got kick out like some others since i got warned yesterday by my group mate about being prepared for the cases. Thanks Alex. Well, i already read the cases and wrote something about it before he warned me because last week the tutor reminded us by saying "DON'T FORGET TO DO YOUR HOMEWORK". it's funny thinking that we're postgraduate students and he said the word "HOMEWORK". i feel like a kid now.

Last night, i was extremely exhausted after my group meeting from 2.30pm until 5.30 or so. So that's 3 hours!!!! Discussing mostly and it's tiring. thinking that's the only thing i had yesterday, is funny how it tires me a lot. Probably i didn't get enough rest these days. Suppose to attend today's early lecture with a guest speaker, but i bailed on that. it's not that I'm lazy but I'm contemplating whether to go or not to go. it's for all marketing students in business school. imagine how many hundreds will come. The lecturer first said it's compulsory and she will take attendance and then she said it wont be compulsory since the lecture theater will only fit 200 people and there will be estimated 500 students. that makes me think of the chances of waking up early in the morning, go to uni and walk up the stairs with my weak ankles and having arrive there with no seats. Will you go???? The only thing that makes me want to go is because the guest speaker is from Samsung (the company's Managing Director). oh well~ it's already passed.

The weather is not on my side lately. My ankles seems to be numb and 'karau' at times that makes me walk like a robot. am i complaining now? not really, somehow I'm kinda used to it. i don't really care when people are giving me the odd look. there are times when i feel like saying 'stop looking' but oh well, it wont solve anything anyway.

So anyway, during tutorial earlier.. i made a friend with this guy Mecca. But then i remembered he introduced himself as John in Marketing tutorial. he told me both is his names. So when he asked for my name i said Mas instantly. then when i signed my registration, the tutor call me Siti and i looked at Mecca saying that that's my name. i usually go for my second name but god knows what happened to the postgraduate office when they just put my name as 'Siti M'. So yea now my postgradute friends will call me Siti while my undergraduate friends call me Mas. Confusion will occur i tell you.. LOL. So when we discuss the answers, i asked him to do the presentation while i write it down on the piece of paper. then he said to me 'did anyone ever tells you that you're good in presentation'.. n i was like O_o 'huh'. then he said he was in the marketing tutorial with me and he said my presentation last week was really good. im not sure the complement is for me to the presentation instead of him or what. but he did give me the confidence to actually present our answers. i'm falling into his trap am i? LOL

i watched Jeremy Kyle this morning while reading my tutorial work again. i think i can actually memorise everything now hahahaha. the last case for the show was something between 'i don't know what i'm going to do after my mom died' i was crying like Hell man~ So touching. she wanted to get married but she doesnt have enough money. She's afraid that by the time she got the finance ready and everything the mother will not be there for the wedding. So Jeremy being so rich and kind he actually sponsored the wedding. i assume, he didnt actually say it himself though. So again i cried. It's so nice. Lucky them. I envy their love for each other (mother-daughter relationship). i miss Babu now *sniff*

Got to go home now. i feel so sleepy.

2008-11-04T07:18:00.000-08:00

Life ain't that easy for me. Struggling that's what I'm feeling right now. My fault? i guess you can put it that way. Who else anyway, right? A way to start the post. Me ranting. LOL.

At times things are well organised. i like being in Uni rather than staying at home. Mainly because i got most of my work done in university. Why can't i do the same at home? i have no idea. The moment i step home, i always feel time flies so fast. My Korean Frenzies will took over. i know my obsession is crazy and there's no way for me to control them. actually there is, but... i can't be bothered.

Made a friend today with a Nigerian girl name Neeka. Nice name. now i sounded like a kindergarten kid saying 'mom, i made a friend today'. oh well *sigh*. i don't have a lot of friends in my course. it's so funny how i manage to make friends with people who is not in the same course as mine. mostly people who are doing International Business. Maybe i should take that instead of Business Management. LOL. At least that course don't have Managing Finance or any Accountant- related- subject.

This weekend, i have a lot of things to do for this weekend. whether or not i'm able to accomplish the task, insya Allah. Will have to start both my Managing Finance and Marketing assignment soon. because one will due in two weeks time and the other need to show the draft to the lecturer.

I'm being random now. Last night, me and Mizah talked about what kind of personality of the male species we like. She's like combining some guys. it makes me think before i go to sleep what kind of personality i like. or i thought i like, which likely will fit mine. suddenly, i thought of my assignment 'Learning Journal' which is a study about myself and to identify my personality. then CLICK. WTH i have no life!!! it seems like i have no other things in mind except for my health, my works and my Korean. At times when i think that i have no feeling for someone, it makes me lonely. however, is it that important? Am i afraid of something?

Well, have to go now. i have tutorial in half an hour. Let's hope that the tutor won't scold me for not giving enough effort on my work (which i did just now with a cup of Mocha. is it considered last minute?).

Mas Hwaiting!!!!! Gambatte ne~

Add: Received a packet this morning from Hanzi. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!! Thank god i didnt buy it yet. i was about to. then i have the feeling u're going to buy it for me........ <3<3<3 i have MIROTIC album now!!!!

2008-10-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

Again, i think for every post i made, i'll be saying the same sentence all over again. Urinmaniya~ It's been a while.. maybe i should change my topic to it's been a while or write a song based on it. Ding Dong~~

Well, i'm in uni. why? i had ONLY one tutorial earlier at 1pm and that's it. man only one one-hour class for every Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. i feel like screaming 'put it on one day'. it's almost the end of fourth week, and i'm still on my complaint on my schedules.

Things have changed alot recently. I'm not sure i'm coping well with it. At times i feel scared, at times i feel confident, but most of the time i just feel stress out about life. The way things are now are different. i feel burden most of the time and experiencing low self-esteem. i hate myself msot of the time for being useless. SEE, i'm complaining about myself. the question is, why can't i face the truth about life. i know i'm still in a denying stage and i can't help it.

Oh well~

I had Research Methods tutorial just now talking about Research Proposal. Okay~ now i have to think of what to do a research on? if only i can research about my life LOL. Because of my feet condition, i was unable to walk fast. However, i was never late to any of my classes (talking about being a good girl :D). The funny thing is i was in the building like 5 minutes before my tutorial class started. i went in and Cheng Cheng Cheng, the class is full and i was like 'wait~ am i later?!!!??? Fudge man *&£%£*^£%' Yeah, i did feel like swearing since everyone doesnt seem to care my existence. so a reminder to myself: BE 15 minutes EARLY!!!!.

I'm missing alot of people back home. i'm homesick most of the time but i can no longer cry for that reason. Some people just dont understand what i'm going through. Couldnt blame them for that. i'm always a whiny person anyway. LOL.

2008-05-20T04:19:00.000-07:00

BIG NEWS BIG NEWS!!!!

i know i'll be spazzing through this post. but i cant help it. i've been envious, jealous, cemburu buta!!! for those who attended the Hollywood Bowl for the Korean Festival in the US. Korean big stars were there over the weekend: DBSK, SUJU, SNSD, MINWOO, FTTS, SON HO YOUNG, SG WANNABE, CHAEYEON, OCK JUHYUN and etc. Well the big thing is DBSK, SUJU AND SNSD WERE THERE!!!! they performed alot of songs. i wished SUJU will the 13 of them but only SUJU-T and Yehsung datang same flight with the other SM artist. when they performed BALLOON together i was like waaaaaaaaa SM TOWN, wish everyone were there, there's no CSJH. they probably are still in Japan. After the concert most of them balik to Korea, some of the fans said they didnt see DBSK at the airport. so there's a speculation that they're in Vegas for their photobook photoshoot!!!! OMG why cant they just fly to LONDON!!!! YUNHO SO HOT!!! I WANT TO HUG HIM WAAAAAAAAA!!!!

oh yeah the big news is like apart from the spazzing about the HB in SM's stars forum there's a rumour, i repeat rumour!!!. i just dont want people to bash me for my own POV :p while visiting the forum, i read that someone witness DBSK's Junsu hugged SNSD's Taeyeon and pulled her cheek and being cute to each other. Apparently she's not the only one witnessing that moment. So the validity of the scene is almost reliable? dunno im not there. So fans were like "give us some picture to prove it" and i was soooooo eager to know all about this TAESU coupling. so i found this

What do you guys think?

So i browse arah Youtube to check all the Balloon's fancam that night. and hmmm it seems like.... tekana ja waa (see the end of the video below).. it's like friendship gestures.. p from the picture above macam org dating in silent. entah eeeh.... the last picture maybe saying "oppa, you did great" hahahaha

credit: SkR1BBL3z@youtube

Woa people are like talking about it. well for me as much as aku jealous, aku eager for the news of them dating. they are after all just normal org muda yg mudah jatuh cinta.. i mean hello sapa inda suka c Taeyeon, she's cute and natural and Junsu is cute as well. both are talented berabis. i found them cute together. hahahaha <3 well it's just rumour, let's just hope that no one will hurt our cute SoShi alright. People need to calm down sometimes. the news is not exactly true and pictures sometime dont tell anything. if they do date, good luck. but i still wondering about the dating rules in SM. oh yeah someone mention something about when SNSD won something in inkigayo, backstage junsu hugged taeyeon becasue she cried. imagining the scene, i feel glad. maybe it's a brother thing, not necessary couple (maybe :p). both of their sur name is 'KIM' so how??? kekekekkeke overanalysing things again.. hope the Cassie can leave Taeyeon alone, the other time the Elves are being naughty by bashing Taeng!! Honeys please protect Taeng hahahaha..

Another big news!!!! SM going to release another boy-group SHINEE (pronounce shiny) age 14-18, young? yes!!! i feel so old now. but the preview is nice and the song is catchy and lovely. i always love SM artist anyway. so will give them a go. people said they're trying to be Big Bang!!! Hellllllo!!!!! WTH are you talking about, big bang is a bit different from them. If you look again, Big Bang is like adventurous, they are more hiphop techno dance, while Shinee is more RnB ish. their style is kind of the same. But still you cant be TOTALLY ORIGINAL!! that would be impossible. even big bang, they're not 100% original they must be inspired by other artists as well i.e US celebs. Come on people 'reality check' please!!! Anyhow~ will anticipate their first video today!!!!

credit:soyboy01@youtube

2008-05-20T03:45:00.000-07:00

안녕하세요~

GOD, i think i'm going insane right now. Since i have nothing else better to do, im like crazily berabis check Korean Variety Shows punya forum and reading all the news related to "We Got Married". It's so banyak that i'm so lazy to actually flood this post with all my comments. Im like AN-BI Couple fan. Gileer kali, i wish dorg banar2 together, this is so odd but i cant help it. And im not surprise one day dorg cakap "we're dating" hahahaha.

Arah this show Sang Sang Plus Season 2, alot of them ask this question "If Andy initiate the relationship, would you say yes?" and her answer is "Neh~ (Yes in Korea)". in addition to that Junjin and Dongwan (Shinhwa member with andy) was there to witness it. even they joke around about her already dating Andy hahahaha and they call Solbi sister-in-law (Andy told this to people). Bless them. i watched Star Golden Bell as soon as the sub is out :)(call me obssess, i think i am. but i like this show in general. Andy was one of the guest in the show and he was asked by the MC Kim JaeDong about Solbi talking about him in another show about the relationship (Sang Sang plus) Andy said, “Solbi mentioned on the show that she would agree if I were to initiate a relationship. I do have 99% intention of dating Solbi.” everyone was so shocked when they hear this. seriously, he said it as if it's not a big problem.

When asked by the MC again if he really meant what he said, Andy replied “I’m still very busy now and I don’t have much free time. But after I’m done with the activities for the album, the musical and the movie, and if I have time to get to know Solbi better, we can talk about a relationship.” the other guest joke around as well that he'll be old by then. hahahah then there's this session in the show with Kim GuRa's son, HyunDong. He said that Andy hyung used to be very cute and now he's manly. the MC asked HyunDon to ask Andy something. he asked "Where are you going to have babies?" Andy just laughed and said "in ten years time". MC Jisuk asked. "With Solbi?" He answered "No, with the person that i love. He then look back at the MC and asked why his expression like that. then the MC said, "Owh you dont love Solbi" He then stood up and went to the MC as if he's going to beat him. i was thinking, "why are you mad Andy oppa? aaaaaaa you do love Solbi" hahahahaha

this is such a nice family photo... Andy Solbi!!!! get married already!!!

this is the letter Solbi give to Andy's mum.. so cute <3

To: Mother

How are you? I’m sorry for greeting (you) like this~

(I) should’ve come to see (you) in person…

Hearing that Mother is sick, I wanted to take care of (you).. (I) hope (you’ll) be healthy always..

(I’m) very curious.. since Andy oppa is so cool/great, (I’m) curious about Mother too~

(I) will be praying always~ (for you) to be healthy, to be happy…

Also, (I am) really grateful (to you)~ for sending an angel like Andy oppa…

Just like how (you’ve) raised (him) with care and love, (I) will make (him) happy~

Don’t worry ^^ (I) will come to see (you) some time~ until that time, fighting!!

At the end of episode 10, Andy ada bagi surprise and he gave Solbi a ring along with the roses. Andy are you proposing???? the reason behind this he said that "i would like Solbi to know that oppa's heart is open for her" OMG!!! Oh Emm Geee!!!! Gileeeerrrrr~ it seems like everywhere they went they cant escape each other. even if they are alone in a show, the other partner's name will eventually be mentioned. i wish them all the best always

Like to end it like that

2008-05-09T11:08:00.000-07:00

Woaaaa two days.. two days...

Suppose to revise for my exam... but noooooo~ instead im catching up with dramas.... aigoooo.. will list down my drama post later... apparently it's very long for some reason.. i typed it all up pastu internet down so didnt manage to actually post them. Today i handed in my last assignment.. Alhamdulilah!!! so now revising.. kind of!!!!

Talked to Hanna and we had this long phone convo.. ukan pasal exam kah apa kah... PASAL DRAMA!!! we're sad hanna hahahahahha :p oh well i have a list of drama to watch after my exam.. will soooo going to catch up i tell you :)

Okay what's happening in two days time????? Korean show leeerrr yg selalu i anticipate every weekend "WE GOT MARRIED" it's sad that last weekend was the last show for one of the couple: Alex and Shin Ae. They were so romantic. but that didnt do anything me. for me it's very fairy-tale like. Too romantic sana sini.. sweet plang.. kekekekkeke but it's nearly impossible hahahaha

The last episode.. was sad.. and i feel for Alex and Shin Ae. they started as stranger and each episode you can see how they open up to each other and Shin ae have been trough too many heartbreaking relationship.. sedih laaa.. she actually thought it's a sweet event the moment Alex bagi ia this flowerpot yg ada heartshape panya ia gtau shin ae that's he's leaving the show to concentrate more on his album. Banyak org bash Alex for being too selfish on his album.... God org immature banar eeh.. i mean Alex is afterall a singer.. of course ia pikir his career first than the show.. if dorg really like each other.. we will hear the news tuuu :p below is the video where he sang for her.. love the lyrics sooo much!!!!

credit: coolsmurf@youtube

Another surprise for the show... DonDon and Saori also leaving... Well this couple boring abis for me laa hahahaha banyak org ckp they represent alot of their marriage relationhsip where the guy pemalas abis hahahaha :p.. so they say c Saori initiate the break up pasal ia mau masuk music business.. will chek her singing skills nie.. this week episode is their last one.. hopefully DonDon replace Hwijae as the 3rd MC. cheng cheng cheng dorg kana replace with hwi jae one of the 3mcs and Jo Yeo Jeong, an actress.. she's so pretty. she's in the Kim Jong Wook's Only Love MV. Love the MV. So sweet and heart-warming. First time i see si Chae DongHa in an MV i think. i guess that's his first step of acting.. not bad.. i guess.. it sucks for his decision to leave SG Wannabe but oh well it's his life, no? hahahaha..

credit: donkunlove@youtube

Will update as soon as i have the mood to do so... for those yg alum liat the show... go and watch them.. now it's already episode 8.. weekend ani episode 9.. hahahah i think the sub team already sub the whole show up til epi 3 maybe 4 is already posted. but the cuts for shin ae.. anbi couple <--- which i love the most and SIY-CJ couple available on youtube... im an ANBI supporter.. Solbi obviously likes Andy... Andy is such a shy and keras hati kind of person.. Wish they can be together.. there's scandal about these two... hahahaha.. even Shinhwa members are playing with them... cute.. kiyowo~ Shinhwa Changjo (sp)!!! :)

Till then

2008-05-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum~

It's been a while kan? i know.. I've been busy this semester.. cant believe it the last time i update this blog is at the and of January.. now it's already May!!!! My EXAM is on the 13Th and my ASSIGNMENT due on the 9Th which is tomorrow.

I can't believe it that i'm right now trying to catch up with a lot of dramas... i caught up with recent release dramas. but will do the others later after my exam next week. i got the feeling i'm going to do that for the whole 2months before my graduation. OH YEAH!!! i cant believe im graduating soon (insya Allah... Amin~)... THREE YEARS!!!! my god time flies so fast isnt it.. For some reason i feel so sad thinking about it. i'm starting to miss every little bit of living in the UK. i think i think too much, no?

I got my case study prior to my examination already. i kept on reading it for my understanding. will write up the answer over the weekend and memorise them berabis. Quite confusing but i will try to do my best for my alast exam. i'm going to edit my HRD assignment as well later...

There goes the update for myself

2008-01-29T05:27:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

NEW SEMESTER!!!! I'm not sure whether to be happy about it or not.. because for some reason I'm in my crappy and bad mood.. probably this will take a while for me to comprehend. first day of school..yesterday the 28th, started with a very early class with 2hrs of lecture.. and guess what to make things even worse.. All my assignments keluar dah the feedback and the marks.. Syukur alhamdulilah aku pass everything..

I have two group work for this semester. one group presentation that we have to perform on Week 16.. that's 2 weeks tinggal. we're going to have our first meeting tomorrow. hope the others will attend. I'm in the same group with Catherine.. it's either her or Mandy. But thank god Susie is not in my group.. Good Luck Mandy!! Can you believe it our presentation is for 40 minutes!!! not 14 minutes.. it's 40 MINUTES.. Now ani mesti beplan semua laa nie..

The stress of being in my final year.. is not here.. i haven't check bila my graduation date. but Hayley told me it's going to be on the 18th of July!!! NOO atu akhir.. hopefully they change it to an early one.. please.. i want to go to KL hahahaha lain plang kan..

i'm busy thinking of everything that i need to do. i need to buat something before the end of this week. i need to start already on my 5000words I.S!!! Like really! Only i have a major problem. My I.S supervisor is on leave due to her surgery (so i heard) she might not be available for the whole semester!!! i mean she's the leader for the Management and HR department.. CANA NIE!!!!! the business school better get us a very good substitute lecturer soon or else... or else... or else... i dunno.. cry perhaps???

On the entertainment section:

Last weekend we had Hullian Girls slumber party for two nights in a row.. Well for the first night consider aku akhir datang laa.. since aku ke rumah c beb pukul 1.30 am.. i didnt realise dorg nunggu aku.. Tiring laa.. berabis.. we played Wii.. masak makan.. play hairdressing (barbie time).. Karaoke.. Guitar.. Pool.. What else did we do? Movie!!! hahahahahaha..

Mas didn't forget about her Korean Love.. I watched the latest EHB.. Can i be any more gileeer for gay scenes!!! For some odd reason i actually love it!!! i cant stop screaming while watching but i cant help to find it cute.. because i know they are so not GAY!!! hahahahahahah... i sooooo am waiting for the sub to come out...

Other then than i was shocked to know something.. Lee BoRam from SeeYa and DongHa from SG Wannabe are dating/couple for 14 months!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! im happy for them. i thought that Boram and Eunhyuk have something going on. Especially when there's rumour about them. Apparently not.. i know DongHa is dating someone, but he said she's not in the showbiz.. oooooh nice going for covering it up. But Eunhyuk once mentioned that he's in love... could it be one-sided? woaaa..

ALBUMS/SINGLE 2008

January
Park Hwayobi Vol 6
Lexy Vol 4
T (Tasha) Hip Hop album
Soul Star Vol 2 <-- Woaaa hope there some good song.. Love their voices

February
Tae Yang (Big Bang) – Solo single <--YB is out with a single.. Woaaa that’s definitely HOT
Take Vol 2 <-- Didn’t know they still exist :p
KARA Vol 2
SS501 – single

March
Seo Taiji Vol 8 <-- The legend of KPOP is Back after more than 10 years!!!
JinuSean – single

April
Gummy Vol 4
Park Ji Yoon Vol 7
Ok Ju Hyun Vol 3

May
Bada Vol 4
Epik High Vol 5

July
So Nyuh Shi Dae – single
Eun Ji Won Vol 5

October
Dong Bang Shin Ki Vol 4 <-- OMG!!!!! I cant wait!!!!! a year out of Korea.. I miss them in Korea!! (not that im there anyway.. but i want them more in Korean shows!!!)
Ivy Vol 3

November
Jewelry Vol 5 <-- with 3 new members together with Park jung ah and Seo in young
Lee Hyori Vol 3

December
Big Bang Vol 2
Tony Ahn Vol 3
Boa Vol 6 <-- Woaaa.. Hope her fans in korea is still strong.. she's been away for a while now i think since 2005..

Not sure what month but still in 2008

Battle Vol 1 <-- finally- I don’t get how they suddenly disappear..
Shinhwa Vol 9 <-- Phew.. Probably their last before some of them enlisted for the army..
Park Bom (YG Ent) – 1st single
Gong Min Ji (YG Ent) – 1st single
Son Dam Bi – 2nd Single
Jessica H.O. Vol 1
Eugene (SES) Vol 3 <-- Finally have time for her singing career
TaeBin Vol 2
Kangta Vol 4
MC Mong Vol 4
DJ Doc Vol 7
Seo In Young Vol 2

Source: soompi+absolutezero@zerodegrees

Woa.. I can't imagine how the year end awards going to be like.. i mean we have DBSK!! BOA!! SHINHWA!! HYORI!! in the list here.. those are the top gasoo in Korea.. SuJu is i dunno???? There's a rumor about SuJu China.. as their sub goup which including Henry (Chinese Canadian) and this Chinese guy (who apparently HOT).. but enough about that. i dont want to be like the other Crazy Elves who dont have anything better to do but to protest for the 6th time with the other god knows 600-1000 Elves in front of SM building.. God now i sounded like those bunch of people sho arguing about the protest.. OMONA!!! hahahahahaha..

DBSK HWAITING!!!! Hope they can sweep away all the awards like last time.. By the way i'm currently spotting a talented boy band Cho Shin Sung/ SuperNova under MNet Media.. PWOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Love them with SNSD!!! Sorry SuJu.. i love you guys with SNSD as well..

till then <3

2008-01-21T05:05:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~

News: DBSK in CAR ACCIDENT!!!!!
Headline: CRAZY FAN LEAVE MY BOYS ALONE!!!!!
Story: Ok so they're on their way for a fan-meeting and some crazy fan followed them from behind. the driver trying to lose them and they end up having a car accident. Changmin and Jaejoong were rushed to the hospital but thank god they're fine and went back to the fan-meeting place. What i dont get it that, some of the fans complaining that they're not very happy that day!! WHO WOULDN'T THEY JUST HAD THE MOST SHOCKING EXPERIENCE. God people can be so stupid..

Anyway... I WANT TOHOSHINKI'S 'T' ALBUM THE ONE WITH 2CDS/2DVDS!!!! I SOOOOO LOVE THIS SONG!!! Kissしたまま、さよなら

Composed/Written by Jaejoong and Yoochun <--- Aint they GREAT!!!!

Lyrics:

[YC]
Blink, it's my lip
Can you feel it?
Open... open your eyes
Just look at me now

[YH]
僕の世界の全てだった
Boku no sekai no subete datta
>Everything in my world

[YC]
無くしてかったほの骨も　
Nakushite katta houno kotsumo
俺たちい切ねも
Oretachi setsu ne mo
溢した熱い恋も　
Koboshita atsui koi mo
色はせた涙を
Iro wa seta namida wo
>Is like I lost my main flesh and blood.
We also know
Sprinkling a passionate love.
The colour of tears.

[JJ]
Girl, tell me little lie
Please tell me little lie
聴こえるように Ha...
Kiko eru youni, ho~
>Girl, tell me little lie…
please tell me little lie…
Did you hear?

[YH]
でも柔らかく
Demo yawarakaku
この手から毀れた
Kono tekarakoboreta
君
Kimi...
>But tender, these pair of hands made you perish.

[JS]
Long way before
Long way before sou そう
傷か中たあの日　
Kizu kana nakatta ano hi
離しかける　
Hana shikakeru
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Yes, the day (I) was hurt, begin to seperate from you

Long way before
Long way before tada ただ
泣いてないて泣いて　忘れるしかない
Naite naite naite wasurerushi kanai
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Only, musn't cry musn't cry again, I won't forget

[YH]
間がこ続くこの道に　
Magakotsudu ku kono michi ni
今はいない君え
Ima wa inai kimi e
>Continue to walk on this road, now it's already no longer you.

[All]
君え
Kimi e

[YH]
キスしたまま　Good Bye
Kissu shita mama Goodbye
>After we kissed, Goodbye

[JS]
Girl, tell me little lie
Please tell me little lie ho
聴こえるように
Kiko eru youni, hm~
>Girl, tell me little lie… please tell me little lie…
Did you hear?

[CM]
いま振りつもる　
Ima huritsumoru
粉雪が僕を抱きしめる
Konayuki ga boku wo dakishimeru, oeh~
>Now such strangeness, I'm hugging onto the layers of snowflakes.

[JJ]
Long way before
Long way before そう
傷か中たあの日　
Kizu kana nakatta ano hi
離しかける　
Hana shikakeru
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Yes, the day (I) was hurt, begin to seperate from you

Long way before
Long way before tada ただ
泣いてないて泣いて　忘れるしかない
Naite naite naite wasurerushi kanai
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Only, musn't cry musn't cry again, I won't forget

[YC]
記憶に滲んだ　
Kioku ni jinda
涙の克つわ
Namida no katsu wa
>Permeated the memories, overcame the tears

[All]
渇いていく
Kawaite iku
>longing for

[YC]
僕の心
Boku no kokoro
>my heart

[CM]
数え切れない　
Kazou e kire nai
星のように
Hoshi no youni, oeh~
>Innumerable, these stars

[JS]
Long way before
Long way before tada ただ
泣いてないて泣いて　忘れるしかない
Naite naite naite wasurerushi kanai
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Only, musn't cry musn't cry again, I won't forget

[All]
Long way before
Long way before I know

[CM]
君は胸の中に
Kimi wa mune no naka ni
いつまでも
Itsuma demo
>Inside your heart, until forever

[All]
Long way before
Long way before tada ただ　
泣いてないて泣いて　キスしたまま
Naite naite naite Kissu shita mama
>Lonely people… Lonely people
Only, musn't cry musn't cry again, after kissing

[JJ]
さよなら
Sayonara
>Goodbye

credit: yuknowjae11280126 + me + vvn (translation)

A/N: I have no idea whether it is 'Long Way Before' or 'Lonely People'.. well it seems to me it's long way before though.. it's like thinking about the past which is long way before something happen.. inda kah?

it's such a great song. Yoochun is such a great composer. im surprised that Jaejoong also composed this song. The lyrics were made by Yoochun. i think Jae help out on the music as well. Who said my boys are not talented.. musically!!! hahahahaha.. According to Jae this song said something about the partner left the world.. that's why it ended with 'sayonara'.. Yoochun's voice at the begining is so sad. its as if they actually cried singing this song... ok aku kejiwa.. which i am.. cant blame me..

2008-01-21T04:57:00.000-08:00

I just like to post this interview with DBSK/Tohoshinki.. i've been over the blue on them for god knows how long.. 2-3 years perhaps..

Memories
Q: What's the most memorable incident of the What's In series?
YH: When we were supposed to play five-on-five soccer, but ended up in a snow fight.
JS: The games played during the first month.
YC: The outdoor barbecue.
JJ: Fishing at the farm.
CM: Outdoor barbecue.

[TONIGHT]

Q: What will you be doing tonight?
YH: Watching Detective Conan.
JS: Playing games with Changmin.
YC: Composing.
JJ: Bathing.
CM: Playing games with Junsu.

[VOICE]

Q; What's the strength in your own voice?
YH: A versatile voice that shifts according to the different genres.
JS: Husky voice.
YC: Sweet voice.
JJ: Beautiful voice (laughs)
CM: A voice that can reach very high notes (laugh)

[SUMMER DREAM]

-Reincarnation
Q: If you can be reincarnated, what do you want to do?
YH: Inspector.
JS: Soccer player.
YC: I want to continue to stay as Tohoshinki.
JJ: Supermarket owner.
CM: Be a normal university student and attend date parties.

-Tears
Q: The last time you teared
YH: When I saw rainbow bridge.
JS: Not very recent, during the Budokan LIVE
YC: Over nothing really important.
JJ: I didn't.
CM: When I watched the movie [Tokyo Tower]

[NO?]

-Unhappiness
Q: When were you in a bad mood recently...?
YH: When I hurt my waist
JS: When I didn't eat well and had a stomachache.
YC: When I bought things at a place, only to discover that another place sold the same at a much cheaper price.
JJ: When the shop assistant displayed a bad attitude to the customers.
CM: When I accidentally deleted information in the computer.

-News
Q: What news have you been noticing recently?
YH: Doing countdown activities of sorts in Japan.
JS: I want to enter the beautifully lit robongi midtown.
YC: I heard that there were shops extremely spicy robongi ramen.
JJ: There's a new version of computer, I feel like buying it.
CM: I heard that there's a type of fish that's good for health. I want to try it.

[PURPLE LINE]

-Improvement
Q: In which area do you want to improve on yourself?
What do you want improved in the world?

YH: For myself, I want to speak even more fluent Japanese. For the world, an orderly development.
JS: For myself I want to improve my falsetto. I want cars that do not pollute the Earth for the world.
YC: I would want my composing to improve to the next level. For the world, a place with no war.
JJ: For myself, it is to have an improvement in the way I think about things and the way I see myself. For the world, traffic: Flying cars.
CM: I want to be healthy. As for the world, actually it's not bad the way it is now.

[FOREVER LOVE]

-Sudden impulse
Q: When were you suddenly touched/affected?
YH: When I saw a show mainly centering on humans.
JS: When I got many wishes from people around me on my birthday.
YC: When I saw my dog after a long time.
JJ: When I was singing FOREVER LOVE.
CM: When I saw the beautiful Tokyo night view on Rainbow Bridge.

-Precious item
Q: What is the most precious item to you?
YH: Family
JS: Healthy family
YC: Members.
JJ: Death sauce (????)
CM: Members.

[LAST ANGEL]

-Peeves
Q: What do you hate the most now?
YH: Washing dishes
JS: Engaging in battle with Changmin during games
YC: Junsu's oyaji gags.
JJ: Bento.
CM: Junsu's oyaji gags.

-Imagination
Q: What is a life that you imagine youself to have?
YH: Gathering all the most important people in my life, and then becoming a village together.
JS; Hvaing a soccer field in my home.
YC: A free and relaxed life
JJ: A cosy life with my loved one.
CM: A life spent eating food made with sincerity.

[LOVIN' YOU]

-Words
Q: Which line do you like saying the most?/ Which phrase said to you was most unforgettable?
YH: Making it come true yourself.
JS: Junsu has really good sportsmanship (laughs)
YC: Try your best to do your best
JJ: Do it with all possibility
CM: Running away won't solve anything.

[TRICK]

-Not being disovered
Q: What trick would you play on the members if you would never be discovered?
YH: Spoiling Yoochun's keyboard.
JS: Changing the contact numbers on Jaejoong's mobile.
YC: Hiding the towel while Yunho's bathing.
JJ: Spoiling the air-conditioner so that Yoochun won't switch it on.
Changmin: Changing the commands on Junsu's computer.

-Warning
Q; If you had to set your own wake-up ringtone, what would you set?
YH: Wake up~
JS: You must work hard today!!
YC: You're starving~~! Hurry wake up and eat~~!
JJ: You can't sleep anymore~
CM: You can't get out of bed lazily!

[RAINBOW]

-Smile
Q: Why do you think the person in front of you is smiling?
YH: Self-confidence.
JS: Saying oyaji gags...
YC: Someone hugged him.
JJ: Someone gave him good food.
CM: He's singing.

-Love
Q: What's the difference between love and crushes ('like')?
YH: Love is forever
JS: Feelings of affection/crush would drain away, love is FOREVER LOVE.... Hahaha
YC: Crushes would end, but love continues
JJ: Responsibility
CM: I'm not sure yet

[PURPLE LINE]

-Wish
Q: What do you wish for now?
YH: Singing LIVE on a gigantic stage
JS: Meeting fans at a big arena.
YC: Carrying out activities healthily this year.
JJ: Singing live in Tokyo Dome (not sure about this)
CM: Sleeping for a really long time.

[LOVE IN THE ICE]

-Sadness and loneliness
Q: When did feel sad and lonely?
YH: Before ending the LIVE
JS: WHen my oyaji gags failed to make people laugh
YC: When I ate supper alone
JJ: Before ending the LIVE
CM: On a sleepless night

-Comfort
Q; When do you feel the most comforted?
YH: Calling my parents
JS: Parents' voices
YC: Playing with the dog
JJ: Listening to music
CM: Guitar

[SHINE]

-Blessed
Q; When did you feel the most blessed?
YH: When I felt the fans' love
JS: When people laughed during oyaji gags.
YC: WHen I see my dog.
JJ: When I added death sauce on my curry ramen and ate it.
CM: When I ate enough delicious food.

-Time
Q: If there was a week of vacation, what would you want to do?
YH: Meet with my parents and friends
JS: Do sports with my friends
YC: Walk the dog and relax.
JJ: Thinking of compositions
CM: Work hard on practising guitar

[DARKNESS EYES]

-Feelings
Q; Who is the most kind of the members and why?
YH: Junsu, becuase he can create a cheerful atmosphere no matter when.
JS: Jaejoong, because he has great sympathy/empathy.
Yoochun: Yunho, because as the leader, he has to keep everything together
JJ: Changmin, becuase he's the youngest, so he's the most obedient no matter what I tell him (laughs)
CM: Yoochun, because he always eats supper with me.

-Door
Q: If you see a door in an unknown place, what do you think lies behind that door?
YH: Myself 10 years from now.
JS: Soccer stadium
YC: A place I want to go (Those kind of doors in Doraemon where you can go wherever you want through a door)
JJ: Dreams
CM: A weird world

[RIDE ON]

-Freedom
Q: Your own definition of freedom?
YH: On the stage
JS: Singing
YC: Passing leisure time in a coffee shop.
JJ: When I get rid of the managers
CM: When I'm watching movies and dramas I like.

-Dreams
Q: A dream you had recently?
YH: Fighting with the manager
JS: A dream that was exactly the same as one I had on my birthday
YC: Looking for money
JJ: When I was singing LIVE and flew towards the sky
CM: Being very good at guitar.

credits:
http://tvxq5.com
http://tieba.baidu.com/f?kz=310150719
Cynsinnn @ dbsg LJ
[LOVIN'YOU]+source finder=dbsk_tsuki-chan41 + legra @soompi

2008-01-08T04:53:00.000-08:00

Im back again... Assalamualaikum..
Countdown: 9 days to exam!!!!

Yo i just want to share some video... SM Ent and YG ent and JYP ent..
Those three are 'what they say' the biggest Entertainment company that like to go against each other. Althoug YG is totally different story.. because they practically produce different genre of music.. Well JYP is like a bit of both SM and YG's genre.. well i donno..

That's SM performance. Not really as great as previous years because there's no DBSK and BOA.. but still.. i wish DBSK was there...

I didnt know that G-Soul is a hella good singer. didnt notice him before. This is actually the first time i see Min since she debut. i've seen her before debut (watch i mean) since she's the friend of HyoYeon from SNSD.

Of all the performances between the entertainment industries. i love YG the most... they really know how to rock the stage.. SeungRi is not there... he's hospitalised. after this show TOP and G-Dragon hospitalised. G-Dragon manage to get to the year end performance with SEungRi but not TOP.. btw.. TaeBin is supper uber hot in the performance..

For me this year SBS Award show is the best... it's like the Whole KPOP celeb have the chance to perform except for those who are away from korea.. isnt that great...

i dont know when i will update on my vacation...

k laterrr... i need to revise before kim dtg ke rumah to check me whether aku belajar or not... scaryyyyy...

2008-01-07T01:21:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum...

Countdown: 10 days to exam!!!!!

Went to Kim's place for dinner last night. Gladiator is on TV well i watched it sikit sikit since everyone is busy talking at the same time and eating.. I cant help to check out whether Exploring Human Body's 9th episode kuar dah or not. so c didi punya lappy is right in front of me. So check youtube.. n OMG IT'S OUT!!!!!!!!!!

the moment i've been waiting for!!!! DBSK + SuJu!!!!!! im going crazy.. na pichoso!!!
the whole theme is DBSK Vs. SuJu... i dont want to think so deep on the theme.. Although i love DBSK more...

First DBSK Korean Show in 2008!!!!!!!! Yipeeeee.. although they film it in December but who cares!!! =D

My MAN!!!! kekekekekekek Although he lost in the DogdeBall match against Shiwon.. he's still hot.. Junsu won against Shiwon.. does that mean junsu is better than Yunho???? hahahahahah probably :P After Shiwon won.. he seems so bad losing to his hyung so he hugged Yunho.. so sweet.. well shiwon is always like that anyway kekekeke

Spot a jealous Chunnie... Yoochun cant you just let them be hahahahahahaha.. i love HyukSu couple.. i want to see more of them.. did the PD cut their scene or something.. i want more of them!!! please since they barely together.. hahahahaha... i dont see YunHae couple... Come out Come out where ever you are...

Changmin!!!! Changmin!!!!!! he' soooo innocent n so cute at the same time.. he laughed a lot in the show which i love... with his hair cut he looks like Junno KAT-TUN.. with a long hair he looks like Jerry F4.. can this guy be any more hotter?

In SuJu's thank yous in their 2nd Album, Kyunhyun mention something about thanking Changmin who visited him and given him strentgh whatsoever.. i wonder if it's Choikang Changmin!!!! and when i see this picture i was like.... yey yey yey yey... hahahahha they're together...hahahaha im pretty random now...

Emo kuuuu Emo kuuuuu... WHY????
SAL panya besambung.. now i have to wait for another weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk... the sub will be out soon.. someone is in the process of subbing them already.. n the chinese sub is out.. uwaaaa gillerrrrr laju jua orang cina ani... inda tidur kali????

When i was surfing i found this... DONG BANG SHIN GI's 2008 SCHEDULE

Jan 7 2008, Tokyo - MTV [live list]

Jan 9 2008, Tokyo - [Pati Pati] Magazine

Jan 10 2008, Tokyo - MTV [live list]

Jan 10 2008, Tokyo - [ARENA37C] Magazine Cover

Jan 12 2008, Tokyo - Magazine

Jan 16 2008, Tokyo - 16th japanese. Single [Purple Line]

Jan 17 2008, Tokyo - JP Yahoo! music

Jan 18 2008, Tokyo - [Oricon Style] Magazine

Jan 19 and 20 2008, Seoul - 'Cassiopeia' Fan meeting

Jan 23 2008, Tokyo - [Ray] Magazine

Jan 23 2008, Tokyo - [Apiringu] Magazine Cover

Jan 23 2008, Tokyo - [Kindai]First solo interview

Jan 26 2008, Seoul - DBSG 15th Single [Together] in Korea

Jan 26 2008, GuangZhou - Sprit Concert

Jan 27 2008, Seoul - 2008 HERO FESTIVAL

Jan 28 2008,Tokyo - [More] Magazine

Feb 6, 13, 27 2008, Tokyo - TVXQ! Member SOLO

Mar 5, 12 2008, Tokyo - TVXQ! Member SOLO

Mar 18, 20 2008, Yokohama - 3rd LIVE TOUR 2008 ~T~

Mar 26, 27 2008, Osaka - 3rd LIVE TOUR 2008 ~T~ Osaka Hall

Apr 1, 12 2008, Fukuoka - 3rd LIVE TOUR 2008 ~T~ 1-11 Fukuoka Marine

Apr 15, 16, 19, 20 2008, Yisihol- Japan - 3rd LIVE TOUR 2008 ~T~

May 3 2008 Yisihol- Japan - 3rd LIVE TOUR 2008 ~T~ Saitama supercomputer arena

May 10 2008, TaiPei - 2ND ASIA TOUR "O"

May 31 2008, ShangHai - 2ND ASIA TOUR "O"

Aug 31 2008, ShangHai - Dream Concert

credit: Rising Sun @ Soompi

Sian dorg in January ulang alik from Tokyo-Seoul-Tokyo-Seoul and so on.. hope my boys get enough rest.. 2nd Asia tour alum abis??????? Matttaaaay~ kesian dorg.. luan high in demand..(macam salah je :p) cant wait for both of their singles!!!! Purple Line and Together.... Jap and Korean... i miss them in Korea... come back soon.....

Next is their album/single release:-

01; January Release of THSK's 16th Single Purple Line
-Japanese Commercial song / 'O' Asia Tour, Bangkok DVD included

01; January Release of THSK's 3rd Japanese Album
-Showcasing more mature abilities/talents / Self-composed DVD included / Glamorous 60 page Photoshoot

03; March Release of THSK's 17th Single ありがたい笑い [Arigatai warai / Thankful smile]
-Simple Idol Dance / Junsu's solo song, Jaejoong & Changmin's duet song

06; June Release of THSK's 18th Single -You're Mine
-Composed and written by Yoochun / Coupon for a Handshake meeting included

07; July Korean 1st Best Album released 영심이 (永心이 - 영원히변치않을너 / YoungShimee - You who will never change)
-All songs from each album released in Japan/Korea (4 CDs)
-DVD with activities since debut in Korea and Japan (4 DVDs)

08; August Small rest- Attending concerts in Japan . Korea . China

09; September 4th Official Korean Album Released 4ever with 'TVXQ'
- Song composed by YooChun / Solo songs by Jaejoong, Changmin, Junsu / Yunho's mini-drama included

Source: Naver blog
Source Finder: The Aggy*bub (Aggy) @ IN:COM
Translation Credits: The Aggy*bub @ IN:COM
Original Language: Korean
Thanks to Marble@DBC

Korean album in September!!!!!! YEYYYY YEYYYYYY YEYYYYYYYYY..... their songs... solosss im going crazy..... small rests+ concerts= emmmm not resting... WTH!!!

Neway... til then.. gotta start my revision.. btw it's not snowing today..'oh blame it on the weatherman *singing*' apa nieeee i want snow..... Let it snow Let it snow Let it snow!!!!!

<3 Baby Gee

2008-01-05T13:27:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum!!!!

im in my fangirling mode..... all thanks to HanZi... What have you done to me girl?!!!???!!?!?!?!??! im back to Massu's lover.. kekkekekeke

Anyhow.. im going to make this short... because i feel like screaming at the moment.. Yo i've been watching this Korean show, Exploring Human Body.. the one with Super Junior. guess what the next episode which will be aired like on the 6th or 7th of January.. is featuring non other than DONG BANG SHIN KI!!!!! *Scream* seriously i did scream when i learned this news when i was in London. the others think im crazy... Hell yea.. i am crazy.. 18 hot guys kali aaaaah 13+5 = mas pengsan!!!!

uwaaaaa i wish it was Junsu with Eunhyuk.. since they're best friend.. but i cant resist Yoochun.. so why not.. hopefully i can see HyukSu couple!!! *dreamland*

Shiwon and Yunho!!!! OMG the two are the best player of the group.. player as in sportsmen!!! both competitive and great!!! i hope Yunho win though.. im so bad!!! sorry Shiwon!!!

i cant wait... i cant wait... i cant wait... i cant wait... i cant wait...

P.S: i realised that if people view my blog using Mozilla.. macam aneh my page.. that's what i notice from Didi...

will post my December vacation summary soon probably in the next few days..

Bye~

2007-10-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum people~

i hope it's not to late to say~

SeLaMaT HaRi Raya AiDiL FiTRi~ MoHoN Maaf ZaHiR DaN BaTiN~

have been busy with my life. Works are getting banyak-er and time is getting sikit-er. Baru jus begining of the semester and yet im already stress about my work. it's my FINAL year. *sigh* I'm down with a cold this week. And this week i have performance for BruLeeds raya. can i perform that day? wallahuaklam~ mudahan tah ku sehat before that. the weather is getting cold or is it just me because im sick?

Ah by the way~ i have this story gwe lagi nulis nieh~ ngak tau bagus atau ngak~ gwe ngak berapa ini bahasa ingris... but will post it all the time if i have time jugak ituh~ gosh the medicine is eating my head now.. ergggh.. i was so bored and i cant sleep so gwe buat poster see below

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Lawa? it's the poster for my fanfiction. p kan entah aaah aku inda tau how to make the picture as a separate web image.. so blur.. it took hours for me to bepikir.. haiya.. why am i doing this plang baik plang ku buat kaja ku... oh well.. till then..

Assalamualaikum~
With love Masyha/BaBy Gee

2007-07-22T23:31:00.000-07:00

17th July 2007-
Assalamualaikum~

Lusa c Abeb balik to Aussie. *sigh* got mixed feeling about it. I’m not that sad to start with but I’m surely going to miss him... He’s an annoying brat nowadays but he’s still my lil brother... Now ia jalan to meet some of his friends. He never really stayed at home that long anyway. Yesterday we went to Tua’s place for the makan makan 40 hari. I met a lot of my cousins of course. Waa I just jumpa anak kaka amal!!! C Dany cuteeeeeeeee... ia senyum masa jumpa akuuu matanya basar...cuteeeeeeeee!!!! hwahwahwahwahwahwa.. I’m soooo tired yesterday sal I slept at 3 am in the morning. Supposedly, jogging wa tuu kemarin pagi... babah n babu bgni kul 6 n I was like ‘aaaah indaaa’ hahahaha so si alai ja join hahahahaha.. Gileeer 3 hrs of sleep and then jogging u gotta be kidding me...

Since I’m a Korean freak... hmmm someone (Tulip) requested for me to list down all (if not most) of the Korean drama I like. Well to start with it’s actually banyak... I watched it and not according to genre... yang ada bejual d Brunei I suggest... Couple or Trouble/Couple Fantasy (funny with a sad ending) Snow Queen (drags but worth it... teary ku meliat) One Fine Day (I like this one a lot although I dun like it at first) hmmm that’s just to mention a few. Sal in Brunei, most of them are like old box sets... I can’t remember apa lagi well there’s banyak lawa but I haven’t watch it yet n im too lazy to watch hahahahhaha.. But currently a lot of kdramas are out... so it’s really hard to catch up sometime...plus the loading taken like forever to finish... haiya...

Today’s update...

As usual I’m home alone and I’m getting tres tired of my daily routine... and I am so not getting any slimmer by day BUT fatter... daym the crave of food can’t be very productive as I have a very low metabolism rate. Things have been hectic as in, in my mind only this sort of things occurring. My obsession on fan fictions grow day by day and I just can’t help wake up in the morning and check whether there’s any updates on the chapters. Another uncontrollable obsession beside my obsession in DRAMAS.

It’s been few days after Abib left for Aussie, and to be honest I feel lonely. For I don’t know reason. I guess I’m used to be the one who left first n now I’m the one who’s sending him... gosh it’s like in one year, in 365 days im only be able to spend time with my brother for exactly 3 weeks. Sad yeah that’s the only word to describe it.

I think Babu is getting worried of me being Single. *sigh* she can’t stop bugging me about some guy, whose name I cannot say, whether he’s my boyfriend or not. She seems to like him a lot for some reason and I don’t even want to think about it. Wahwhahwhahwahwa... babu keep on bugging Abib about his girlfriend...and I actually found this rather amusing... =D

Oh well last two days was funny... ok there was this incident where I and Alai liat astro channel E! And babah n babu liat parabola on the other TV and fatin watched football Aussie Vs Japan (Japan won btw with penalty kick...yesh although babah n fatin hoped that Aussie would win). So here’s the story when the news stated that Spice Girl reunited and all. So here’s the convo goes

A: Ai... kurus tia c Syazney atu aaah
M: ......... *confuse* Syazney? Apakan All Saint? Spice Girl kali aaah...
A: hahahaha awuu aaaah.. Sapa tah tu aaah... B... sapa lupa ku namanya...
A: aku suka nie dorg dua aaah Mel C and sapa namanya b .. Yg ujung aaah (pointing at the girl at the end)
M: *with a shock face*.... Mel B? Hahahahahaha apakan lai.. buleeeeh~ u already mention nama c Mel C.. it’s obviously the other one is Mel B.. wahahahahahha..

(Sorry.. if u guys didn’t find this funny at all.. it’s funny if your there..)

There was this one day where I received a message like at 8 am in the morning. Plus I found out that my hp is still in my bag n not next to me.. gosh with sleepy eyes I reached for my phone and read the msg from c alai.. it hot something happened like maybe flat tire kah apakah.. so I was a bit nervous laaah and when I read it.. here’s the message

“Bi, u cudn’t believe pa ku bawa ke kaja.. I tot aku bawa jaket merah d sofa.. instead aku bawa ko punya suar pendek yg warna merah”

Hahahahahahhahahahahha.. matay.. suar ku bawanya ke keraja hahahahahaha.. tarus ku tebeliak mataku n ketawa hahahahha panat.. when ku gtau c fatin.. she was like.. ‘hahahahah aku Nampak tadi pagi ia bwa suar mu p aku inda tau atu suar.. sal taruh nya arah bahu nya’ ahahahahah calie eeeh..

Gosh.. banyak jua cerita ku ani aaah.. u actually can tell that im super bored.. need to go out soon.. the sooner the better or else will be... I don’t even want to think what I’ll become.. will update as frequent but.. hmm tau laaa

2007-07-06T19:04:00.000-07:00

Finally it's JULY!!!!

gileeer im like a drama kraze at the moment.. but so far i only bought 1 korean boxset :p ulike last year i bought like 5 kali n tell me why im soo z broke last year hahahahahah.. i finished watching with my mom 2 dramas:- Couple or Trouble/ Couple of Fantasy and Which Star Are You From?.. Currently watching as in streaming: Air City, Bad Couple, Meri Vs Daegu Battle, Cloud Stairs (finally the one with sub kuar..been waiting for this) , hana kimi (jap ver) and why why love.. hopefully i didnt miss anything.. banyak lagi kan ku liat but i need to meliat this one first hahahaha..

Hana Kimi Rock i tell you!!! daym!!! i didnt knw that Maki can look boyish altho nampak plang ia bini bini but she can kick it.. i watched the very first episode with sub yesterday n i was like this makes more sense than the taiwanese version. come to think of it why do i have to watch the taiwanese version first before the japanese one.. i guess the jap entertainemnt want to wait first whether the drama in taiwanese ada sambutan yg baik n they can do double/triple better than the taiwanese.. well to tell u the truth japanese always better laaa.. because they're so daring, more funnier, suited language and inda prolong berabis hahahahhaha n better acting.. no offense the hana kimi taiwanese version is funny n good acting but at some point i kinda lose interest somewhere in the mid that i have to foward it :p

Yesterday was the day of HOT BOYS OVERLOAD i tell ya~ WHY? first it's Hana Kimi with hot japanese guys. n i found out Super Junior and Tohoshinki/DBSK kuar their respective video.. i ve been wanting to watch Suju's Hengbok/Hapiness video. its the remake of H.O.T's hengbok. well i dont like comparing them i like both and both have a different feel but both happy feel into it. one word for the video 'HAPPPPPPPY!!!!' i soooo love the video some of the suju member even wear the DBSK's T-shirt huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu i love Dong Bang Junior Relationship. DBSK's video for me is a bit funny.. well for me it's funny hahahahahhahaha.. but super hot as in the weather hot dude.. hahahaha rasang ku meliat hahahahahah ok that sounded weird..

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This video might get remove very soon since the Japanese broadcasting is very strict.. huhuhuhuhuhu

Till next time.. will upload pictures during this summer.. entah aku sakai sikit..because the other day aku masuk kan the memory card this laptop inda dpt detect.. not sure who's fault or whats the fault will try to do it next time..

till then..assalamualaikum.. muaXXX

2007-06-28T23:48:00.000-07:00

Heya peepzzz~ gosh almost the end of the montha already yea. i've been busy n lazy at the same time so just make it as Mas's habit leer hahahahaha.. there's going to be a pre-outing tommorow.. but im not sure i can make it tho.. but i myt tho hahahahaha since c abib balik yesterday and he wants to meet his gf.. woohooo

Something to look forward to.. in JULY!!!!!
> Hana Kimi (Japanese Drama) should be better than the taiwanese one yeah. well hopefully..
> Coffee Prince (Kdrama).. yoon eun hye n goo yong starred in here!!!! cant wait.. the sypnosis a lil like hana kimi tho'. A girl pretended to be a guy but the storyline is completely different plus they have different reason why they pretended to be a guy. kewl.. cant wait
> Flower Boys' Series of Terror Events (Kmovie/Kdrama)- the first SM Picture present this. i was so suprise when i heard the Suju boys gonna starred in a movie. i was like WHAT!!! OMG I CANT WAIT!!! n its gonna aired like 26th july in theaters (in Korea of course) n i was like 'hmmm laju jua dorg buat' n it turns out that they made it earlier maybe around the time of the Suju's Accident back in April because there might be no Kyun hyun n Leeteuk.. but hopefully they do appear maybe somewhere. SM pictures did a good job on keeping this discreet n wow it totally suprises me.. people keep on saying that singer/hallyu stars like H.O.T, Sechsies (sp) and DBSK once starred in Movies/short drama n the response are lower than expected. However, for me DBSK theatherical drama was good.. n funny n exciting. Well maybe my opinion is a bit bias since im a big fan of DBSK... huhuhuhu but who the hell care..no?

i'm just so into the suju boys lately esp Kangin oppa!!!! *di awangan, besiul dan berterbangan*

alright.. initially im about the post just pictures of me n my summer break so far.. but now im soo lazy to kuarkan my memory card n insert n the process goes on n on n on hahahahahahah i will do that some other time..

Love Baby Gee
Assalamualaikum peepzzz

2007-06-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum peepz...

Finally im back here in Brunei.. Land of Love and FOOD!!! hahahahaha arrived Sunday afternoon. Ada sad experience.. titik hitam lam hidup ku but dont bother to typed it down because i dont want to open a door that is already closed.. yeap.. Yeah yesterday i went to my Tua's place makan 7 hari after my Tua passed away. We arrived early, so the moment aku sampai cuma jumpa bungsu je n Alai tangah. heheheh so we just helped out arah dapur and after that duduk2 menunggu.. so one by one jumpa couz n anak buah hahahaha.. yg calinya i sat at the corner n no one notice notice im there until like few minutes after that. First is kaka Nana, she sat INFRONT of me.. ia liat liat lu after i said something barutah she said 'eeh.. si bibi jua nie.. eeh bila ko balik' i used to said 2 hari yg lalu.. n c koming ckp 'bi ckp..kemarin bahari' ahahhaha so i used that line alot that night..apanya org sehari sepatah kata.. its not that i dont know the word.. its just im not used to using the word thats why..

After that.. kaka ayang datang dgn anak nya c Eileen who alum recharge lapas tidur hahahah.. C alai lambai kaka ayang aku pun lambai.. so kaka ayang blink blink pastu bisik arah c alai..'lurus kah apa ku liat ani.. c bibi kah tuu?' hahahhaha dorg inda notice sal im getting slimmer?!?!?! me slimmer.. nada laaa.. i think because my baju basar atu kali hahahhaha =D saiz ku lama berabis waaa tuuu.. after that the same story goes for kaka Hjh ita.. kaka bibi n c sayang n others.. kaka hjh lily lah yg cali.. ia sampai tarus cerita arah kaka ayang n inda liat aku n then kaka bibi ckp 'cuba ko liat sekeliling apa yg ganjil' so she liat pusing2 2 kali baru notice aku hahahahahaha.. i notice that semua anak buah ku semuanya basar basar dah.. uwaaaaaaaaaaaa basar dah anak buah ku aaaah =D cute lagi tuuuu.. wahahahaha n my youngest cousin yg baby penantang berabis wahahahaha.. tecangang nganya kerajanya..

Oh yea~ the ptg yesterday, me, alai and fatin liat Shrek3.. hmmm i can just rate the movie.. 6.5-7 out of 10.. sorry not sure whether its thats interesting or im just not into non-realistic film. hahahaha.. i met Mash n the boyfriend before masuk n dorg pun liat Shrek3.. she also said im getting kurus.. errrr.. m i the only one that thinks that im getting berisi.. hahahaha i guess its because people lama dah inda jumpa aku n yeah maybe that explains kan kan kan..

Today bgn awal konon nak pegi klinik gigi and do some filing arah my teeth n si alai cabut gigi.. n panya the counter tututp ku 9.30 n kami sampai kul 9.25 hahahahaha n the counter person said that.. the queue is gonna be very long lau ku sambut tunggu buleh jua.. n i was like.. hmmm hell no man.. so esuk tah lagi nie samam babah sal bababh dgni c fatin check matanya hahahhaha awal bgn?!?!!?!! No!!!!!! stilll jetlag... well some what laaa.. entah its hard for me to wake up early because payah kan tidur awal jua.. jetlag kah tu? hahahaha guess so.. Today i renewed my license dah... p babu inda suruh driving.. nya babu nya practice lu hahahaha so yeah inda kuu berani drive otw balik sal takut karang ketulahan nauzubillah.. got some stories.. will tell next time laaa.. now i gtg kan jalan liat si alai training softball.. oh yea i forgot to bali sunblock.. oh no.. gonna get so tan later nie.. baik ku kai bikini wahahahah jk

Ayt till next time
SAlam Manis from bibi in Brunei..
wohoooo

2007-06-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

Heya peeps...

The day is the very dull berabisly..i was browsing tru n i found this

모든 게 보여 이제야 느껴
얼마나 날 사랑했는지
너무나 가까이 있어서
내 눈이 몰랐어 얼마나 특별한지
Now I feel like I can see everything
How much I loved you
Because you were so close
I didn't see how special it was

어떡해 너무 늦었어
넌 이미 없어 이제 깨달아서
와보니 넌 벌써 떠났어
다신 올 수 없는 곳으로 미치겠어
정말 너무 보고 싶어서
이렇게 하고 떠나버리면 어떡해
바보야 왜 니 맘대로 결정해
이게 날 사랑해서야 날 위한거야
난 너랑 있어야 산단말야
What am I to do? I'm too late
You've already gone, now I'm shattered
I thought you were coming, but you'd already left
I'll go crazy if you don't come here
Because I miss you so much
If you go and leave me like this, what should I do?
I'm a fool! Why do I make my decision through your heart?
It is because I love you, I want you
I am with you, that's it

아~ 헤어짐보다 더 아픈 그리움
아~ 이제야 느껴지는 널 잃은 이 슬픔
돌아봤어 널 찾아 헤맸어
니가 있을만한 곳은 모두
꼭 만나야 했어 할말이 있었어
니가 떠나고서 깨달은거
Ah~ Worse than the break-up is the pain of yearning
Ah~ Now these feelings of losing you
It seems like you'll come back, I wandered around looking for you
Everything should've been where you were
We should've met, there's something I had to say
I left you and ruined everything

정말 특별했던 거야 너무나 귀했던 사랑이야
이제 돌아보니 다시는 못만날 그런거야
너무나 힘들어서 끝까지
가지 못할것 같다고 버려선 안됐어
우리가 너무 몰라도 너무 몰랐어
헤어지지 말았어야 했어 절대 이 말 하려 했던건데
드디어 널 겨우 찾았는데 넌 이제 없어
어떡해 1분이라도 더 우리 함께 있어야 했어
정말 1분이라도 더 우리 함께 있어야했어
It was really special, such a dear and noble love
Now it seems like there's no turning back, no meeting again
Because it was so hard up till the end
It seemed like we couldn't go and throw it away
We didn't know a thing!
We had to break-up, we absolutely shouldn't have had to
In the end I found you with difficulty, but now you're not here
We should be together for even just one minute longer
Really we should be together for one more minute

아~ 헤어짐보다 더 아픈 그리움
아~ 이제야 느껴지는 널 잃은
아~ 헤어짐보다 더 아픈 그리움
아~ 이제야 느껴지는 널 잃은 이 슬픔
Ah~ Worse than the break-up is the pain of longing
Ah~ Now these feelings of losing you
Ah~ Worse than the break-up is the pain of longing
Ah~ Now these feelings, this sadness of losing you

사랑은 진짜 사랑은 인생에 한 번이야
그 사랑은 다른 사랑으로 채울 수가 없는 거야
그러니까 니가 날 위해서 했다는 일이
얼마나 말이 안되는 일이니 다른사람이
니 자릴 너 대신 훌륭히 매꿔
Love that is true, love that comes just once in a lifetime
That love won't be able to satisfy through another love
And that is what you did for me
Things that no one else could do for me
Instead of you in that chair there is a great emptiness

날 행복하게 할거라구
나를 반드시 너보다 훨씬
좋은 사람 만나게 한다구
누가 너보구 생각해 달래
내가 대체 원하는게 뭔데
나를 행복하게 하는게 뭔데
그걸 왜 뺐어 그게 바로 넌데
You can make me happy
You are by far more than me
If you're to meet a good person
I'd think more about you than anything else
What in the world is it that I want?
What is is that makes me happy?
Why do I avoid it, it is obviously you!

hmmm.. im soo terasa with this song.. actually the lyric.. its a korean song by g.o.d, 헤어짐보다 아픈 그리움 - The Painful Longing is Worse than the Break-up. it's an upbeat song but the meaning very deep..*sigh*

will be back in 2 days in 48hrs..+ 16hrs ill be in bRuNeI!!! im so tired.. i hope i dont miss anything yet.. i finished packing already yipeeeeee~ i bought a new mobile already yipeeee~ aku kapih.. yipee~~~~~ *sigh* last announcement mas is officially kapih..say no more.. i got my U600 hehehehe.. aku alum bayar c john... lupa saja aaaaaaaah.. bah krg tah.. me, nuar and rusdi went to Leeds yeasterday.. no a good day to go out.. why? because the weather is cold.. plus mas is in the PMS mood.. plus mas masih cranky bgn tidur.. plus c Rusdi annoying hahahahahahha :p

today kami BBQ, the weather is still the same cold.. now im confuse apakan summer kah nie..???? GF c hakeem ada so at least byk org.. semua brg c nuar ada yea less worry now yea nuar.. aku abis packing and aku excess!!!!!!!!!EXCESS!!!! lurus kah eja ku tuuu watever laaaa.. i need to do something about this.. aku panic waaaa... so turun bawah had my breakfast and liat news saying c EMILY from Big Brother kana evicted because ia racist.. cause she called c Charley 'nigger'... ok... the channel inda broadcast the whole show but.. the scene practically to the public because of the past incident in Celebrity Big Brother between Jade and Shilpa.. Gosh.. You can see the world's criticism aaaah.. and the disadvantages of being very opinionated.. well.. you just have to know you limit on what to say and whats not to say gurl.. but yet people are entitle to learn from their own mistakes and regrets.. so y bother anyway..

alryt enough bout this need to take a bath and prepare for the BBQ and this will include cabut bulu ayam!!! not looking forward but yea.. i guess sooo i ahve to do it if c hakeem alum buat

Assalamualaikum

2007-06-05T06:19:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum~

계속 동안 이다 (it's been a while)

Yeah, my Internet connection is crappy at the moment for some reason plus my laptop is being awfully lagging..yea yea yea.. exam ku abis dah.. alhamdulilah.. last weekend i cleaned the whole house.. PRACTICALLY except for my room and the guy's rooms of course.. it was tiring but productive..yg mengalihkan is the toilet i spent an hr there probably more n c hakeem called me untuk makan arah jericho pun aku inda sadar hahahahha.. sorry keem will eat there before we all balik ayt..

Speaking of going HOME... im going back this SATURDAY baby~ woohoooooo~ but entah aku alum abis bali brg plus aku alum bali my phone!!!!!!!! i want to buy that Samsung U600!!!!

i just finished 2 dramas.. Witch Yoo Hee and One Fine Day.. Witch Yoo Hee just finished the last episode this morning..lama nunggu the sub out aaah.. One fine day is like in one go so yeah pretty much a very good drama..Very good and a bit different but yet typical.. i actually dont want to watch it initially because of the synopsis:- "After Seo Haneul lost her mother in a fire, she was later adopted by a wealthy family and experienced a life of many twists and turns. Seo Gun's father had married an unwed mother, thus making Seo Haneul his sister in the eyes of the law. After their parents passed away, Seo Haneul was adopted by a wealthy chairman of a large organization who has also became a gangster. Upon using Haneul to extort money, Seo Gun and Haneul slowly fall in love with each other." From there i was like hmmmm brother-sister not trough blood falls for each other hmmmm not my type of drama.. but hmmm give it a go? ok!! kes boring jua dah ku tuu n at the end i enjoyed it.. Gong Yoo is a good actor.. but i like the other guy better..

hmm... aku abis packing dah.. n i still got like 10kg not including my hand luggage.. if included jadi 17kgs.. woohoo.. aku alum bali M&S bicuits aaaah caya ku eeeh arah Hull abis.. like totally.. well basically yg ku suka plang nada tuu.. need to bali bajus some more for the family.. sedih ku for c fatin nada aaaah the jersey her size.. HOW?????? errrgggh tu kan luan kan menlengah abis tia!! sorry Tin my fault.. Miyanhye~ im going to Leeds tommorow with the guys.. n liat wayang later on.. huhuhuhuh =D excited? yea... i called RBA just now for enquiries.. luggage limit= 35kg, hand luggage limit= 7kg/person mesti satu bag saja.. (pretty annoying sal this will include laptop n ur purse WTH)and lastly Terminal= 3.. i guess all the basic questions answered..

So basically im bored at the moment.. listening to c Nuar playing his guitar n waiting for him to sing a song because im not playing any songs at the moment. *sigh* browsing tru the streaming site.. baru abis liat ProDAi episode 6.. gosh lama eeeeh the sub for the next episode!!!!! i cant wait.. i like this drama.. i feel so bad fo P-kun so much.. gosh.. you knw watching this drama remind me of all the regrets i had in my life.. sedih ku eeeh.. rawan hati ku meliat..

oh well i actually dont have anything left to say here.. good all jolly days..

family ku tersayang i'll see you guys soon like in few days baby~~~
Bonafide girls ku.. i really miss you guys.. Honto Honto ni!! mani mani bogoshipta!!
Lots of Love From Masyha @ Baby Gee

2007-05-28T11:02:00.000-07:00

날 그만 잊어요 = Forget Me Now

nan eeje jogeumssheek keudael eejeoganabwayo
kakkeum ootgeedo haneun keol ponee
jogeum teo jeenamyeon keudael mannage twedo
pangaool keot kat'ayo
I think I’m slowly forgetting about you now
and time to time, I even smile
When a bit more time passes and we meet again
I think I’ll just be happy to see you

nan keureon maeume keudae naege namaeettneun sajeeneul
hanjangssheek tweejeogyeo podaga
hoksheena keudaeneun ddo nawa tallaseo
ajeek-kkajee honjaman heemdeureo halkkabwa
In such a sentimental feeling, I look through your pictures
One by one
Perhaps because you’re not like me
You’d still be hurt by me

nal keuman eejeoyo
keudael ponaen motnan nae kee-eoge
haengbok'ajee mot'amyeon andwaeyo keudaekkajee
Forget me now
I feel foolish leaving you
You’d better not be happy

nal keuman eejeoyo
nan wae eeje kkamak'e eejeunchae
haengbok'age jal jeenael keudaega keokjeongdwejyo
ajeekdo
Forget me now
Why is everything so black for me now?
I’m worried that you’re happy without me
Still~

ajeekdo moddo ta eetjee mot'angeongabwayo
keudaereul keokjeonghago eettneun keol ponee
nal peoreen kee-eogee (ap'eun jeenan kee-eogee)
kaseume namaseo hoksheerado nacheoreom oolgeeman halkkabwa
I still haven’t been able to forget everything
Because I’m worrying over you
The memory of being left (the painful memory)
Is left behind in my heart and maybe you’ll cry like me…

nal keuman eejeoyo
(eejeojweoyo nal eejeneun keuman modoo)
keudael ponaen motnan nae kee-eoge
haengbok'ajee mot'amyeon andwaeyo keudaekkajee
Forget me now
(Forget me, now everything)
I feel foolish leaving you
You’d better not be happy

nal keuman eejeoyo
(eejeojweoyo nal eejenneun keuman modoo)
nan wae eeje kkamak'e eejeunchae
haengbok'age jal jeenael keudaega keokjeongdwejyo
ajeekdo
Forget me now
(Forget me, now everything)
Why is everything black for me now?
I’m worried that you’re happy without me
Still

keugeen sheegan heemee teungeon naman
naemam keu eodee-e keudae namaeeseo
majeemak hanbeonman nal weehan keudaega
eejeneun nal keuman ddeonayo
Let there be lonely days only for me
My love is still in your heart somewhere
For the last time would you do it for me?
Please forget about me now

eejeojweoyo nal eejeneun keuman modoo
keudael motnae eejeunchae heemdeulge haengbok'ajyeo poryeoneun
nal weehaeseo (naega haengbok'al soo eettdorok)
Forget me now, now everything
While I haven’t forgotten about you, I’m trying to be happy
For me (So I can be happy)

nal keuman ddeonayo
keudae eeje nae mame eereok'e nameunchaero
heemdeulge hajee malgo ddeonayo
Leave me now
My love, while we still feel love for each other
Leave so that it won’t be any harder for us.

2007-05-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

I HATE TO SEE YOU HAPPY

ok~ call me a bitch.. See if i care.. Nope.. I can't resist it but honestly i still have feeling for you.. Ok my fingers gatal sangat and i checked HIS Fs. N i found out something that breaks my heart. *slap face* knapa tah ku meliat.. yesh Keem you are so right " Bahapa tah ko meliat friendsternya?" *cries* i actually thought im over him. Dump all the memories of him in the Bin. but i guess.. IM NOT!! gosh seeing his friendster pix w her breaks me.. i checked her fs n found him there as well.. What's Wrong With ME!!! I Hate to see their HAPPY FACE... Yeay Yeay you all can say im a Bitch.. Sedih ku eeeh.. kenapa ku ada SECEBIS perasaaaaan ani.. He's Happy.. Do u think He'll Care about me? no?

The other Him.. havent heard from him for nearly a week.. kemana tah ia menghilang ani.. p.s its not like i miss him.. maybe kecarian.. i lose hope dah nie.. bah back to my revision going home in 2 weekssss.. babyyy~

Assalamualaikum

2007-05-26T10:01:00.000-07:00

Lovin' You- Tohoshinki's 11th Single

あの駅に着いたなら君はもう僕の彼女じゃなくなる
少しゆっくり歩いて君は言葉探してる
Ano ekini tsuitanara kimi wa mou bokuno kanojo janakunaru
Sukoshi yukkuri aruite kimiwa kotoba sagashiteru
When we've arrived at that station, you aren't my girlfriend anymore
While walking a bit slow, you search for the words to say

最後まで言わなくてもいいよその顔見ては分かるから
いつも待ち合わせしてた改札が近づくよ
Saigomade iwanakutemo iiyo sono kao mitewa wakarukara
Itsumo machiawaseshiteta kaisatsuga chikazukuyo
It's alright even if you don't say anything until the end. Looking at that face alone would make me understand
The time always met, the checking of our tickets, is nearing

Oh~ everyday 僕の隣で笑ってた
You far away もう二度とあの日の君に会えないね
Oh~ everyday bokuno tonaride waratteta
You far away mou nidoto ano hino kimini aenaine
Oh~ everyday you've laughed by my side
You far away now I won't be able to meet you again for a second time

Lovin' you 繋いでた君の手が Lovin' you 離れて行く
Lovin' you 僕の手は温もりを Lovin' you 覚えてるのに
Lovin' you tsunaideta kimino tega Lovin' you hanareteyuku
Lovin' you bokuno tewa nukumoriwo Lovin' you oboeterunoni
Lovin' you Your hand that I've held onto Lovin' you is slipping away
Lovin' you The warmth of my hand Lovin' you I remember

守れると願った気持ちは何を押し付けただけかな
君の心が閉じてくそれさえも気づかずに
Mamoreruto negatta kimochiwa naniwo oshitsuketa dake kana
Kimino kokoroga tojiteku soresaemo kizukazuni
That feeling I prayed for, that I could protect you, what could it only have pushed away?
Your heart is closing up and you aren't even aware of it

もう hard to say 何より笑顔が会いただろう
So far away もう一度笑顔の君にしたいのに
Mou hard to say naniyori egaoga aitadarou
So far away mou ichido egaono kimini shitainoni
Now hard to say more than anything I want to see your smile
So far away once more I wanted to make you smile

Lovin' you いつまでも続いてる Lovin' you 夢を見てた
Lovin' you どんな日も変わらずに Lovin' you 輝いていたよ
Lovin' you itsumademo tsuzuiteru Lovin' you yumewo miteta
Lovin' you donna himo kawarazuni Lovin' you kagayaite itayo
Lovin' you That would continue forever Lovin' you I had a dream
Lovin' you Any day, without change Lovin' you was shining

明日また会えるみたいにいつものように振り向いて欲しい
君と見たその全て思い出になる前に
Ashitamata aerumitaini itsumonoyouni furimuite hoshii
Kimito mita sono subete omoideni narumaeni
As if I could meet you again tomorrow, like anytime, I hope you could look back
Before all the things I've seen with you become memories

Lovin' you 繋いでた君の手が Lovin' you 離れて行く
Lovin'you 僕の手は君だけを Lovin'you 求めてるのに
Lovin' you tsunaideta kimino tega Lovin' you hanareteyuku
Lovin' you bokuno tewa kimi dakewo Lovin' you motometerunoni
Lovin' you Your hand that I've held onto Lovin' you is slipping away
Lovin' you You are the only one my hand Lovin' you is looking for

Lovin' you いつまでも続いてる Lovin' you 夢を見てた
Lovin' you どんな日も変わらずに Lovin' you 輝いていたよ
Lovin' you itsumademo tsuzuiteru Lovin' you yumewo miteta
Lovin' you donna himo kawarazuni Lovin' you kagayaite itayo
Lovin' you That would continue forever Lovin' you I had a dream
Lovin' you Any day, without change Lovin' you was shining

Lovin' you 夢を見てた
Lovin' you yumewo miteta
Lovin' you I had a dream

Lyrics & Translations creditz to extrafugly@DREAMiNTVXQ

Translation Creditz: system_chaos@DBSGLJComm

Japanese Lyrics Creditz: 조아 & 신이랑

2007-05-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

EXAM!!! EXAM!!! IN A WEEEEEEK!!!!

yup yup yup~ havent been updating.. So let's just assume that im doing my revision laaa aaah =D well, i did now tinggal satu lagi.. hopefully i can get it done by today so i can go shopping this weekend and revise balik balik..

EXAM!!!! BUSINESS LAW AND ETHICS 1st JUNE 1.30pm

oh well, hopefully i can get all the names (as in the cases name, it's actually harder than History imagine that) into my head.. AMIN~ oh well im releasing stress at the moment. So im watching some random videos in YOUTUBE regarding Korean Gameshow, XMAN. i love this show, but sadly the last season is pretty bad rated because they changed the whole thing and cut of the dangyunhaji (of course) game, which is the best part of the show. I was watching some cut of Dangyunhaji, it's funny n sweet n romantic laaa saja~ So i was watching this cut pasal c Jung Ryeo Won (MNIKSS) Vs. Tim (Singer) and i read the comment kan..i read that ia pernah two timed c Brian Joo (FTTS) and Junjin (Shinhwa) n i was like SHIT WTH!!!!! Brian Joo did mentioned this in YSMM i watched it, n i was like awww poor Brian n i didnt bother to find out who the girl is.. rupanya c Ryeo Won, n at that time she already dated c Junjin for a year.. DAym Girl.. i liked you n now im not sure.. well to be honest i still like her.. she's pretty n all.. but Brian n Junjin i love as well.. Sian eeeh.. i hope Brian n Junjin r still friends sal i dun want because of this they'll no longer be.. I feel bad for Brian tho'

Brian (Left)

Jung Ryeo Won (Middle)

Junjin (Right)

nah~ sekalinya mengupdate ukan pasal diri.. pasal korean jua.. ish ish ish.. im going CRAZY man with all the memorise that i need to do.. the inside me is screaming out loud..

UR THERE BUT UR NEVER HERE!!!!

goes up for u~ im pretty confident now that i have absolutely no feelings for u.. i like you but.. i guess entah.. if u could at least give me some interest or something that can assure me to like u more.. i would be willing to.. but somehow thats not the case. you dont seem to show any interest in me and furthermore i dont see that im that special to you either. so what's the point of me confusing myself, NO? i think it's better for us to remain as friends for the time being kan.. i guess im asking to much from you earlier.. although you dont read this but i just feel like telling this to you..but i dont know how.. i dont want you to run away from me but yet you always dont get what im trying to say to you and we'll end up fighting again.. i just dont get it.. Maybe im really asking too much.. but sometime i feel that i really like you but i know i shouldnt cause i know i will end up hurting myself.. So i rather not talk about it. i wish i can tell u to stop flirting with me if ur not sincere.. hahahahaha here i m rambling on and on about him but at the end he still remain not knowing about anything!!! *sigh*

EXAM PERION IS NOW ON!!!! GOODLUCK EVERYONE!!!! WISH YOU GUYS ALL Z BEST!!!

Salam Sayang Selalu~ BaBy G.. MasYha BoNa FiDe~

Assalamualaikum

2007-05-08T12:10:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum~

Things to keep in mind.. not to stress out.. jgn giddy.. not to sing some random songs hwahwahwahwa.. ntah im so kerazie for no reason today.. WHY? heheheh aceleer

This morning i went to uni to assist Susan in finishing up the report. Gosh i was so surprised when she told me Catherine's work which is the introduction and Section B is not there.. So mencari laa ku.. mengunjar from one pendrive to another.. thank god..c catherine inda properly log out ia punya account arah that desktop so ada arah g-drive nya hahahah.. talking about being LUCKY.. Susan is very difficult entah eeeh.. i was thinking to cut her work and put arah this other file..but she said nooo put everything in my file.. n i was like WTH apakan lagi banyak keraja kali tuu eeeh.. so she was like "Mas, i just don't understand You!! i've worked all night to finish up my work and all" gosh this girl aaah not reasonable.. ngalah tah ku.. manaja laaa.. Plus she's weird as well.. WHY? u knw she stood next to me when i used the computer so i put my mobile next to me. So someone texted me, so Susie was like picked up my phone and say 'hello' thinking it's a call.. i was like 'errrm that's a msg' and then there was a phone call.. BSU tipun telling me my ticket confirm and will be send by post.. she actually picked up my PHONE!!! like i was like there!! adakah manusia cemani ani?!?!? iski bnar jua kan jawab tipun org.. sapa kah kan d tunggu nya arah tipun ku.. Such a weird girl hahahahaha =D

I was so not in the mood today. no mood to watch any dramas.. plus the fansubbers inda mo people to distributes their subtitles so my favourite uploaders refuses to continue uploading good drama due to the fansubbers' request.. This is soooo SAD for me... Siuk dah ku meliat..NOOOOOO!!!!! Fola tipun aku tadi asking how am i.. who's Fola? some random guy who i met in uni who asked for my number and ME stupidly give due to entah reason.. He wants to meet me again coz he said he misses my beutiful smile *smirk* manaja laa ko wang~ i said eermmmm entah aaaah not sure aku ada time.. he asked me whether i have a bf or not.. and again ME stupidly answered NO!! Honest bnar jua dah ku tu *slap* cudhv said ada inda ja *slap again* i dont knw when he asked me that i thought about c Ame..errrmm bwoooh~ dang!!! im so confuse.. cemana nie?.. How?

Love Baby 78

2007-05-06T15:19:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum sebagai permulaan =D

Gosh, sedang meliat this Drama 'Soulmate'. Another good drama..very different.. here's the sipnosis-

The person you meet once in your lifetime that fate has brought to you! This person you call your soulmate. The year 2006, your soulmate is secretly creeping up on you… What if my other half is really living somewhere out there; will I be able to notice them? It is a question that can be asked by anyone who is in their marital age. A time when matchmaking agencies are flooded with people! Try re-identifying the true meaning of marriage and love while watching 6 couples live the same life that you’re living in. We will show you everything you need to know in the love game! is a sitcom young adults and adults can enjoy. Members of all age groups can enjoy it, and benefit from its honest and ongoing talk about love. It gives its viewers some final answers to the “love game” questions and presents confusing issues in a way that everyone can understand. The drama will tell you everything you’ve always wanted to know, from spending a night with a guy you don’t like, to how to completely win over a guys heart; and much more!! It spills out all the secrets of the love game.

“It is easier to stir up a women’s hear than to drink wine.” Dong-wook, a playboy who no one can even dare to follow. “My boyfriend of 5 years!! He is definitely my soulmate!!” Soo-kyung, a girl who only looks at one man like a sunflower; a perfect, pure hearted character. Two people who have never seen each other, and who live on the opposite sides of the world from each other live and love in their own way, but from some point on they start to move towards the same dream and feel the same physiological feelings. Two people who have met by fate in a world full of mixed up fates. Now, the most amazing things, which no one could have ever thought of, start to unfold between the two.

Well, it's a Romantic Comedy.. when i say romantic well terasa jua ku kehati.. and when i say comedy ertinya cali berabis sampai ketawa tebahak bahak... Plus the main actor is super hot.. they all use their real names in this drama.. well it's a sitcom and i heard ada 2nd season.. im almost done with this tho tinggal 2 episodes lagi yipeee~ Shin Dong Wook hot!!!!!! seriously hot.. semakin ku meliat ia semakin panas hahahah apakan..entah cerita soulmates is just to good to be true n yet very believable.. the script lawa lagi tuu some of them are:-

LSG "Just how your legs get tired after walking a while, your feelings get tired after loving for a long time"

SDW "Dating makes your lips tremble, but love makes your heart tremble"

LSG "Love is not something you check but something you are sure of"

the lines lawa..the cerita banyak putar belit plang.. not as in putar belit facta..its the jalan of the story where you have to really watch to understand which part comes after which other part.. it's really ahrd to explain tho :p

Fuh~ today i had a fight with him again~ again~ again~ entah napa kan kelahi saja.. well he told me i've changed.. shocking yeah.. i don't know why im so hurt when he said that. So i'd asked him y.. he said he didnt know..it's me n i should know.. n he said he's not my bf to know.. WTH!! marah ku..sakit hati ku..*am i xgeratin* well because i dun knw laa ku tanya!! entah im soo pissed at him that i asked him if he wants to leave..just leave.. marah bnar jua dah ku tuu.. he told me i hurt him when i asked him to leave.. guity ku lehnya.. i didnt mean to hurt him.. i guess i hurt his pride.no? sorry dear.. i guess im emo sambil watching the drama aaah.. i cant remember the whole chatting.. to much emotion coming at one that confuses me.. but i remember one thing he said 'ko mo dgn aku kan?' n i was like 'errrr' *apakan niee* n he repeat the qn again n i said 'is that a proposal?' oh well he didnt answer and the story about ia pikir aku pity ia kuar again.. and a minor debate ada g.. entah eeeh.. towards the end he mention (which ia inda mengaku) 'inda kan arah bf inda kana ckpkan goodnyt kah, a'kum kah..etc' i was like ARAH BF?!?!?!? errrr case close!!!

till then for more xcting stories from mas

Love Baby

2007-05-05T01:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum sebagai permulaan~

There's a few changes hehehehe the L'boro tour in Brunei for the badminton panya dorg main robin not knock out. the reason dorg mahal is dorg sediakan makanan (????) well im thinking about it =D

Daym~ i woke up this morning with a buffy eye aaah cana kan tuu.. aku liat Kdrama Thank You epi 9.. for those peeps yg alum liat.. aku recommend kamu this drama it's very cute, nice and sad. Sipnosis- "Min Ki Seo and Lee Young Shim will be a couple who hated the sight of each other at first but later developed affections along the way during their daily fights and disagreements. Min Ki Seo was orginally a doctor who always looked down on people and is very naughty as well until he met Lee Young Shim and her child who has aids. Lee Young Shim is a very cheerful and positive person despite the difficult life she has to face. Through her, Min Ki Seo slowly becomes a warm, gentle person because of love."

The drama is very sad.. i just found out the news that Eric Shinhwa and Park Shi Yeon (My Girl) broke up. =( Hyun Bin (MNIKSS) and Hwang ji Yeon (Witch Yoo Hee) broke up as well.. For Eric and Shi Yeon case it's a bummer sal dorg lama dah like early last year i bet.. plus Eric once said he loved her soo much.. The media is killing Shi Yeon n she cant stand it anymore *i think* well Eric is like one of the Hottest hunk in Korea!! it's ok Shi Yeon, we understand =D. For Hyun Bin case.. errrg hate that B# Hwang Ji Yeon, she practically used him.. because of him she got all the CFs and the drama offers. at the end what did Bin get, daym this girl it feels like kicking her at the mo. *mas emo* On the other hand both of this guys are AVAILABLE.. yey yey MAS IS DREAMING!!!

Another news- The ever polite Dong Hae apologized for his outburst via Super Junior’s official website yesterday. His apology letter seemed very sincere and it helped put out the fan flames, but the fire is not out yet. He’s facing another round of criticisms from concerned citizens and industry watchers who believe that Hallyu stars’ behaviors abroad impacts Korea’s image among foreigners. They reason that since Korea is not well known, foreigners will form opinions about Korea based on how Hallyu stars behave in their country and consequently Dong Hae’s swearing earned Korea a bad rep.

In my opinion, WTH~ well i saw the clip where he said 'move, you son of a B#' in Korean. Unlucky for him a Chinese fan recorded that and spread it in the net.. a.k.a around the world laaa tuu.. Sian c Dong Hae.. i mean common stuffy bnar waa the airport.. the stupid security atu inda organise the whole thing. I mean no pagar watsoever to protect Super Junior.. Dorg ani lagi 13 org buleeeeh~ berapa security they need kan tuu.. n i thot China has the biggest population n yet nada banyak security (???) Poor him to take this all.. Altho the Chinese E.L.F (EverLasting Friends- their fanclub) forgave him already by posting a letter in their chinese E.L.F website (they're so nice for taking the blame, FYI i read the letter, eng ver) but the Korean fans still upset with him. C'mon people everyone made mistakes alryt deal with it.. you cant expect all these celebs to be perfect ok!!!!! give them a place to breathe as well. Dong Hae Fighting!! SuJu Fighting!! Kyu Hyun get well soon!! (SuJu involved in a car accident Kyu Hyun was in a bad condition but getting better tho, Leeteuk got 170 stiches on his back and on his face so he has to undergo plastic surgery, eunhyuk and shindong only got minor bruises)

Hahahahaha.. suddenly i became this Korean news people.. well it's interesting.. Plus i'm a big Korean fan so might as well share it to all isn't it.. will be back for more news if there's any that caught my attention!! :p

Till then
LOVE BABY~

2007-05-04T01:17:00.000-07:00

Selamat Pagi dan Assalamualaikum~

Aku bangun awal today.. need to go to class in 15mins and alum ku ready g.. i know today is going to be one hectic day for me.. WHY? just because... hahahha tutorial at 10. group meeting at 11.. until god knows when.. i bet it's going to be very long..which i'm not fond of.. because i'll get stress out, and my blood pressure definitely gonna go up tuu leh nya like my other meetings.. after that at 3 im going to meet up the guys at Kingswood kan liat Spiderman 3..premier nya yipeeee!!!! Si Rusdi inda join sal ia ke Sheffield..huhuhuh too bad rusdi~ takpe next time liat ceta lain plak ye~

There will be a tournament d Brunei for Uk-ian anjuran the newest L'boro Society. They got football, badminton and entah atu plang nganya ku to.. i didnt bother to really read in detail lam email ku.. ani pun dari c rusdi n c asmah gtau.. So asmah want to antar team dari hull for badminton.. n i was like ada women single.. rupanya mixed double saja available.. So c Asmah ckp me n Nuar jadi wakil.. C Nuar macam inda mo so he asked c Hakeem.. nya c hakeem ia alum kali balik.. but we checked the date.. its going to be held mid August (cant remember the excat date either 14th or 17th) So Hakeem d Brunei dah.. So i came to the conclusion that none of them want to be my partner.. I MADE THEM FEEL GUILTY!!! wahahahahah.. we'll sal i was sooo busy with my assignment this doesnt bother me much.. but... i dont feel like playing either.. c'mon people its 14pound for the mix and its a knock-out game.. WTH!!!! main d Brunei and have to pay 14x3= 42 brunei approx.. gilleeer wat a rip off!!!! inda jua malah bnar kali mun main d Brunei.. cubatah reasonable... i mean like if it's a league i dont mind.. maybe..ani ukan cana tah kan tuuu.. antam eeeeh.. well im not confirm plang tentang this..so if im wrong i'll apologies in advance yea~ Imagine kalah first round dui malai ku tanam usin pakah ku~

Alryt enough with this crap early in the morning.. kan begagas kuuuu.. sajuk lagi d luar nie.. apakan spring kah balik to winter niee.. have the weather turned backward? wallahuaklam~ ayt..

Baby Loves Y'all

2007-05-02T03:44:00.000-07:00

Just feels like posting Pictures:

Theme:
Hullians!!!!

2007-05-02T03:03:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum
fuh~

inda tau napa but hey i'm almost done with my proposal tinggal few hundreds left. the problem is i don't know what to write any more well to be exact tinggal 200 wrods left *smile* so no rush. However, i need to get this thing done by tengah hari or at least pun pukul 1 pm laaa so i can play badminton later on or go to the gym. FYI im not a gym freak or obssesssss with my body. Oh Hell maybe A BIT hahahaha *smile* bila nah start nya ku cemani nah.. masa rajin ke Gym n weigh myself.. i freaked out sal makin barat cemana kan tuu?!?!?!? nya dorg nya muscle weigh more... gileer mun catu baik ku crash diet kali!!! hahaha bwooh i sounded obssess isnt it.. DAYM what's wrong with me.. CHILLLLL!!!

oh well.. last night Chelsea Lost lawan Liverpool.. it's not like i'm a big fan of both team but siok jua mun arah tv atu apatah lagi liat laaa.. *trying to think smartly* dah nyangku Penalty.. nya c Hakeem ia inda suka penalty.. sampat waaa ku mandi masa dorg extra time..confident waa ku yg ada penalty sebab atu tah. =D huhuhuhuhu Manchester main krg..lawan AC Milan. i said to Nuar
M: why do i got the feeling that Man Utd kalah krg
N: why..
M: sal kan dorg manang home by 3-2, if dorg AC 1-0, kalah jua ManU tuu.. they need to score 2 goals more to win
N: apakan Mas.. As long as dorg Draw dorg manang
M: *bangang*
N: lau dorg draw..dorg manang aggregate waaa.. *geleng pala*
M: Eh.. awuu aaaah lupa ku that bit..

Daym of coz aku kalah arah lelaki mun pasal bula.. hahahha dorg keep on bullying me pasal kantut.. well dorg as in Nuar mostly. the reason is pasal masa main badminton, my shoes made a noise that sounded just like fart. sakit plang parut ku ketawa.. annoying dorg atu hahahah :p masa liat football aku minum water (wa' ergh) lam botol (bo' el) kalinya masa aku tuntum atu kan dorg ckp aku kantut hahaha pastu aku ketawa tumpah tarus arah seluar ku at a particular spot (paham paham laaa) kalinya dorg ketawa n said ' aiii mas.. kamih ko.. astah basar udah' Hahahahahaha having such Brothers can be soo annoying n yet entertaining kan =D=D capie waa dorg aaaah..oh well need to think cana kan balas dendam *evil laugh* biar dorg.. selalu gang up against me.. we'll see we'll see

better get back to my work.. awal abis awal enjoy.. yea BABY!!!
Message to Degzy: Belajar!!! sorry nada masa msn sal im sooooo hungry lapas badminton tarus masak so akhir naik.. will chat with you arah msn k.. how far did u do in ur proposal?.. dont tell me u havent started aaah lantak karang..

Lastly.. Baby love ma Family and My B.O.N girls.. and to that guy.. i dont miss you =D

2007-04-30T04:56:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum everyone~

Typical Mas for being so lazy in updating her blog huh.. yea yea tell me about it. =D i'm in campus at the moment baru abis my group meeting more like a group presentation practice. just handed in my Learning Journal..yipee.. 2 done..2 to go.. I'm definitely gonna rest tonight.. Tommorow going to finish up my Research Proposal. Yea..... *cries*

I was in the Esk building, at the computer lab but panuh.. like panuh!!! really panuh!!! i mean like imagine a big hall of Computers panuh with computer users a.k.a Students. Most of them doing their assignment. Gosh, gileer kali some of them aku kenal n i was like 'wow.. they still doing their Learning Journal' inda dorg nervous kah.. you have to write 4000words kali aaah.. well, it's not my problem. My presentation will be later at 4.35pm. Quite late kan..

I'm so tired of my life recently. i think i have been taking myself for granted. Being Egoistic about the whole situation doesnt help. does it? here the story goes: i kinda like this guy. well let's just say i like him but im still unsure of my own feeling. i'm taking this slow, step by step n all. maybe i'm asking to much from him. but entah, im worried the same thing going to happen again. he doesnt seem very confident about his own feeling so cana kan ku trust the whole situation kan. it's funny how we both confessed and ended with a debate. it's sweet enough ia inda betidur until it is all settle hahaha =D he said 'cemana kan tidur mun si dayang ani malar memutar belitkan fakta' funny hahahaha =D well im just afraid he's going to run away.. he said he will not tho.. but WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!?!?

My housemate, bg keem n bg nuar, told me not to test him all the time. dorg kesian kan ia. im such a B# kan i know!! just wait and see. it's not like im falling head over heal for him yet.. yet..yet.. but we'll see how it goes =D

Btw~ I'm back being a Drama Freak!!! my first semester inda banyak liat dramas mainly because nada yg attract my attention. now mas sibuk kan siap kan assignment banyak nie waaa siuk.. wait i list it first aaah.. Witch Yoo Hee, Mawang/The Devil, Hello Miss!, Thank You, Poposal Daisuketa (sp.), If In Love Like Them, Bambino!, Liar Game, SummerXSummer, Love Around the Corner, the Game of Love and ada lagi cant remember some of them though. Masih active these cerita..still waiting for the subs to be released. call me crazy..i dont care.. but i'm back..!!!

Alright... i think im going back to my work now =D A special thanx goes to HANNA.. LOVE YOU FOR doing this LOVELY LAYOUT.. i love yunho.. DBSK Jjang!!! DBSK Sarangheyo~

Cant wait to get back to BRUNEI!!!! yipee.. alum plang mengitung hari.. *singing KD's menghitung hari lam kepala* i misssssss home pasal stress atu kali hahahaha =D

LOVE BABY~

2007-02-05T09:57:00.000-08:00

I have been a while isn’t it, since my last blog. Entah it’s either I’m so malas or because I haven’t been infront of Delly. As some of you might notice aku online lesser now. Meaning no longer 24/7.. L Its because my Delly macam damam. Well let’s just say c Mas being paranoid after experiencing those ‘bunyi’ that coming from c Delly.

Sorry for not being around so often. Things are running inside out my head lately. I don’t know but I’m not in my best mood today. Mixed emotion that’s what I feel. Im happy for D btw that he’s happy. Wish you happiness always!! J Just read Hanzi’s blog, we Bons macam se-nyawa, I so agree to that. Entah the moment c Hanzi said Amz ada problem I was like ‘god..what happen’ for some reason I’m hurt too and for some reason I cried as if I’m her. Mal, we’re be here anytime k. you know we love you. The Bons always have the Bons. You’ll always have my hand everytime you fell. Things going to get rough (or already) but we Bons must have the strength yeah. You still have your Family, us as well as your future to look upon to. Ok!! No more tears yea..

I know this kind of belated, but I would like to say Congratulation to my Lil Bro n Lil Sis. You guys don’t know how much I’m proud of you and how much I want to be there to give you guys a hug and kisses. Abeb with 3A, 1C and 1e and Fat10 with 3B, 3C, 1D and 1E. I love you guys. Beb~ so You’re going to Aussie soon. I’m so going to miss you sooooo much. *sigh* feels like crying now. I know you don’t want me to. I wish you all the best there. *tears* Gosh why is it so hard to let you go beb, I know you’re a big boy already. Don’t worry I’ll be fine. Hahahaha macam org kan lapaskan anak kan kawin rasanya. I guess this is how my parents felt when they let me go to UK huh. It’s so sad to think that I won’t be able to see him when I get back during summer.

Will be back to tell some more~ this is it for now.. Assalamualaikum

2007-01-12T09:07:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~

I'm back here feeling alot better than yesterday. *SMILE* waaaa read Hanzi's Blog yeah~ yeah~ yeah~ .....moving on..... I have to admit it what she said ada banarnya. I was really at the low yesterday.. so i blogged twice *SMILE* heheheh baru ku abis mem-blog kan ada org katok bilik ku.. so when i open kan panya c Beb~ i didn't realised i was in my room like the WHOLE DAY!!! masa ia nampak aku she said 'hey Mas.. *look at me differently* ok ko kah mas.. lain jua sulmu..' n i BURST!!! panic ya.. asking me napa.. so luahkan laa ku arah nya.. pacah yo~~~ macam laut waaa bilik ku (a little exagerated) hehehhe so aku lama turun ke bawah altho i know the others d bawah.. hehehe sal bida waaa usul ku.. all read n puffy hhahahah =D

See, im good now.. Things will go well now.. Insya Allah.. chatted with D tadi n told him a bit of my story (sorry D.. tell u nanti k) he asked me waa.. 'what's so special about him that makes it hard for you to forget about him?' hmmm i don't know.. it's like when you like someone you'll be very selfish n willing to sacrifice anything.. pokok nya he used to be VERY SPECIAL to me.. Nya c Beb i need to stop being such a nice person yang inda mau menyakitkan hatinya and end up hurting myself so badly.. True!! but like always 'He's a Friend of mine' ok laaa i just need a time off him so that i can focus on myself n also my life yang lagik berantakan gituh oleh cowok ituh!! hahahaha.. lawa eeh apa c Beb ckp kemarin aaah 'Mas.. don't listen to what ur feeling and emotion is saying right now.. listen to what your head and mind is saying' get it.. because i was so sad aku makan luan d makan perasaan.. yatah pakai kepala mun cematu.. pasal kan when u calmed down dah u'll know what happened is just bullshit!!

Hanzi said.. Love is not blind.. its just i chose not to see what's obvious =D meaning im the only one who have control of Me, Myself and My Life not him.. i will not let anyone Break me anymore.. only I, Mas can Break me.. okeh!!

ok actually i was belajar-ing pastu kan ambil tissue pastu liat blog.. mem-blog plang ku hahahaha palau.. ok continue belajar ku luu~~ Until Next Time~~~ Tissue ku abis.. going down!!

currently listening to --> Brandy - Everthing I Do, I'll Do It For You

2007-01-11T09:28:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~

hey.. im here again... studied but very very bit bit bit~ *sigh* wats wrong with me!!! why can't i get over him.. why do i have secebis perasaan masih arah ia?!?!?!? n HE DIDN'T even KNOW!!! hanzi said to tell him off but but buuuuuuuut~~~ *sigh* i can't *tears* i can't believe i'm THIS WEAK!! its so sad to know this.. but entah i just can't im totally cold with all my responses but why m i the one that cries when i typed all those mean (sorta) stuff... y m i d one that feels the most miserable.. y m i d one that is so unhappy?... y m i so vulnerable when im around him? y is it easy for him to break me this way? why why why??? qns that are so easy to construct n yet so hard to answer...

nah kalinya ku meluah kan tuu aaah... yg paling bari sasak is when ur here feeling all the emotion n he's there feeling happy with his love ones... im not trying to be or sound mean but i am selfish waaa... it's not i don't want him to be happy... its just that.. entah eeeh.. he makes me feel miserable.. and i don't like feeling miserable waaa mas benci waaa.. i miss home now!!! *sigh* entah eeeh everytime we chat kan macam every words he said macam mocking me waaa.. m i being so overly sensitive or is my feeling sensible? either way i still don't know.. hopefully i get over him soon.. coz this pain is almost at the limit that i can just burst.. i don't want my old pain rekindle.. FUDGE HELL NO!!!! gillerrrr... Mas!!! Basssyha!!!! Cayo!!!! GAmbatte!!!! FAitooo!!!!! im STRONG!!! I AM!!!!!! he cant bring me down after today (hehehhe sal today alum abis) AMIN~~ ALLAH s.w.t akan sentiasa bersama ku Amin~~~ along with my love ones.. my Family n Bonafides~~ kan kan kan

bah kan cari makanan ku jap.. huhuhuhuhu will update soon hopefully with my vacations posts ayt... catch you guys later~~ Assalamualaikum

2007-01-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

heya people~~~

Assalamualaikum...

guess wat i actually wanted to post all the pictures waaa about wat i did in December all trips to Madrid, Notts and London ladidadida.. baut sumhow its sooo long that i cant finish it all in a day or sumtin.. oh well i sort things out nanti k.. maybe ryt after my exam.. =S havent started revising yet.. i know people would said.. "satu jua nganya" heheheh true plang but STILL i need to revise.. plan ku today but buka buku pun ku alum.. n here i m tiba tiba rajin kan blogging *sigh*

i was so shocked waaa.. i sooo didn't know Ajai and Nurul cerai!!!! ok im so random hahahaha i googled waaaa (that's how bored i m) sayang eeeh.. oh well lau bukan suratan.. don't really know the reason why.. both party seems to keep it a secret so that their image inda rusak or some sort. sweet enough tho' When i checked the website about the news i got this quote lawa:-

"Love is when you can't hate, no matter how much wrong is done to you, if you can love beyond all hurts and pain, then it's LOVE"

oh well, things have been the same lately... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!!! altho belated but who cares it's still January!!! less than a week would be hijrah!!!! oh gosh..time flies huh!!! banyak plang resolution ku for 2007 ani.. like find a bf hahahaha... =D stay fit n healthy (need to hit the gym).. belajar (so far its slow) and shop less (not working at the moment :s) banyak plang lagi.. c hanzi ada buat list nya..but thats the most of it tho.. or maybe that's all hahahahaha =D

so far i spent more that what i shudda..haiya.. if like this makan daun laaaa.. but if u think like that i'll be healthy.. hmmm technically hahahahah kali plang tuuuu i still need other nutrients entah laaaa... oh yeah next mth ada rombongan dari bsu n brunei high commision naik ke HULL!!!! i really don't know whether i should be happy or not... but it would be exciting =D heheheh i was called like 10am in the morning.. hahahha awal tuu yo!!!! considering aku akhir tidor.. well i think dorg tipun rumah waaa bising bunyinya..so i didnt bother to wake up n pick up the phone. so cikgu Adi called my mobile hehehehh punya laaaa panjang questions nya.. HELLO I JUST WOKE UP! hahahahaha the qns sound like this

CK : Assalamualaikum Siti Ma-Shu-A-rah?
M : Wa'alaikumsalam.. aaah eeeem Siti Ma-Syhu-Rah!
CK : Dayang D Uni?
CK : Atau Dayang D rumah?
Ck : Dayang d Hull masa ani? Ada Class?
M : ...... ???
Ck : KAlau d Uni cikgu tipun karang lagi
M : Aaaah... eeeem D rumah... aaaah nada class.. alum start..
Ck : owh ok.. Dayang cikgu kan gtau.......... (the story cont.)

when i said the story cont. atu cikgu atu inda wasting time and continue with the story he want to tell me n all.. n it was very looooong and verry important.. thank god for my white board.. cincau jaaaa laaaaaaa hahahahhaha lapas atu inda laaa ku dpt tido balik hahhahhaha.. so yeah the rombongan lawat hull in february the 7th or 14th or 21st.. definitely on Wednesday.. TYT also dtg... waaaaaaa.... abit panic but yet challenging kan kan kan =p trying to make me feel better..

oh well i need to start revising dude!!!! gosh.. wish me luck less than 2weeks im going to have my exam hehehehe... need to start pigang buku n open it!!! haiya... need a kick laaaa!!! Till then ayt~ Assalamualaikum~ muaXxX Love Mas's Fam n BoNaFiDe Girls!!!

2006-12-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

Things Happened kan w/o u expecting em'

Assalamualikum people~

hehehehe just baca all the tags hehehehe.. I KNOW!!! lama dah kan.. hehehehe aku ketawa ja hahahhahahah *evil laugh* Sorry~ Gomenasai~ Miyanhamnida~ Tumpuichi~ last but not least Minta Maaf =D

woa yesterday i just had my PMD Presentation. gosh it was so nerve wrecking.. entah when it's my time to present my bit Mandy was looking at me differently as if im an alien.. at first i was very calm until i see her 'weird face' n i begun to stutter alot *singing joe's song stutter* my palm becoming sweaty n entah wat crap i talked about but i manage to control my whole presentation. hehehehe.. i feel bad actually because kan my group ani consist of 5 peeps n one of them, Lolu jarang attend most of the meetings like less than 50% thats wat Pete said plang =p pastu kan our presentation was suppose to be on the dot 12.45 pm waaa n then we planned to meet up kul 12 on the dot in the library. because im worried kan c Carrie so we both practiced kul 11 awal laa d library. so when we all manage to meet up si Lolu menghilang.. well she did send a msg to Pete saying 'i was otw to the uni n realised that i left all my presentation stuff' n i was like 'WHAT THE FUDGE!!! how could u left it when the purpose to go to uni is to present..angan angan pakah ia atu' Sheesh ironicly is her part is to deal with stress management n yet she causes all the tension!! stress!!! and some other words related to that.. Poor Time Management (just saying this sal it's my part of presentation :p)

oh well after the presentation i went to the city to bali some stuff n kan bali jerseys for bg pez n abeb. so i went to JJB and checked the price n liat Sport World lagi murah since arah city nada the printing machine so i went to Sport World d Kingswood. it was such a LONG journey pasal banyak stop n peak hr atu kali *sigh* dorg c nuar n rusdi turun n calinya c hakeem naik hahahah so im not alone in the bus. (p.s kami semua andang berjanji kan jumpa each other d Kingswood) Siuk eeh Kingswood aaah kadainya tutup like pukul 8pm hahahaha =D back to my story.. pastu bukan main begagas ku ke Sport World sal i thot the kadai tutup kul 6.. i got the baju for abeb (bg pez punya nada) so i went to the counter n asked them to put c abeb's name at the back pastu dorg ckp 'sorry luv~ our machine broke down' i was like (*0*) antam eeeh.. she said 'u can try JJB' n i was like ' i just went from there..' swearing kuuu... garam ati kuuu.. *antak antak kaki* (i really did that.. but masa ku d luar plang hehehe dpn c hakeem)

Sigh~ yeah yeah yeah Shits Happen apa bleh buatkan.. erggggh.. mana aja tah eeeh.. so we went to ASDA kes sudah d sana masuk ja =D went to sainsbury sal lupa bali potatoes.. jalan kaki plang nganya tu dari rumah hehehe ngan c rusdi.. jumpa 2 m'sian guys c erman n another guy cant remember his name so he's the guy w the braces hehehe =D after makan liat movie yg thrilling well at least for me plang.. sal i screamed alot.. n cover my eyes with the pillow hahhaha even c nuar ckp 'Liat waa mas..nada papa waaa' well wat he didnt know is i watched it waaa btwn the pillow hahahaha..aku inda suka yg cerita main bubut ani waaa.. berijap ku.. hahaha =D

ok laaa that's it for now.. kan buat my essay ku lu im half way there but not quite there if you know what i mean hehehehe.. sal tommorow im going to manchester for the weekend kan liat Brumanch Talentime =D but need to settle ani dulu.. Plus thank god Youtube under maintainence hahahah at least cut of some distraction =D

Until then.. Assalamualaikum~ Luv You guys (Family + Bonafide BaBes) To Bits and pieces!!!

Masyha @ BaBy Gee

2006-11-30T14:49:00.000-08:00

Gomenasai

its been a VERY VERY long time i haven't blog..yes? hehehehehe sorry.. pasal luan kan enjoy saja n yet inda share the excitement.. first of all~ Assalamualaikum~ my last post was like before summer. So to sum up everything =D

Summer.. Home!!! Brunei!!! Family!!! Friends!!! BoNaFiDe!!! Driving!!! Bucu's Wedding jadi AMAH!!! hehehehe... it's all good!!! =D at least i think i made full of it... altho banyak yg inda terlaksanakan but well apa bleh buat..

Back to Hull on the First day of Puasa n didnt puasa... well my Ramadhan was full minus one day a.k.a. first day of puasa masih musafir.. nonetheless i paid (qoda) dah my posa.. ooh yeah ive got 4 juniors here..kewl aint it.. heheheh so altogether kami 6org sini plus 7 actually sorg kraja..kewl kan..walau inda banyak but well its like family here n i like it lots =D

Raya~ hmm im sooo disappointed inda nampak baby moon.. im sooo veryyy verrry sad.. sal if nampak it'll be held on sunday n since inda nampak its Monday =s n ive got classes =s.. so nada mood laaa.. this year terasa eeh the raya.. n got homesick alot of time.

hmmm wat else to mention... actually the first few paragraph i typed awal dah after that my internet connection down n thank god i saved it beforehand but yet ada beberapa paragraph ilang.. panjang g dah ku typed tuu =s oh well shit happened inda ja

well continue reading if u like =D

will type some more soon hopefully =D

Assalamualaikum~

2006-05-16T16:30:00.000-07:00

Where is the SUN?????

Assalamualaikum peepz~

Monday..a brand new week is it..counting the days!!!! Cant hardly wait… =D happinez.. the fun I have to wait till im actually there wif my frens in Notts (miss u guys leeer..mas tak sabar!!!) I haven’t start packing..tiap kali bgn in my messy room rasa malas cana kan tuuu apa apa pun inda d buat..kan cuci kasut pun inda ada mood n its freaking cold outside.. atu kan panas masa ari atu now back to autumn? Wat the heck its spring laaaa!!! God I wish this rainy season abis dah sal I nak kuar rumah jalan jalan where there’s sun outside =( I want to go to Scarborough..mun ujan inda aiuk..i want to go to the park jalan kaki w my fren..but Sun where r u!!!! Come OUT!!! Heheheh majal aku aaah~

Oh well its Monday and I am whining. How bad is that? Ok~ last week same day I did nothing hahahahaha.. But I went to York last Wednesday..the sun is out n it was sooooo FUN. Me n Ruby jalan jalan..so we went to this Designer Outlet..Daym talan air liur ja kali aaah mun udah inda beusin ani hahahaha =D the brg sana so branded u got tommy Hilfiger.. burberry.. emm guess emm byk laaa aku pun inda ingat yg ku ingat ada mark n spencer hehehehe adidas.. *thinking* mcDonald? Hahahaha n its all discounted goods laaa..like Claire’s nya d sana is like 30% off retail everytin hehehe how good is that..

After that we both went to the York city centre.. it’s quite small somehow hahahaha since kami bali day ticket kami nit au naik bas ja p inda tau turun mana hahahah pastu panya we miss our stop mana jua tempat stopnya ani macam rasanya ukan arah city so we turun arah rail station which is the 2 stops after the city centre stop hahaha so kami jalan kaki je..pastu panya York ani macam ada this Wall surrounded the City so c Ruby ani kan naik the Wall laaa udah tah panas ya rabbi..panas nyamuu macam tan rasa ku..pastu inda tau mana kah hujung benteng atu tau tau jalan saja masa half way atu c Ruby suruh patah balik..n I was like ‘we try first we got all the time..we just follow where ever this thing lead us..” hahhaha jauh nyamuuu~ but panjang plang lagi p kami turun arah the next tangga we nampak hahahaha.. pastu next destination the city..so main antam ja kami jalan je terus pastu jumpa pun the city (lau ku inda salah) not that big as I mentioned earlier..inda lah tau ada lagi the city jalan lain aah hahaha.. so kami jaln terus dari ujung ke ujung pastu singah ke parknya jap.. punya ramai org macam sun-tanning hahhahaha..duuui malai mun d Brunei itam dah kulit buii hahahha =D n we walked siring the sungai it was nice laaa hehehehe.. pastu tarus ke train station tunggu 30mins pastu naik train balik ke Hull..c Ruby tidur… So tired aku pun rasa lalah.. pastu turun train d Hull punya laaa sajuk.. tarus pakai jacket heheheh apa punya weather inda lagi menantu waa d hull ah.. pastu balik..mandi.. tidur.. hehehehe

On Friday me pergi kat rumah Kak Fidah saja..sal masa tuu jumpa ia suruh dtg ke rumah since kak munira ada so y not pastu I told Faiz laaa we go together along with Aizat.. pastu had dinner d rumah Kak Fidah pastu liat cerita ‘Buli Balik’ and cerita ‘Bukan kena Cilok’ lurus kah tuu tajuknya … caliiiiiii aku suka buli balik.. Afdlin Shauki so good man!!!! Salut laaaa.. pastuuu balik online jap..well not kjap lama laaa hehehehe… On Sunday a.k.a yesterday aku dgni c Faiz antar kak munira ke Manchester Airport..it’s 3 hrs journey by road..ulang alik makes it 6hrs..ayung ku nyamuuuuuuu!!!! I think because my bp naik hahahha sal I ate daging terok eeeh..mun Babu tau waa ada ku kana latuk hahahaha makan lagi daging hahhaha =p pastu after antar kak munira me n faiz ke car park after he paid the parking ticket..pastu masa kan kuar the card inda mau cana kan tuuu..kana hon laa kami..but there’s no way out laaa macam stuck d sana kami aaah.. so last last we asked for help by takan the button d atas hehehe nasib baik mau jua kami kuar..hahahha pastu aku nie takut waaaa takut sasat sal im d one yg baca map hahhaha but thank god kami selamat sampai ke Hull around 8.30ish pm.. well its nt malam yet here so we go straight to kak fidah’s house antar keta abg mat hahaha..pastu panya ramai org arah rumah bg Mat.. ada kak Faizah or is it Fairuz…lupa laa pokoknya kak Faiz hahahaha n two other families that I cant remember their names im so bad I know..but yeah jrg waa jumpa kecuali kak Faiz laaa hehehe ia ada baby dah..CUTE!!!! the baby… waaaa aku rindu anak damit heheheheh.. oh well liat buli balik again.. n kak Faiz bawa this makanan I think her mom did it the nenek..hehehe =p makanan org Kelantan nasi Dagang n this nasi.. I forgot the name.. yg ada taugeh n sayur n all I knw the name p tiap kali kan ingat balik kuar nasi kebuli plang lain lain nie waaah.. nyaman laa nasi nya hehehehe makan w this kuah ayam n all..wa siasia pun heheheh makanan org kelantan..asyik first experience..

Waaaa see u can tell how excited I m actually hehehe typing all those long paragraph hehehe I know..n I understand apakan.. but true meh.. this week I hope its panas tomorrow I wana jalan jalan hehehehe tired membina badan ku dah..ani mun balik still maintain nie..naik ni bah my weight not good eeeh hahahahaha =p so it makes no difference masa ku sampai Brunei nanti.. ok to my family member yg baca.. im still gonna be the same me.. im nt getting kurus..dun expect too much wahahahahah =p

Ok till then again..Asssalamualaikum.. Love My Family & BoNaFiDe & Soul SistaZ!!!

p/s this post i typed it yesterday but muncul in today's date hehehhe =p

2006-05-09T13:02:00.000-07:00

What BaBy You Are?

I just read this email ‘what baby u are?’ and below is the description of August Baby:-

Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self control. Kind hearted. Self confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to beloved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain", caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. (i think so =p) stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

I highlighted in purple what I think I have and the bold one is so true hahahaha any comment? Hahahaha.. c how bored I m at the moment. Caya kamu youtube inda mau open =s now im officially bored not really that’s why im blogging hahahahaha.. im happy today sal c Mizah sent me about 20 songs I think lau ku inda salah itung pokoknya mcm banyak plang hahahaha so happy now my collection banyak =D not sure weather it’s the kinda thing to be happy about. Seriously I have nothing to talk about at the moment.. really blank at the moment so yeah

Till then.. Assalamualaikum~ Muaxxx <3

2006-05-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

ThE BeAuTy oF LiFe

Assalamualaikum~

Since I have a lot of time to spare..rasa rajin kan blogging actually hehehehe =D blogging can be addictive berabis but lau malas atu bebulan inda beblog =p I watched banjun drama w yunho n yoochun with ub ofcoz sebab atu ku liat lau inda inda ku merati nyamu heheheheh..n ada the line lawa.. Stated below =p

“If you put a knife back into its pouch, the light shining from it can be hidden, But no matter how hard you try to hide someone’s heart, it will still shine”

“Showing someone your heart does not always result into love”

This is the topic today hehehe apakan~ both line aku suka pasal true waaa kan kan kan..like u cant resist but to fall for sum1 no matter how hard u try to hide it it still shows.. but by telling them there is no 100% guarantee to have their heart..the beauty of LIFE.. people strive..give their all..ganbatte ikimashoi!!! (Give it ur all) just to be happy.. to gain happiness need luckiness..effort..n mentally prepared for the worst I guess.. u cant expect everytin have a happy ending do you.. u can cry a million tears..u can try to think (just think) of suicide.. u can mad at sum1 else..blame them..blame urself but in the end u have ONLY YOU to think about..

I live for almost 20 years now.. Many regrets, pain n sad memories I had encountered.. but that’s the bitter sweet of my life.. If I have a choice to turn back I will leave the road behind. What for I turn back n live my life like I live my life in the past.. I have to be adventurous, stronger than I am before face forward kan? Honestly, if I think about my past aku ketawa.. cali waaa.. I mean at that time I was heartbroken but now when I think about it its funny how I was fooled. No matter how im hurt now..in few mths later I knw I’ll be laughing of this experience..

Today I woke up with the same dream tentang balik Brunei hehehehe everynyt same dream waduuuuuh..not exactly same same plang different cerita but pokoknya tentang balik BruLand plang hehehehe.. Chatted with my sister.. yeah my amah balik mid this month..woaaa tak sempat jumpa ia well its alryt =p gonna have amah baru maybe.. C Alai inda ikut belayar sal she told me that after ia Exam ia tarus ada observation from 15th May till 10th June..lau ku inda salah hehehehe.. Kaka TT pun inda jalan.. So cAlai ckp masa dorg babu jalan ke Msia ia jaga rumah hehehehe n jadi amah perhaps or jaga amah baru hahahahah =D oh gosh ertinya lau ku balik nanti aku jaga rumah? Hehehehe I wonder if aku balik nanti m I still gona be the person under my parent’s supervision or m I gona b this independent girl? Waseeeeh.. wat my sis ask me buat aku berpikir laaa.. true plang tuuu wat she said..i never think of it that way before hehehehe =p hmmmm cana aaah..is it too early to think about this heheheheh..

Well this post is quite short isn’t it heheheh oryt leeer I type again later hehehehe =p

Salam Rindu buat keluarga dan sahabat handai… LOVE n Missin U Guys a lot.. Muaxxx

2006-05-05T01:40:00.000-07:00

Korean Freak!!!

Assalamualaikum people…

Just have the mood to actually blog pastu entah napa nada internet connection tonyt hehehehe.. im typing lu nanti copy n paste ja.. It’s been a long long time yea..i know..two months? Maybe hehehehe.. Mas Abis EXAM!!!! Hmmm wat have I been doing lately hmmm haven’t started packing sal lama lagi kan balik… so far liat this Taiwanese drama ‘Prince turn into Frog’ hmm im not a big fan of Taiwanese Drama..sal terlalu panjang n sumtime the pelakon macam inda pandai belakon..no offense aaah its such a drag waaa that’s why..lama dah ku nampak this drama p nada tegarak kan liat hehehehe… Now tergarak OMG…Lawa ceritanya well it’s like 30episodes gileer aku dgr pun tekajut..but siok laaa hehehehehehehe although ada conflict but inda kejiwa sal ada part cali yatah siuk n the pelakon pandai belakon not bad..good improvement for Taiwanese Drama =p

This happen kan lau ku start blogging..bukan main panjang nie I bet heheheh the blog huhuhuhuhu =p one movie I want to recommend to people is this Korean Movie ‘SAD STORY’ cali aah the tajuk..well a lil synopsis wont do any harm kan.. Dalam movie ani ada 4 cerita lau ku inda salah itung..siuk laa pokoknya u know laa typical Korean movie buat menangis n all but aku suka..since I love to cry..y I love to cry hmmm..one way of expressing urself..wats the use of putting it inside..i always believe after nangis walau problems inda solve at least lega rasanya.. kan kan kan sal lapas nangis kamu jadi diam and it feels empty inside kan? Well for my case awuuu heheheh =p

Well wow the first two paragraph I was talking about cerita..typical mas..overly excited lau pasal cerita hahahahah =p cant help it laaaa… btw lastnyt I watched this Korean show arah youtube inda ku tau nama the show but the guest was Kwon Sang Woo, Rain Bi, MC Mong, Han Ga In, Kang Ho Dong, Jae Dong hmmm this guy yg belakon arah ‘Love in Harvard’ this girl belakon arah this show lupaku namanya n another MC tak tau namanya hehehhe..well at least I knw more than half of their names kan hehehe.. The purpose of the game show is to guess the top 5 answers to internet questions. They have to guess n all.. the first qn is like this ‘to wat extent do u allow ur gf to have a guy-fren’ catulaaa bunyinya hahaha n then like all the male guest was like they dun like it when their gf have a guy-fren. C Rain Bi ckp lau ia ada gf ia inda mau jumpa any girl walau pun org tua or pasal keraja.. sweet I knw but u knw that’s just talk kan if he is in that situation the thing he’ll do wud be different to wat he said..m I right? Life babe..kdg we only knw how to talk to make a good impression but on the other hand we actually doing the opposite..yes? not all laaa but to some extent. Things like this happen but forgiven.

Actually this is not the topic I want to blog heheheh..it’s alryt..ill blog the topic I had in my mind in my next session apakan~ macam sesi counseling.. Oh yeah.. how’s exam? Hmmm Alhamdulilah..Syukur all the hardwork inda bebaloi..but not the time to enjoy sal the results is not out yet.. Mudahan tah ku Pass Amin~

Lately malar homesick..I miss BaBah..BaBu..Alai..Abeb n Fateen.. n also my keluarga d kampong =S especially masa exam..terok ku masa exam aaah..u know when u stress out u have no one u can turn to.. walau u have ur frens there in msn 24/7.. thanx raby..hann n all but yeah..it just not the same..sal usually aku kuar..liat babah n abeb main pool..dgni d dapur liat babu masak (ukan really nolong =p) liat tv..n so on… gosh cant wait to go home.. malar tebawa mimpi waaa.. ok it’s getting longer dah omg heheheh..

Assalamualaikum
Love My FaMz & BoNaFiDe & SouL SiSTaZ
MaSyHa <3>

2006-04-23T13:44:00.000-07:00

too long already kan?

"Assalamualaikum people~ i know its been like VERY VERY long time i tak update kan..i KNOW..i KNOW.. because mas malas n all n sibuk enjoying my easter
hols... i will update soon..insya Allah after my EXAM.. which is this TUESDAY the 25th..gileeeer my heart is beating so fast that i cant count..duh..ok..i dun knw
wat im saying actually.. heheheh =D " ---MaSyHa

2006-03-08T22:45:00.000-08:00

its been a while =p

well, berapa lama dah alum update hehehehehehe kan update p malas..so ill start wif "assalamualaikum~" sorry for the lack of commitment in writing up in my blog hahahaha =D bukan apa ive been busy n lazy at the same time..contradicting? hahahah yesh that's me~

just wana say happy belated b'day to my bonda, babu~ love u always... n my lilbro's b'day is today hahahahahahah ur 18 now beb..lau drive my car bisai bisai hahahaha =D

(l)babu at work =D (r) beb n fadli from padi *proud*

ok as expected kan~ the month of MARCH is one bloody hectic month for me..our easter holiday started on the 1st of April sampai 23rd..start back to school on the 24th..exam ku start 25th..WTH!!!!!! a week before 1st April alot i mean alot of assignment due..well 31st-ICT portfolio 29th- Marketing Assignment 23rd-APS group work.. altho bunyinya macam sikit like "dui only 3" but R U CRAZY...byk kali aaah to include inside..i mean the APS group work atu ada 4 works inside..the ICT atu ada lam 5 works inside.. n marketing we need to make our own models..haiya *blank* n i got 2weeks left to do all this stuff..jgn ckp aku last min aaaah..well lastmin atu inda plang but nyeh..i did bit bit bit but at the end its still the same..*sigh* BE STRONG MAS!!!! everythings gona be alryt kan kan kan..

well its a good thing that my group leader muncul akhirnya fuh~ ia ada problem for the past 2 weeks that he was unable to meet us..which sucks as we wasted our precious 2weeks of doing work..cali eeeh aku pikir ia marah rah ku or sumtin..aku heran how they all relying on my decision i mean lau the group leader ask qns to everyone..he directed it to me as in im the board of director or sumtin..everyone is like waiting for me to buat kata putus n handle things..hahahaha im just gona help c Alex(group leader) in doing the draft.. so less burden on me..well i did the questionnaire dah..well i kinda did my part in the group so yeah ok laaa tuuu..we only got 2weeks left..2WEEKS!!!!!! panic panic panic i KNOW..

ok thats about school...how bout my life? hmm hmm hmm hmm.. u know the best part of my room is my window..i love just siting down on my chair liat the window..seriously i love it..malam i can c stars n the dark sky..lau pagi liat org lalu lalang..its fun..Window is like the Door of life..apakan~ well when back at home aku pun suka duduk d katil n liat outside the window..inda caya..my sis tau tuu..she once asked me "bi napa ko selalu liat luar kan" i answered " entah aaah siuk meliat kerita lalu lalang atu" n then my sister duduk arah my spot n said "awu aaah siok duduk sini, u cant help but look outside" its like that..the feeling at ease..

btw~last weekend it snowed hahahahahahhahahhaha the line i cant stop saying is "it's all white" iski ku bnar tah..sal it did snowed last december but im not here in hull i was in london =s hahahaha now aku experienced it so siukzzz...

life can be so hard on us yeah..and ada jua time nya payah kan jadi strong mentally n physically..understandable..but altho life can be so hard but just be hard on urself..cherish yourself more..there's always limit in ur ability..but dont limit urself in doing things..huh?!?!?!?!? crap!!! apakan ku ckp ani..hallo its 7.18am in the morning.. baru bgn tidur..n feel like blogging that's odd.. cali im kinda used of living alone..entah ngapa..well udah 5mths kali aaah aku d sini kan masuk 6mths plang =p wow betapa cepat masa berlalu aaah its March already where did all the time goes.. inda terasa kan..thats why aku rasa there not enuff time to do everytin no matter if u plan everytin kan mesti main kejar kejaran tuuu..time is against me..i knw..my my malasness is the worst distraction.. =s

ok sampai d sini lu eeeh brain block ku jadinya hahahah =D
the cleaner gona come n clean my toilet yipeeee~ mcm kamah saja =p
ayt Assalamualaikum everyone!!!
salam rindu selalu dari hull
Love My Family..Thanx Bu for tipun aku terubat rindu ku =)
Love My BoNaFiDe

Love others who loves me =D
-masyha-

2006-02-23T10:55:00.000-08:00

~wHaT a WeEk~

hello semua~ hope u guys r fine..alhamdulilah~ hmm my last post was hmm on the 13th now its 23rd hahahaha more than a wekk pnya dah..im tired n lazy lately..now relax a bit for the past few days pikiran ku kusut.. dgn apa nah? dgn ALL those WORKS yg i have to DO..im not complaining..im planning my days..sal i only have ONE month left to get everything done..thank gos i have a weekend get away..i need a break n fun i suppose..after that back to struggling huh =s

hmm today lapas sembhyg subuh tidur balik (inda baik eeh ilang berkat) n overslept until the cleaner come knocking on my door asking wheather she can clean the bathroom hahahaha aku begagas bgn n ckp yes..kekajutan ku bgn aaaah..blur ku tarus lehnya hahahahaha pastu sadiath came knocking on my door asking about hrm tutorial..nasib abik my class patang..fuh~ so i called the parcel cmpny asking y parcels ku alum sampai..so rupanya they did antar on tuesday n wednesday pm..well im busy those day especially ptg so not in my room.. so i asked them to send it today..yeah i got em'..babu send satu kotak indomie hahahaha inda alang alang..but yeah now my stock is full hahahaha alhamdulilah~

oh yeah i remember waaa masa accounting lecture the lecturer ada type arah the slide aka..well u knw kan aka=also known as ryt hahahaha =D pastu ada this guy at the back im guessing he's from africa (not being racist) tanya "excuse me~ wat is that AKA~i dont know wats AKA" aku inda tahan but to laugh at that..hahahahaha =D sal he sat at the back waaa suara nya nyaring hantap..n tambah ia ask that qn..tekajut ku hahahaha =D

*sigh* im so stress i dont knw y..laju ku pissed arah org..n annoyed apatah lagi..mcm its the period where i hate looking at people..or even listening to others..hahahaha ok mcm jahat bunyi ku well thats the feeling laaa aaah..pokok nya aku laju annoyed lately..not being stinggy watsoever plang..but i just kept it to myself..i mean iwas in this situation where we're doing accounting calculation buat cash-flow statement..OBVIOUSLY since ada calculation u need CALCULATOR.. n c Alam nada..i mean like every week ia lupa bawa..so he always snatch calculator ku buat aku payah pakai...erghhhhhh c mas inda pandai menagur org k..i was so daym furious but aku talan saja as usual..ok maybe im over reacting watsoever but thats wat i feel..dun blame me for this..=s n Carrie as usual is very Annoying..that im annoyed all the time im with her..she keep on asking the qns that is so obvious..ok im mean..i know i cant help it..i really dont like siting next to her..its because she always interupt me when im paying attention n talk so loudly..erghhhhhh well...(mas release tension!!!!) *breathe in~breathe out* fuh~

things can be hectic lately..u knw u trying to schedule ur time..wat to do this hr wat to do the next hour..its stressing.. i mean kdg kdg inda dpt tidur leh nya..n terok lately my flatmate ani entah bahapa dorg tgh pagi buta teriak ketawa ketawa..showing no respect to others...ok so my life have been so stressful n full of annoying people lately...hope next week is a better week...hopefully far more better... Amin~ can u imagine masa atu aku terbgn kul 3am sal ada org lari lari outside my room laughing talking loudly as if its their house watsoever.. n then pagi pagi kul 8 terdgr c Norma (our cleaner) shouting knocking on everyone's door asking y the tangga's pagar patah.. AKU PANING THAT DAY!!!!! tido akhir awal bgn mengajut!!! WTH is wrong with everyone... GET A LIFE!!!!!

i had alot of weird dreams lately..mcm bnar rasa nya waaa this always happen if i think alot..well wat i meant by think alot is when before tidur im planning wat to do n all..n stress out sal most of the time my plan will messed up..Fudge i knw!!! sugar i knw!!! all i need to do is be calm...aku ikut stress out meliat c Mandy stress buat keraja..she's practically stress over sumtin small..haish~ terbawa bawa..i was planning to do sumtin actually but after my dream last night i was afraid to do that thing n cautious rasanya..i hate it..gosh i wish i can get it over n done..y? y? y? y cant i..y do i feel like a bad person lately..like all i want is a peace of mind~ heart n soul..so please stop bothering me..(this got nothing to do w anyone~huh?!? mas talking crap again)

Rina masa atu online..sorry rin i was not in my room..n when i got ur msg ur no longer online.. i miss you rin..really really m =(
Amz...havent seen u online lately..masa atu ada aku tagur pastu u went offline huh?!?!? hahahahaha u want to tell me sumtin kan yatah waaa.. i miss u gurl..going to kent this weekend..will u b there? yes? no? hopefully u ada...

i dont know wat to say anymore..
~SELAMAT HARI KEBANGSAAN~
merdeka!!!merdeka!!!merdeka!!!
Allahu Akhbar!!! Allahu Akhbar!!! Allahu Akhbar!!!

salam rindu selaly dari Me in Hull~
LOVE Babah+BaBu+Alai+AbeB+Fatin~
Love my Family members~
Love my BoNaFiDe~
Love all those people who have a place in my heart n mind~

Assalamualaikum
*HuGz+KiSheZ*
>>>BaBy GeE<<<>>>MaSyHa<<<

2006-02-13T14:08:00.000-08:00

mengapa ini terjadi?!?!?

ok..tonyt i feel like crying..tapi MENGAPA inda mau kuar..inda mau pacah kolam airmata ku..walau sedikit inda mau kuar...aku mau nangis..thats y gue lagi blogging gitu..but still nothing in my head can make me cry..but my heart is crying..*sigh* mengapa? kenapa? siapa?!?!? huh..ukan sal org laaa hahahaha there she goes again..*sigh* its freaking annoying coz i really WANT to cry..cry so loud so everytin my my head luahan ku pun kuar..along wif all the tears..tapi MENGAPA..not tonyt..u knw the reason y i like songs yg mellow esp the one wif different language like chinese,korean or japanese~ sal the music n the way the words flow can help u understand sumtin altho u dun understand them at all..=p thats my intrepretation..currently listening to Mars soundtrack heheheheh nice..love em'

i spotted the difference between korean dramas and also japanese drama.. korean drama mostly typical u knw about lovey dovey..lupa ingatan..harta benda..kawin contract hahahaha watsoever related to it.. but japanese drama lain sikit..sal kan japanese series mostly ada moral of the story..n their wording lawa lawa..i mean korean also lawa plang.. p japanese penuh nasihat..for e.g nobuta wo produce..every episode ada inti nya..seriously..its nice..but i love both..hahahaha..well byk liat japanese lately tho mana jua kan sikit nganya kali aaah the episode..unlike korean 16 episode..well taiwanese lagi terok..lagi panjang hantap..i watched it started w a kiss kan i thot last episode dah tuu ah yg 2weeks ku nunggu panya ada lagi satu palau eeeh~ cheh~saspen!!!! n the whole time aku ketawa..when its suppose to be sweet..its just freaking sweet that makes me laugh..paloi eeeh apakan cerita nya catu atu hahahaha inda real babe..buleh..hahahaha =p menahan ketawa plang ku jadinya..

*sigh* aku masih rinduuu babah..msgd babah b4 tidor lastnyt..pastu inda dpt tidur until kul1 useless eeeh..pastu bgn awal..hanging pala ku.. n my eyes g teary sakit yo~ i had my breakfast p parut ku malar grumbling aaaah maluuuuu eeeh c ruby n alam ketawa..well apa jua org ani hehehehe =D originally wanted to post a lyric p malas kan mencari or copy n paste hahahahahaha =p nothing good lately eeeh napakan tuuu~ busy plang p selalu buat alasan not to do sumtin~ this is BAD i KNOW!!

~tiada lagi yg ku harapkan~
~tiada lagi yg ku impikan~
~biar aku sendiri tanpa dirimu~
~tiada lagi kata cintaku~

~takan lagi ku bersama mu~

~biar ku simpan semua kenangan ku bersama mu~

aneh~ thats the description for me TODAY.. confuse? YES sad? MAYBE happy? DUNKNOW jealous? *thinking* things are getting complicated in my head..well im not tryna make it more worse..i can handle em' altho i did/do/done absolutely NOTHING..nil/zero/nada terok aaah~ mana jua aaah pekara yg left unsolved obviously gona hunt me down..but yeah..sal i cant think of the solution yet ...HELP?!?!? not sure u can help me tho' can u? can? not? hmmm it seems like im talking to myself lately huh hahahahaha =p i feel like shouting "i don't want ............... anymore!!!!"

ok enuff already..~misteri hidup akal kan menghilang~dan bahagia d akhir cerita~ i hope there's a happy ending to my story..~bukan kah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia?~ well its depend dong..ngak ada cerita yg ending nya sama seperti yg kita mau.. (currently listening to cinta-melly n kd) hahahahha lyric nya ku type.. i dun believe in happy ending..coz for me it never exist..it only happen in fairy tales..jalan hidup masih panjang..hapiness n sadness goes well together kali aah..cerita hidup never end..until death.. my god wat is d very very wrong wif mas tonyt..well yeah it me, mas n masyha anyway hahahaha =p talking to myself is my hobby hahahahaha well not verbally..its all hapening in this head of mine anyway hahahahaha =p... WEIRDO!!!!! cheh~ who cares? ada?

bah till then tah kali aaah~ the last paragraph is a total CRAP=insanity!!!

assalamualaikum~
Beebee loves her family~
Masyha loves her BoNaFiDe~
*hugz+kishez*

2006-02-12T10:35:00.000-08:00

What makes me HOMESICK!!!!!

ok..assalamualaikum everyone.. just feel like typing sumtin.. lawa topic ku aaaah true ryt..well i cant seem to cure my homesickness..it comes n goes.. well, after all i spent my last 19 years with my families.. never occur to me living alone n yet far away from home.. im actually surprised myself that i can bare w it..seriously..for these past few months i cried alot..well im a crybaby of coz =p that's the ONLY cure to release my sadness..my happiness..my loneliness..my everytin'.. u knw i told rusy this once..if ur in the situation where u dun knw wats wrong wif u..n u just dont know how to express them..cry is the best way to release them.. true kan rusy? well it works for me..

lately aku rindu babah..aku inda tau napa i miss babah so much..its so weird berabisly..*mas cries* reminiscing alot of my memories lately..things that i did in the past but yet not appreciate em' n suddenly realise the meaning of every action..every emotion..every words that said..every laughter..every tears..and most importantly every MOMENT of every SECOND spent w every1 i LOVE so much in my life..

i miss spending time w babah..in the car..talking watsoever happened in school..makan bfast arah restaurant sebelum kraja.. makan martabak wif dua mata lembu arah kadai kaling.. actually babah jarang marah..hehehehe p babah lau kusut diam walau his face tells everytin.. sum1 who always tired and stress about his children but yet never complain.. sum1 who always laugh n smile everytime i joke around.. yeah babah nampak garang..hahahahaha strict usulnya hahahahaha.. i guess most of my friends said that..p lau jumpa my dad cali sikit hahahaha =p first time liat babah banar banar nangis masa antar aku d airport.. well he never really shows lau nangis walau c abib pernah ckp babah pernah nangis masa dgr result c abib hahahaha =p i miss cium tangan babah.. *sniff* *sniff* =S protective..mcm my bodyguard..babah yg trust me on my own decision walau he disapprove sumtimes hahahahaha =p p yeah i always turut ckp babah..hahahaha u knw parent's instinct things..i do believe in those seriously..pasal pernah experienced em' hahahaha =D merajuk inda bertempat aku aaaah..

babu..bonda ku yg tersayang..my inspiration..very strong women..the best cook..always do her best in everytin..that's my mom!!! work to achieve the best.. babu yg never really disapprove me hahahahaha =p i miss makan d luar.. babu selalu lanja.. siok just tipun babu bawa makan hahahahaha =p makan mee mamak arah c kumis hahahaha..but seriously tabal kumis nya.. hmmm come to think about it i inherit my mom byk kali hahahahaha =p my mom emo kali aaah hahahaha.. cool kali aaah.. i miss liat ceria Korea sama Babu sampai subuh.. walau kana marah babah hahahahaha.. ingat masa dulu liat meteor garden sampai kul 3 pagi hahahaha esuk sekulah kali aaah..me my mom n my sis arah my parents' room g tuu hahahaha..awuuu eeeh babah bgn nyuruh kami tidur hahahaha =p p thats not the worst yet..ada lagi worst masa liat my 19 yrs old sister in law..atu sampai kul4 ish am hahahahaha c abib surrender tidur..i miss shopping sama babu..=s miss liat wayang..babu lanja hehehehehe =s alot laaaa.. babu is super strict dari dulu hahahaha =p but im thankful for that..really..because of that im like this..alhamdulilah~ she is so worried about everytin..if we're not at home or not in her view bah ada saja tah tuuu hahahaha sama mcm c alai..tinggal d hostel..malar my mom ingau coz she hasnt call home yet~ i wonder babu ingau kan aku setiap hari..or cry at night.. *sigh* aku ke china lagi babu ingau..i still remember ada masa atu aku balik malam bis kraja hehehehe sal ada road show the next day so buat preparation.. yeah babu marah laaa sal aku alum balik hahahahaha yeah sal my sis told me..the weird thing is masa sampai rumah babu inda marah pun hahahahahaha =p sama jua kes nya sama my sis hahahaha.. babu ingau waaa tuuu... =p *teary*

si mas homesick..well its natural i guess since im away from home..there's no place is as warm as cozy as nice as home..i feel safe..love..secure..at ease at home..well hahahahaha sal i spend alot i mean ALOT of my time at home kali aaaah..seriously..aku jrg jln kali aaah..tiring waaa commute everyday for the past 8 years hahahaha =D ngalih..yeah i understand my dad's ngalih-ness now.. my parents' stress-ness of their works.. well school is just nothing compare to work.. heran bnar when come to think of it its not really use up ur energy watsoever p lapas kraja tuu mcm nada lagi energy left.. hmm the power of work?!?!? hahahahaha well im back to studying..better make the full use of the time.. time flies so fast without u knwin it.. i mean the next thing u knw its dark outside n its time for u to sleep..u wake up and its a brand new day.. a brand new week a brand new month.. u gettin older every second.. u getting wiser?!?!? hahahaha =D hopefully.. i just have to be strong.. put a smile on my face..as if no one or nothing can bring me down.. loneliness always in my heart but the love that my family gave me overpower them all.. thats the power of LOVE~ i believe LOVE is pure n without any doubt very POWERFUL..coz i can feel it from my FAMILY.. they are my TRUE LOVE.. never fade..never leave me..never go away..

Yeah yeah..this is mas talking about her family once again i guess.. hahahaha.. half of my heart is mine..n the other half is my family's hahahaha =D i thank ALLAH s.w.t for being born in a family full of LOVE.. Alhamdulilah~ babah & babu whom i love the most..who sacrifice everytin for me n my siblings' hapiness n nothing else.. LOVE u both so much more than myself i guess.. =p

sapa keboringan angkat tangan!!!! heheheheh yeah i know..sorry ler..c mas meluah kan se-isi-isi hatinya hehehehe =p

ok dunwana bore any1 lagi.. buat org homesick n sedih plang jadinya hahahaha..nada deh..hanya luahan hati semata mata..

Assalamualaikum~
Love My Family Soooooooooooo Much~
Love My BoNaFiDe~
Love Every1 who makes me Happy n Smile n Cry also *wink*

>>>MaSyHa<<<

2006-02-08T15:37:00.000-08:00

~JuSt FeeL LiKe iT~

Today my dear fren HanZi turns 20 hahahaha =D

~Happy 20th b'day Hanz~

hmmm today not much terjadi.. pusing pasal kurang tidur hahahaha n bangun awal..pastu angan angan during lecture ish ish ish ish ish..its accounting for god sake sapa jua inda..apparently semua org diam..p i realised that i dun think any1 paham hahahaha aku pun masih blur.. i guess i need to read the text book this weekend huh..aku alum start bacaaaaaa!!!!! woa!!!!! oh well..penyakit malas ani payah kan hilang nyenta hahaha =p apa my lecturer ckp atu contradicting entah napa ia ckp..the accounting atu sanang..yg tarang tarang kami bangang..entah dari mana timbul the value atu..n the reason pun inda tau cana..aku paham plang how did he get the value..but the reason behind it yatah inda ku paham tuu nah..katanya sanang nya..mun paham..easy for him to say.. *sigh* pastu ia ckp payah lau for exam.. huh?!? apakan...contradicting jua tuuu..

oh well i have no mood to cerita..

assalamualaikum~
LoVe My FamiLy...sudden missin' my dad..Babah bibi rinduuuuu~
LoVe My BoNaFiDe~
*HuGz+KiSheZ*

2006-02-07T10:43:00.000-08:00

lama kelamaan~.......

lama dah inda post huh? yeah busy? not really actually..but yeah iv been busy last week..apakan~ yg mana satu lurus nih...hahahahahahaha =D ok sum up saja aaaah last week saye a.k.a. mas rush up doing my essay hahahahahahaha which was due last friday the 3rd of feb..yeah i hand it in the day before..alhamdulilah...well on thursday iv got my Q.M tutorial a.k.a my maths tutorial..it was kinda terok berabis coz ada that qn keeps on bothering me..sal its really confusing..pastu d tanya my so-called tutor ani..masih ku bangang..n i sempat argue with him..wa~lau~eh c mas ganas leeer..up till now gue masih ngak ngerti dong..mau cari another tutor i guess to explain that very qn..haiyo~ punya hapeeer this tutor...

ok enough about maths hahahaha..oh yeah baru ku ingat..sebelum atu kan my Q.M tutor ani caliiiie waaah..he was late by 5mins waaa pastu ia kan naik kan the apatu the screen for projector..lau mau naik kan mensti tarik kebawah lu kan..ani first attempt nya inda mau naik bnar bnar masih terturun sedikit..entah ia atu luan perfectionist kali mau semua naik hahahaha so ia usai..tarik nya kebawah..atu makin d tarik makin d tarik sampai kelantai hahahahahaha atu sakit parut ku nahan ketawa..hahahahha =D inda lagi nampak waaa palanya menaik kan the screen..terok eeeeh..hahahahahha..ok after i had my tutorial..i went to the undergraduate office waaa to hand in my assignment pastu i was 30mins early waduh..wat m i gona do..so i hang there minum mocha..hahahahaha..ok boring i know...well wat can i say this is my life here..hehehehehe =p

hmmm on saturday..gue pergi grocery shopping..pastu c hakeem msg invite me to dinner at his place..so i went there kul 5.30pm..hahahahaha panya sampai sana..katok punya katok 5mins later baru kana buka kan pintu the doorbell rusak hahaha panya alum masak...so bersembang w them lu n play big 2 w hakeem..panya c irwan damam padan lambat ia turun sal ia tidur hahahaha pastu c yus buat nasi pulut ngan daging rendang..well the daging rendang menjadi..but the nasi pulut jadi bubur hahahahaha =D so made the second attempt menjadi ulih c irwan..n they decided to makan kueh-tiaw..n asked me to masak..2 batches..the first batch nyaman yo macam restaurant hahahahaha handal aku atu hahahaha =D p the second batch terlalu byk serbuk chili so padassssssssss berabis hahahahaha =p wooops~ yeah sorry guys hahahaha c faiz ok w it waaaaa diorang org msia tahan pedas hahahaha =p p c irwan n hakeem was so red n berpaluh hahahahah =p sorry again =p well irwan said "aku ingat ni mas selalu..biar ko.." hahahaha sorry wan jadi tambah damam plang..so irwan showed me his room which is soon to be my room..woaaaaa..its bigger than my room now obviously..its purple..n ada full length mirror..hahahaha =D GOOD!!!! well had our dinner around hmmmm 8 ish i guess or is it 9..cant remember pastu main big 2 wif yus, hakeem n faiz..irwan pegi atas tidur.. well faiz baru belajar main so caliee...ahahahhahaha...but he's good udah hahahah =D so me n faiz balik kul 11 ish so dangani c faiz ke sainsbury to top up so tunggu je..yeah byk org pergi parteyyyy~ n drunk of coz..yatah c faiz ckp jgn d layan..mcm tah ku kan layan jua hahahhaha =D the moon so tarang man.. macam sikui sal half moon waaa.. of back home kul 12 ish am..sambung liat inuyasha..ngalih kuuuuuu~

ok on sunday..babu tipun..saja tanya kabar..aku tershock mcm menahan nangis..hahahaha well aku nangis leer after that..gosh ani pun teary terok eeeh..(andang nya c mas...sensitive if about my fam) hahahahah =p hmmm ryt now im suppose to do my report but yeah..IM NOT...shyte bnar eeeh.. i mean entah lately aku makin tired n lazy to do some stuff..now back pain n stomach cramp errrrghhhhhh..EMO KUUUUU~

"Destiny is not a matter of chance; but a matter of choice.
It is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved"

lawa aaaah..i got those quote from my lecturer..barbara allan.. the lecture was about CVs hahahaha which we have to do for our individual portfolio which cost 5% of the module mark..my god.....punya laaaa bingung ku...report ani lagi 20% cana kan tuuuu.. mesti buat mas.. marah jua ni krg my group leader sorry..im gona do it tonyt..walau ku inda tidur kali hahahaha macam bnar..aku inda tidur..? for real..hmmm naaaaah~ hahahahaha =p somebody please knock my head..

i feel lately the time is against me..hmmmm~ well all the tym plang tuuu.. p yeah at least iv learned from it.tadi i had my HRM lecture wif a guest lecturer David sumtin hahahaha wooopz lupa..ok so ia tunjuk aku n asked me "where r u from" i said "errr me?".. he said "yeah".. i answered "im from brunei".. he said " u dun have trade union in brunei ryt".. i said "no we dont have any" well i dun think brunei have any hahahaha =p obviously since its under government..pastu he said " oh yeah brunei is the one with two sultans..omer watsoeva" mas=blank huh? i said "two...no we only have one sultan" oh well ia inda layan aku so i just tahan ketawa..as usual hahahaha =D

oh well i better start my report lu kali aaah..
assalamualaikum
salam rindu from me..
LoVe My FaM alotz alotz
LoVe My BoNaFiDe SiSTaZ~

2006-01-30T10:52:00.000-08:00

monday oh monday~ another new week~

it monday again hahahaha =D hmmmm im not lazy today..lasnyt kan tidur awal so hit the bed before 11 or is it around 11 hahaha =D so i can wake up early n chat wif my cuzzie..so i set alarm kul 4.30... well i dun usually sleep early waaaa..keep on tossing n turning berabisly PLUS neighbour ku ani ya rabbi~ bising bnar..lau kuar bilik nyanyah mulut nya aaah biasa leer org itam hahaha not being racist here man~ i just talk based on experience hahaha =D so end up tidur almost 1am hahaha =D wow..selalu nya paning ku tuu~ kalat plang mataku bnar nya masa chatting atu p aku mau chat ngan dorg..rinduuuu ku berabisly..seriously aku bnar bnar sedih i just watched the video my sis sent rah ku~ sedih eeeh.. ='( *sniff* gileer eeeh sedih bnar ku~

ok i just realised that my 2nd year started on the 25th of september..boring eeeh coz our exam gona be after xmas instead of before xmas..i actually prefer before so that dpt enjoy masa cuti hahaha =D n abis semester awal ani inda *sigh* boring~ ok today kami ada lecture waaaa tentang wat module to take for my second year.. atu aku concentrate berabisly~ ada byk qns waaa arah my head waaa about me dua sub degree ani..panya dpt buat dua dua so i can get 2 degree or i can just focus on one ja~ specialise in one..but i think im gona do both since thats the one that stated in my s'hip form kan kan kan kan..another qn in my head is about wetha its an honour deg or not.. as long as i got 2/2 its honour asal inda class 3.. nauzubillah..mudahan tah 1st class or second..Amin~Amin~ Amin~

ok~ c mas rajin bloggin..y? nada youtube aaaah~ ada plang p lagging bnar ya ari ani bwoooh napa tuuuu aaaah~ tkut plang ku hahaahhaha =D my god ketawa plang hahahaha =Dyatah nie nah ia kan suruh aku buat essay ku~hahahaha i start udah sikit plang nganya..tunggu mood to continue ja nie..started reading dah..sebelum ku tidur semalam..my god buleh inda dpt tido..baca buku HRM handal sangat hahaha..alhamdulilah~ paham jua ku hehehehe =p

im being sooo mean to c dia~ miyan ne~ i didnt mean to do those things to you..but i just cant help myself..my god.. pls forgive me.. c dia yg ku lukai adakah dia terasa akan kekejaman ku~ ku harap dikau mengerti~ pinta ku hanya dikau sedar kesilapan ku~i have to admit..its ME who to be blame..no one else but me~ im sorry..really m~ i feel bad i know i do.. but i cant think it back..i dun knw y~ maybe i havent change mentally~physically~ but i myt change at the chemistry part~ maybe.. used to be so confuse of the whole thing..but now im no longer there.. no longer there!!!!~ sad but true..its too late~ too late for everytin.. everytin that maybe cud happen..but hanya tinggal kenangan yg ku simpan~ im afraid..im very afraid..afraid of wat myt happen next~ aku redha..ku akui ini salah ku~ p now i want to be abit selfish~n think ME first rather than........*blank* as time passed us by..things also keep on changing..seriously u cant avoid changes..everyday u become older by a day..days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years~ dun tell me u dun change a bit~ thats a lie..well not exactly a lie..sumtym pasal u didnt realise that is one of the person's attitude kan kan kan~ hahaha =D

WOW~ napa ku~ aneh bin ajaib~aku nada mood kan buat essay cana nie~ need to finish it by the 1st so i can hand it in on the 2nd..sal due date on the 3rd..my god..luan d bawai waaa malas aaah~after buat assignment ani baru boleh rehat hahahaha =D awuu eeeh mesti pikir catu..coz this is the only assignment left for me to do except for the group work n my individual portfolio plang hahaha..but this must be done ASAP~ need to..biarcha inda bertidur buat hahahah =D ganas dah tuuu mun cani hahahaha =D but yeah~ malas sedang menhantui ku masa ani ya Allah kuat kan laa iman ku~ Amin~ Amin~ Amin~

sampai d sini dulu ayt~ Adios~
assalamualaikum~

LoVe my Family~

Love My BoNaFiDe SiStaZ

2006-01-29T11:37:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year N Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah

now..me malas kan post picture hahahahaha..ngalih mencari nanti tah post hahahah.. ok actually yesterday plang CNY..tahun baru hijrah inda tau bila..is it today? or tommorow? or lusa? teruk eeeh inda tau hahaha opsss..actually iv just started my HRM assignment hahaha baru ku buat heading nya baru typed "introduction" after that..sayu ku hari ani bnar nya~ do u knw how much i wan to go home this moment *sigh* lagu ani punya pasal..sayu ku..everytime aku pigang buku i was like "kuar ku jap eeh liat tv" n reality strikes that im not at home to kuar bilik *sniff* yeah yeah yeah mas homesick again..well it comes n go~ shyte man this song makes me cry..uwaaaa :'(

bnar nya malas kan blogging sorry han for ur disappointment..hehehehe but its funny enuf that everytime ku start typing..panajng hantap hahaha.. tommorow at my house ada makan makan..aku sayu wen my sis ckp.."bee..i wish ur here.." :'( *sniff* *sigh* have fun u guys..w/o me kah w me kah..just send me some pics or video.. ok aku tidur kul 3am tadi n bgn kul 12 tgh ari hahahah..my god wat the heck org d atas belagur lagur..berisik!!!!! rubuh jua ni krg ceiling ku..hahahaha gloomy ku bnar nya hari ani..plan ku inda beguna which is bersih kan my room n start my assignment..bgn tidur liat "1 litre of tears" sedih bnar eeeh cerita aaah nangis ku leh nya..pastu kuar ku jap buang sampah pastu jumpa my housemate nicholas..lain kali muka ku..pasal abis nangis yatah ia tanya "how r u? r u alryt?" hmmm of coz i said "im fine~" hahahaha ia tu nada lagi pertanyaan lain lau jumpa atu jua d tanya nya hahahah =D

lastnyt i was a bit sad laaaa..i realised how time passed us so fast..i mean its already CNY~ Tahun hijrah~ n memories of last year still fresh in my head.. last yr during CNY..me n the HSBC team went convoying to KB..walau aga 2 rumah ja p siuk..arah rumah c vincent and rumah c catherine~ rinduuu ku dorg aaah n also Diana n Wan Ching~ my god.. terkenang ku dorg aaah how nice they have been to us..how understanding n caring they can be.. (my god the noise is so annoying) i msg c vincent, cath n diana wishing dorg CNY.. i dun have Wan Ching's no~ n also my chinese frens here.. Cath replied my msg aaah saying ia kan quit kraja sal she gona migrate to Aussie arah her bf waaa so sweet~ in march~ so i wont be able to c her nanti sedih eeeh~ rindu ku kan ia..all her cards..hand made aaah very nice hahaha~ ingat plang ku c daus hahaha palau anak atu hahahaha =D vincent replied my msg p ia jahat as usual..panyanya hahahaha not sure whetha he's joking or not plang.. ia ckp ia inda kenal aku..sedih eeeeh~ i hope he's joking =P atu kejam lau lupa hahaha~ =D no worries tak bawa ke hati...

second semester is really stressing me out..i got a group work aaah sejak second sem started ani kami alum ada group meeting..ingau ku teruk eeeh..my god i hope everyting goes well..amin~ pray for me too peeps~ i msged my group leader dah asked him to arrange a group meeting ASAP..need to settle things jua kan..n guess wat.. nada reply nya aaaah!!! paloiii kali..teruk eeeh i think im gona msg him again tommorow~ wth~

lately~ i feel as if iv changed alot..i know i promised some people to stay the same..p if u think about it..changes can be good kan? i mean u dont expect people to stay put there waiting for things to change on its own..ok i dun get wat i just said hahahaha =D yeah iv changed n im proud of it.. hopefully im changing for the best..apakan..well i didnt change exactly..hmmmm takut org tanya change cana hahahahaa =D ok laaaa im still the same me..kali~ maybe~ ok hahahaah just forget about the change bit hahahahaha.. waaa confusing jua aaah this paragraph..macam nada inti hahaha =D antam tia..liat ja krg lau curious..pokok nya aaah kdg kdg uv change kan u dun actually realising it.. sama jua tuu feelings..sumtym u think u can handle them..n at the end u just wan to give up..give up because u just cant lie anymore or force urself in doing sumtin ur heart not willing to do~ i think im experiencing that one ryt now..maybe~ *thinking* i need time n space..entah eeeh.. ada that line iv heard before "mengemaskini kan diri" hmm lurus kah inda tuu aaah =p i wish i can type evertin down about my feeling ryt now~ p im still the same ol me at some point..always guilty..takut sakiti hati org..lagi baik ku tahan..even im lyin to myself n force myself "tahan for a while longer" omg~ mcm jargon aaah macam buat org inda paham apa maksud ku..hahahaha i know some of u knw wat i mean....kan kan kan~ i know i hurt "that person"~ if not now..maybe later in the future~ n when that time comes..il be the jahat-ness people..n i need to prepare for that time~ coz i need to be strong to face it

i miss home..im looking at my baby picture that was took luar rumah ku..thinking that im not only leaving brunei for a while but also my house my home my castle where i live since i was born..gosh i miss my room..my house..my tv..my korean box sets..my car..byk eeeeh~ hahahaha =D

oh yeah result A level n AS level kuar dah~ my bro got 4 AS alhamdulilah~ congrates beb~ i love u~ u know i do ryt~ u lanja me nanti k..o maybe aku lanja makan lasagna ja arah pizza hut~hahahaha sambil online arah blinkzone aaah hahaha =D lurus kah inda eja nya tuu hahahaha.. well ur result is soooo much better than me..walau ko inda puas hati hahaha =D a,b,b n c is not bad laaa babe~ buleh~ =p

ok till now lu k~

Happy Chinese New Year~ the Year of Dog..woof woof
SeLaMaT TaHuN BaRu HiJRaH

ConGraTeZ To My BaBy Bro..BeB

CoNgRaTeZ To My Mom...BonDa ku TerSaYang

Assalamualaikum~

LoVe My Family So Much much

LoVe My BoNaFiDe BaBez~

2006-01-20T14:25:00.000-08:00

just another Friday

ok its friday the last schoolin day for the week.. wat did i do today hmm~ i set up my alarm at 7.15..n den reset it at 7.30 hahahaha biasa barat masih..force myself out of the bed~ punya payah hahahahaha =D well i got an early tutorial kul 9.15 hahahaha since i dun knw where's the room is so better be early to check em out yaa~ so first time im at that particular place in the library.. ok i had a marketing tutorial tadi..well its normal to prepare before going to every tutorial or else u'l piss the tutor..so i was prepared..hahahaha lastnyt baca the text did the qns n all..n guess wat..i did the wrong one..i flip the page wrong ly in the hand book hahahahaha wat i did was for tutorial2 not tutorial1 wow..advance bnar aku atu hahahaha.. i was so excited about Sony Aibo- robotic dog.. panya the text atu about starbuck hahahaha =D punya blank aku cana kan discuss kan kan kan.. me lau last min atu nah nada mau masuk kepala~ but thank god paham jua ku..so its a success..ok aku ada kawan ngan ku ya rabbi~ annoying nya.. aku gtau my reason yg bnar waaa i flipped the page wrongly..atu ya ambil reason ku jua..wat d heck is wrong wif her..annoyed ku..

moving on~ after that kami rushing out of the class to go to the other class sal c carrie punya explanation panjang..paham pun ku inda hahahah =D antam saja tia carrie..asal bejawapan hahahah =D anak atu cali..but yet annoying..inda tau malu again *sigh* she's a nice person btw..dun get me wrong..im still human punya perasaan yg mudah annoyed jua laaa.. =p ok pastu kami ada Qualitative Methods..in other word is Maths hahahaha well its the stuff yg kami belajar dah..so its a lecture..can u imagine sitting there mendgr about maths..hahahaha punya tah boring..lecturer nya ani lagi byk error..antam..panic pakah.. buleh ia tu ckp ans x=30 p d tulisnya x=10..ia ckp dah 30 tuu p tulis nya 10..wth? hahahaha inda ku tahan eeh ketawa ku tuuu..well im not the only one..pastu ia realise so d tukarnya salah jua nyamu d tukarnya aaah tulisnya 20..apa laaa cikgu ku ani~ aneh bnar.. byk error ya tuu eh napakan tuu buleh 2+1/2 jadi 1/1/2 apa pasal ia dpt ajar kami atu kan..aneh bnar jua tuuu hahahaha.. ok so he was explaining in d concept of business about intersection of demand n supply..where two lines meet..so the Qs and Qd are equal sal arah equilibrium point..ruby asked my napa Qs=Qd..i explained..ia paham..pastu Carrie tanya..aku gtau laa napa..inda ya paham nyamu..so u draw graph supaya ya paham..masih inda mau paham..org dpn ku ani lagi malar liat aku sal she's hinting aku bising..wth!!! stress ku..c carrie ani lagi majal..stress aku atuu ku menahan kan kencing again paloiiii~ stress ku jadinya..ku snap rah nya baru ya tau diam hahahaha =D ok im a bad girl but i cant help it..im still human like i said hahahaha =D yeay ada h/w maths siuk ada kan ku buat..well actuallynya kan byk plang yg ku mesti buat hahahaha but yeah the drive is not there yet..not my fault..well partly my fault..the rest..hmm still my fault hahahahah =D ok lameee~ wateva~

aku inda tau napa lately setiap aku jalan kan aku selalu terjumpa c Alam hahahaha =D tiga kali dah heh..napa kan tuu actually aku jumpa ya marin masa ku jln bali brg..p he was on the other side of the road so i didnt wan to tagur him..so i pretend not to c him..bad mas..so tadi kan aku jumpa ia he said "i saw u yesterday..around 2-3ish..i was like mas mas mas hi..n u didnt see me u just walk away..n the person next tome said awww thats too bad" hahahaha sian jua..sanggup malukan diri panggil namaku hahaha apa punya org..jauh kali aaah~ wth..wateva~ so tadi aku jln pun aku jumpa ia otw balik rumah..haiya..apesal selalu bump to each other aaaah~ but lately aku inda duduk sama ia hahahaha =D entah well im not avoiding IM NOT..its just happen im wif my other frens setiap kali masuk class..not my fault..n i dun c him anywhere..so..yeah..well y m i explaning..paloii macam tah kami ada apa apa =p nada papa nie aaah~ gosh im bored to the max..better start cracking my head tommorow i guess..

ok till then~assalamualaikum~
salam rindu dari baby gee
love my family
love my babes BoNaFiDe
*hugz+kishes*

2006-01-19T12:07:00.000-08:00

My First Free Day For The Second Semester

well~ maybe its the only day yg im free for this semester =s boring because kan starting next week kan my thursday ada tutorial hmmm..so no more free day..exception sat n sun duh! memang cuti laa tuuu~ wats so special about today hahahahaha..it's the 19th yo..my lil sis's bday..heya tiiin~ happy 15th bday gurl..i miss ya n i love ya..muahzzz

hahahaha my lil sis no longer lil 15 dah~vain tia krg ani =p

ok me malas blogging last nyt~ so blog today hahahaha..i like my marketing class yesterday i like the lecturer..he makes sense out of everytin..we were discussing about the change in taste of the consumer kan~ pastu ia tanya the class this qn "how many people in this room knows wat they're gonna eat for dinner" well obviously i didnt raised my hand duh~ hahahaha den aku liat..ada org dpn ku angkat tangan..i said waaa she's a mother of coz she knows wat she's gonna feed her family =p he (lecturer) asked again "who just go home check wats in the cabinet n cook".. it was in the morning waa tuuu kul 10 the lecture aaah.. after he asked those qn he said again "lemme change the qn"~ he asked again "do u knw wat ur going to do in 10 years time?" he answered no one knows ryt~ btwn now n dinner time he said there's about 5 hours.. ur plan of cooking dinner myt change~ so thats how life is..thats how consumer is the trend keep on changing.. it makes me think.. THIS IS LIFE~ u never know wat future will bring u~ i mean if u think about it wat r u going to do tommorow? all i can say is i have class from 9-11am..after that i haf no idea~ c..u never know.. apatah lagi in 10 years time.. thats y..ryt now we just have to prepare..kita bertawakal..kita ber plan ja..Allah menentukan~ i m struggling i hope at the end its all worth it..Amin~

this is life ada naik turun nya..but when kita gugur..jgn terima tangan org it shows how weak u r..how reliance u r to others..u have to stand on ur own feet..kita gugur sendiri..kita bangkit sendiri..THAT'S LIFE..no one can help u unless u help urself..when im demotivated..i remembered masa ku still working wif HSBC..those time..my supervisor as me wat she can do/help me so i can be motivated in doing my task..i simply said to her..i need time..i have to motivate myself first then others can motivate me..get it? i mean mcm belajar waaa..walau cikgu d dapan walau bayar tuition..lau diri sendiri inda mau belajar..mana masuk apa apa tuu.. thats the way it goes..the will comes from within~ from inside~ think about it.. waaa i remember masa my tutorial..about leadership..whetha leader are made or born? hahahaha i said..its depends..sum people wan to be a leader..sum people dont..no matter cana dorg kana train they just cant be an ideal leader..thats human~ ada bermacam macam jenis.. inda satu org yg sama.. waaaaa napa ku ckp cani ani aaah~blank aaah~luan kanyang kali..

ok hari ani kan aku makan fish n chips hahahahaha sal i didnt eat my bfast n lunch so aku bali size basar ikan nya pastu kn dakat kul 3 baru makan hahahhaha akhir kan =p masa ku makan kanyang tia..paluii eeeh~ sayang 3pounds ku.. well while im typing these ada masih my fish n chips aaa siring ku..tinggal 1/4 lagi hahahaha =p makan slowly slowly~ aku bali kettle..baru ku bali yo...=D happy ku selama ani kai belanga hahahaha =D sal the kettle yg d dapur atu barigali..plus org punya hahahaha =D bah atu saja before tidur mesti prepare for my tutorial tommorow morning..awal tutorial ku aaah kul9 ayoooo~ cana kan discussion im definitely bangang nie tommorow..n carrie is in my class haiyo~ i hope ia inda memalukan aku~ sheesh..mas jahat hahaha =p

assalamualaikum~
till next time
salam mesra dari hull..
love my fam
love my BoNaFiDe

2006-01-16T15:10:00.000-08:00

THE SECOND WEEK OF 2nd SEMESTER

" If i were a flower,
then now i'd be a bud.
i shall treasure the beginning of my youth
without any regrets for my future"

ok its the second week already..believe it or not my room that used to be so MESSY now is clean yipeee~ pasal aku bersihkan leeer =D happiness comes n go.. but for me true hapiness is the pain in life.. i will not know or appreciate the love from my family if it wasn't from the pain of leaving alone, far far away from them.. it's actually makes me HAPPY somehow that tru all the pain (that im immune) to ryt now =p i realise how much they love me.. im happy now that i can rely on myself.. learn to be independent.. learn to make my own decision =p.. learn to struggle.. learn to stay strong.. learn n learn n learn..the list will go on i tell ya~

i always think dulu masa high school.. "bila abis sekulah ani kan..boring eeeh.. ngalih eeeh" i tell ya..of all my life so far those time were the easiest and the most enjoyable experience i eva had..well there's alot of experience plang hahaha =D byk laaa katakan~ but after A-level..hahahaha went straight to work exactly on the 1st of DEC.. even if i didnt exactly do much work..i mean still undergo training n stuff.. balik rumah mcm org kepisan.. i tell ya working is worse than studying..sana sini pressure..lau inda sanggup mental laaaa~ well its all depends on wat kinda job ur doing actually hahahaha =D now im back in my study life.. hmmm i kinda miss working..siuk kali aaah~ experience..different..n most importantly of coz PAY~ hahahaha =D duh~

ok enuf of this shyte~ actually the purpose of my blogging tonyt actually kan release tension.... *crack* *crack* *crack* thats suppose to be my brain cracking..its the second week n i have 2 weeks left to finish my HRM assignment that cost 25% of the module mark.. ok to briefly sum my course n my modules..im taking B.A Business and HRM.. this includes 6 modules :-

APS= Portfolio (25%) + Groupwork (50%) + QM exam (25%)
Business Environment= essay1 (50%) + essay2 (50%)
Management of Org Behaviour= essay1 (50%) + essay2 (50%)
Human Resourse Management= essay1&2 (50%) + exam (50%)
Marketing= MCQ (50%) + Group Work (50%)
Accounting & Finance= MCQ (50%) + case studies (50%)

errrgh~ sapa jua inda stress haiya..ok clarification for the first sem i did APS,BE,MOB and HRM.. second sem im doing APS, HRM, Marketing n accounting =s haiya....still waiting for my MOB marks..i already got my BE marks..can u believe it i only got 54% for my essay1..i thot im gonna have high for that..but sumhow my answer is insufficient enuf..*thinking* i guess u neva knw wat ur lecturer really wants huh.. for my essay2 i got 65% so overall i got 59.5% sheesh almost 60% isn't it..sasak kuuuuu~ ok i passed one of my modules..Alhamdulilah..in a week time baru kuar MOB takut ku eeeh i knw the markers are strict.. Ya Allah~ lapang kan lah dada ku~ kabak kabak ku eeeh~ insya Allah pass AMIN~ need to score on my second essay for HRM..

ok enuf bout school~ sorry..thats wat iv been thinking lately..dun mind me ayt~ school school school~ better get the engine going soon..cozzz im so d very malas still~ cana nie~ my first step already done..which is clean the room~ need to print notes n go to the library to do some research..n most importantly need to do some reading haiyo n do some online exercise..haiyo~ astagafirullah inda bulih resah or sighing..inda kuasa nya babu =D still ingat.. c diverge pun balik jua sal skulah~ biarcha~
this blog/post ani pasal my schooool stressss.. cali diri nada exam p stress macam org exam hahahahaha sakit dah =D

sampai d sini dulu
Assalamualaikum~
love my Fam & BoNaFiDe

2006-01-09T13:59:00.000-08:00

First Day of 2nd Semester

fuh its the very VERY first day of my second semester..gosh come to think about it iv been in UK for more than 3mths already..inda tau bila kan balik entah jadi entah inda hmmm..panya this year dec sampat raya..hehehe aidil adha plang..:p ..ok..gileeer eeeh biasa nya aku bangun akhir tiba tiba bgn awal ayooooo~ ok i was a BIT late for my class hehehehehehe actually~ supposedly~ i was early tapi the entrance near my lecture theather kan bertutup so cari another entrance hahahah pastu nada nampak d pintu so kami kuar ke bgnan next door pastu the door sana pun locked so we all end up being late..but yeah lecturer kami inda marah hahahaha ia andang nya ayo~ 2 hrs straight of lecture first monday morning..Crack otak eeeh~ pastu balik makan my Brunch hahahaha tarus kan ja... masak beef pepper.. nyam nyam p inda abis..hahhahha kanyang tia plang =p

"In the world of love, it takes more than love to make someone happy. Loving someone may mean sacrifice and pain but if the person i am to love is U *wink* i would rather embrace pain and sacrifice than not to love you at all"

chewaaaaaah~ utk sapa saja yg in love at the moment sapa ja =D im just bored waaaa...hmmm ryt now im abit in confusion..hmmm i also dun knw y..i mean really still in the process of figuring things out..sometin is not ryt with me i knw but thats my weakness for not knowing wat matters..huh? anda paham? ok.. mcm org hang over eeeeh hahahah =D

i miss my sister waaaa..Lai kamu start semester kan..jrg tah online niee..*sobs* nangis ku plang..faluii eeeh..Lai i miss u.. anie dorg c abib sama c fatin inda tia jua online..eeei rindu ku eeeh ='( *sniff* rasa kan ckp "aku mau balik" uwaaaa =( astagafirullah..STAY STRONG MAS!!! aja~aja~fighting!!! im doing this for my family kali aaah..have to do it for them..ayt~ =D im smiling so dun worry...gosh mood swing bnar ku malam ani..

L-my sisters n bro <3>

inda byk happening eeeh the last few days aaaaah boriiiing ku yg bnar nya aaaah cana kan tuuuu... bnar tuuu nya c mizah baik plang ada exam ada jua kan d buat hahahahaha..but thank god inda laaaa syukur tah ku nada exam aaaaaah =D enjoy things to the fullest lu hahaha.. k to those yg ada exam "GOOD LUCK" k n not to forget

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA"
assalamualaikum
salam rindu selalu dari Hull
*muahzz*
love my fam n BoNaFiDe~

2006-01-07T15:57:00.000-08:00

Highlight of MY 2005 memories

January- still working with HSBC waaa rindu TSR/TMR

February- Result A Level kuar (lau ku inda silap)
graduated From MSPSBS..miss MS Rimba kenangan~

grad nyt wif the BoNaFiDe= Rinz,Amz n Hanz
grad morning wif (top-bottom,l-r)= wani,jann,me,mallie,rahmat,amal,izzah,ct,rina

March- apa aaah~ continue keraja arah HSBC nothing much
i passed my driving license hahahaha =D lurus kah inda bulan nya =p
April- April Fool hahaha still working
May- still working hahaha but ada skip work to go to China =D

me in Shenzen, China (left) with my couz= BaBy K, Kairiah n Ngah rinah
(right) BaBy K and BaBy G in HK out from airport

June- hmmm apa ku buat aaaah interview kali for scholarship (lurus kah inda tuu aaah) ani paloi sikit laaa buleh my first interview atu fuyo..lasmin kana panggil kana suruh dtg sejarah bnar eeeh atu kan aku ada meeting masa atu ngan Marketing Dept nangis ku tuuu aaah.. =s resah ku hanya Allah yg tau..
July- resign from my work on the 20-ish haribulan.. Sad but true should be earlier plang but entah the HR didnt receive my letter of resignation..Weird but yeah..and two days after that orientation UBD starts..nada rehat yo! boring lagi orientation nya aaah nothing but speeches~ =s makan lagi berline up tuuuu sedih bnar eeeh.
August- First time tinggal d hostel i.e away bnar bnar from home hmm aku nangis tuuu tiap malam hahahaha sal rasanya nada kawan..well i did made some great friends.. first week of August orientation hostel..im in the Belanga team.. siuk even kami at the last place but who cares..=D siuk its actually my first orientation n it was great.. =D ehem ehem..last day of orientation was on the 7th my birthday its so sad inda balik rumah n all sal we'r not allowed to do so..so sedih laa masa atu sports day..received alot of msgs..thanx (altho belated) =p masa malam kana nyanyikan b'day song atu cali hahahaha sal no one can spot me in front of the row semua org cari aku d belakang hahaha aku pun liat belakang jua hahahaha.. reminiscing Belanga Theme Song
"Its Belanga~ B.E.L.A.N.G.A~ masak memasak pakai belanga~ ikut irama Belanga~" =D cool kami manang ani n logo.. *peace*

oh yeah~ masa d UBD im in FBEPs taking Econs..hmm i miss Econs..miss the courtyard d mana kami selalu hang.. miss u belle, do.z, ros, aizat, n the others..sapa ja laa yg d sana hahaha =D
September- got the scholarship..reality strikes that im gona leave every1 in Brunei..its really sad. 2-3 weeks before belayar aku blur n bangang..inda terasa waaa..babu did most of the stuff n all..sedih lau d kenang..its great i spent time wif my family the most before belayar..2 days before belayar baru terasa kehilangan..that's wen Nini Miah said to me "jgn lupakan nini bi aaah" atu aku tersentuh..n reality strikes that im leaving my family behind to study ='(
27th- tiba masa nya ku tinggalkan bumi brunei ku tercinta.. <3>

Left= airport wif families
right= on the way to BruHall ngan jo, maman, amal n emm lupa namanya(sorry) abg c tiq =p

October- start hidup sendiri hahahahaha doing my course which is BA Business and HRM =D two subjects degree =p wish me luck =p n start puasa.. thats a sad part berabis..

yatah nie my messy room lapas ku bgn tidur hahaha n my food hahaha microwave food.. =p

November- First time Raya away from home..its Sad berabisly plang.. went to Notts for the 1st time n then wif hanna went to London to celebrate raya d brunei high com

left- raya in bru high com (l-r) Rai,siti,shimah,me,mizah,amz n ruzana
right- raya wif the BruNotts (l-r) Atul,muna,ena,die,syaz,rash,qil,rusy,me,hanna,fiqah,mel n su

December- semester habis..yey.. my travelling starts on the 9th..went to manchester first 4days 3nyts arah dorg c ummul,amalz,jalwaa n ismah. went to old trafford.

left- old trafford (l-r) rusy,jalwaa,ummul,fini, me n mel
right- my last nyt in manchester ngan the santiago girls, rusy, mel , jip n sanny

Lapas manchester i pergi kat Notts hahahaha..sampat attend dorg hanna's lecture ngan c mel..atu yaaaa BORING hahahaha well never really like Bio anyway hahaha =p sini aku lama laa..buat rumah sendiri hahaha apakan berrapa hari berapa malam pun inda ingat pokok nya lama laaaa..siuk ada saja d buat sana aaah..well mostly ngan laptop =p

left-masa jln beraya ngan uncle n aunty c qilah dat pic lam rumah lama uncle nya
mid-makn d curry king arah cant remember the place name tau plang takut salah eja =p
right-train station,pumpkin otw to london
on the 22nd kami pun berangkat ke London hahahaha..i spent 11days n 10nyts in London..waaaaa..did some sight seeing n went to London Eye lawa d scenary. xmas didnt do much boring hahaha..boxing day..crazy sale kan karing rasanya ku byk manusia waaa we all went to Oxford Street..can u imagine we actually woke up at 6 ish n jalan awal for that..kami jalan for more than 12hours aaaah gilerr jua tuu dari ujung ke ujung nie waaaa jalan kaki again from bruhall sampai kami ke oxford circus aaah jauh jua udah tuuu..malam we went to Hyde park ada fun fair..i went there 3nys in a row..mana inda damam inda pandai baik hahahaha =p

left-at trafalgar square wif the girls n halim
mid- makan sushi wif qil at leicester square
right-in amal's room with the food stuff:satay,ayam pangang,burger n fries =D

left-first time ke funfair d hyde park =p
mid-second nyt ke hyde park wif the girls..kan jln tuu aaah
right-naik crazy rides wif qillah n nur..SIOK!!! loving it n Hating it hahaha get it? =p

actually byk pic to post hahaha p malas hahaha atu saja kali aaaah.. it suppose to be a summary but then nyeh hahahahaha panjang tia plang leh ku hahahahaha =D spent my New Year Eve in London arah Tower Bridge liat fireworks hmmm i dun think i have the pic hmmm malas cari hahaha..just dunwana b alone masa NYE sal selalu nya BBQ wif family kan..sad..Happy New Year 2006 again~ went back to HULL on the 1st..back being alone again..n now waiting for the semester to starts which is on the 9th =s no more leisure time i guess..wish me luck ;p

Assalamualaikum
Sayang Rindu Selalu from Masyha @ BaBy Gee
love my Family
love my BoNaFiDe
*muahzz*

2006-01-07T15:21:00.000-08:00

The second week of 2006

wow~seminggu dah im in 2006..hmmm i didnt do much this week i mean seriously nada..berparam arah bilik ada laaa..hahahaha =D malar plan kan ke city but hmmph inda menjadi kes malas and akhir bangun hahaha kul 11 bangun apa kan tuuu hahaha =D

ooh yeah my couz, shaming beranak dah woohooo congratz leng.. i miss u n sayang yo!!! lawa namanya Nur Laili Nazihaa (hope i spelt it right) =D cute aaaaah suka kuuuuuu =D congrats again syaming + budin =D

ok wat i did masa berparam lam bilik hmmmmmm *thinking* hahaha aku liat cerita saja aaaaah~ liat youtube.. jadi karak youtube ku ni aaaah sakit sakit hahaha =D masa ku liat Devil Beside You aku suka this script line "there are alot of people that wants to hurt you~ but there are also people who get hurt because you're hurt" lawa aaaah line nya.. melting ku leh nya hahaha =D

"Everyone wants hapiness. But what makes one happy has a lot to do with the person's perception of what hapiness is. Hapiness cannot always be attained through money and property. Hapiness lies in the heart"

i realised that we live to make ourself happy.. everyone wants to be in love..to be with someone..someone that love him/her the way they love them back..that way they can be happy..but for me..its not that simple.. life is full of hardship..(cobaaan) nothing is free in life..it involves sacrificing..struggling..hard work..n pray..about being in love.. actually in order to be happy hmm for me people said find someone who loves u more than u love them..that way it feels more secure..but finding that sum1 is not that easy hahahahaha =D im just writing all my thots hahaha =D but true.. isnt it easy if everyone express their feeling easily w/o any doubts and fear..but yeah this is life.. me personally hates possibilities/probabilities watsoeva.. i like it when its direct.. sal lau byk possibilities aaaah jadi bingung ku.. ok i actually dont knw wat im typing hmmmm.. mcm nada inti cerita hahahaahhaha.. sampai sini dulu.. nanti ku post sum weird lines in my head hahahaah =D

*hugs n kishes*
assalamualaikum
mas <3

2006-01-01T13:06:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum~

waaaaaaa ok ive been away from Hull like for 3weeks dah.. n now im finally here in HULL.. im actually sad at the moment entah aaah being the only person in my floor make me feel so lonely..so i cried again..ok me lau kolam air mata dah pacah awal jadi sensitive @ mudah menangis..yesh i m a crybaby =p well who the hell care~

ok im actually tired..planning kan update wat ive done the past 3weeks n upload some pictures but yeah..look at me now..kes malas..ok il update tommorow laaaa..panjang plang tuuu kan..so mesti jua kan rajin rajin update..lau inda ada sorang atu marah abis dah ku d gigit nya *sobs* sampai bangkak segala nie waaaa.. banar..suwear~

ok im sad at the moment..well last nyt ke tower bridge balik akhir sampai BH kul2a.m ish..cana kan tuuu org yg paling jauh bejalan sampai dulu..org yg jalan awal yg paling balik akhir sekali..gue pun ngak pasti..so i'l skip that one n expand it some other tym k..

today bangun kul 9.30ish sal alarm berbunyi waduh baik plang set kul 10 tuuu lama sikit ku tidur.. =p so mandi..pastu duduk duduk liat dorg si amal, hanna n ka lisa tidur hahahaha ive been causing alot of noise laaa..so dorg pun bgn satu satu... we had lunch arah the dinning hall sal ka lisa mau makan buat terakhir kali nya ngan mas (sedih bunyi nya~ sedih ku tuu ka lisa masa ka lisa ckp catu) so dorg c nor n c naj join..meriah laaa..hahaha..pastu kul1pm jalan ke tube station hmmm luckily sumhow its free..so inda payah bayar save jua my 2pds yey =D

sampai d king cross station panya awal masih like an hour early.. =s so jalan jalan n minum minum..pastu my train dtg dorg antar kan..sedih hantap ku tuuuu..awal awal main main nangis pastu jadi banar alaaaa ka lisa tuu punya pasal pacah kolam air mata gue..hehehehe love u ka lisa~ love u hanna~ love u amal~ love u rin~ love u mash~ love u all laaa =D gilerrr eeeh dalam train for 3.5hours aaaah~ berapa kali ku nangis.. ish ish ish sampat g ku tidur~ yatah kan..luan lama bejalan inda sanggup bnarnya kan berpisah *sobs* ayo~ im not gonna cry again m i? sheeesh~

ok actually nya kan the purpose of this post ni kan to wish everyone a

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006

may ur year full of joy hapiness n laughter with or without ur love ones by ur side. Stay strong n brave~ n be who u want to be in life coz 2006 can be a new beginning as well as a continuation of tasks given to u~ May Allah bless u all always *muahz*

Mas's FaMiLies: its so weird n hard having new year without u guys.. miss BBQ~ kamu celebrate cana? sedih eeeh~ no more bouncer huh sad sad sad..palau dah c mas kan nangis saja..cheh homesick again =S

BoNaFiDe: Mas is the missin u ol~ 2d very much much~ the food stuff aaah~ sedih eeeh~ rin rin rin entah napa lately selalu rindu ko rin hahahaha =D heran bin ajaib yo..hmm its few hours ago n i missin amz, hanz n ka lisa already..kamu ke fun fair again? =p karak dah?

take care people...mas love u all

2005-12-08T02:01:00.000-08:00

>>>>>>>>>DBSK- My Destiny (Japanese)<<<<<<<<<

kaeritai naga i yoru ni boku no mune wa mada ma~yotte iru
kaerenai awai asa ni tsugeta chika i uso ni naru kara
ano koro no bokura no kage ga
ima tachi agari ugokidasu you know that I'm still waiting for you
Another day, another night
mirai wa soko ni tachi doma~tte iru keredo
Now I'm living without your love
kimino furue~ru kata wo omoidashite wa ii~kikasetteru, imadake ga setsuna i

My destiny~

wasuretai kimino hitomi, kimino namida, kimino tame iki wo

wasurenai ringo hazushi, kimochi kakushi, sugosu mai nichi

kokoro dake sakende iru yo

mou ichi do dake tsuta etai you know that my heart's beating for you

Another way, another lie

eien nante shin jite ita aoi toki

But I'm living without your life

kimi to mawari michi demo

te wa tori aete aru kitta kanpaomoi deto, toke au

My destiny~

futari de ireba kaze mo nami mo kumo mo

koerareru kigashita years ago

kanau nara one more chance

jikan wo koe tobitai spread my wings

Another you, another me

umare kawatte mo musuba renu omoi naraba

So I'm living without your near

kimi to yume de aetarasore

dake de ii, sore dake ga ii

ita misa e uba atte

My destiny~

Another day, another night

ima wa futari de, sore zore no michi wo susumu

Now I'm living without your love

kimi no yureru matsuge wo

omoi dashite wa iikikasetteru, ima dakega setsunai

My destiny~

The last time we made love.

You said that you loved me too

I’m missing your tender touch

I’m missing your...

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>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Translation<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

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I want to come back;

my heart is still wandering within those long nights.

But I can’t come back because

in those faint mornings the vows you’ve told me become lies.

The shadows from those days are starting to move again.

You know that I'm still waiting for you

Another day, another night

Even though our future is frozen

Now living without your love

I keep getting recollections of your shivering shoulders

The truth is my destiny is filled with sorrow.

I want to forget your eyes, your tears, your sighs.

I slip off the ring that was never meant to be forgotten

and go through everyday hiding my feelings.

My heart is shouting out for you;

just give me one more chance

to let it express my love

You know that my hearts beating for you.

Another way, another line

I believed that this blue season would last an eternity

But living without your life

I wanted to walk with you down that winding road

holding onto your hand.

But now my destiny is melting away with my memories

Years ago I felt that if we were together,

We could even surpass the wind, the wave, and the clouds.

If I only had one more chance to fulfill this wish

I want to spread my wings and travel through time

Another you, another me

If we’re reborn, I’ll still have the same feelings

So living without you near

If I see you in my dreams, that’s good enough for me,

I’m okay with that

Just relieve me of my painful destiny

Another day another night

Now, we’re walking down our own paths

Now living without your love

I keep getting recollections of your shivering eyelashes

The truth is my destiny is filled with sorrow.

2005-12-06T14:09:00.000-08:00

Mideoyo (I Believe)- D.B.S.K

girl, let me prove that my love is real

I'll give all my love to you, please trust me

midoyo~

chonnune banhandanun marur midoyo

Gudaeyegen anirago marhaejiman

Narur gyongsorhage baraburggabwa gamchwowassur bbunijyo

Sashir nan~

Gutaerur choum bwaton gu sunganbutho

Onjongir gutae saenggake sarassojyo

Achime nunddugo jamdur ddaeggaji han saenggakbbuniojyo

i believe in you gutaer barabonun i shison gadur

Naega gago inun gutaer hyanghan maum modu dama bonaeri

Nomu swibge durgigo shipji anhun nae maum argo inayo

Gutae narur hurjjok ttonaborir goman gathun turyourggaji

gudae~

sarangun~

gasumi meir tuthan solleimchorom

gurohge sum makhinun guriumchorom

hangsang byonhamobnun shisonur jwoyo onjena shigumchorom

jogumman~

naega maumur nohur su issur mangumman

Gidaerur barabon su issur mangumman

Naui gaggaiye momurundamyon hanobshi gibbugejyo

irohge gutae gyothe inun damyon

Gyorgoken amugodo morundamyon

ormana naega gutaen saranghaenunji

i can't let u go..

you're the only one in my life

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Translation =D

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Girl, Let me prove that my love is real

I'll give all my love to you, Please Trust me

I believe~

I believe that one can fall in love at first sight,

though I told you that it wasn't possible.

I only hid this thought from you because

I was afraid that you would look at me as if I was careless and hasty.

To tell the truth~

ever since I met you I only lived with thoughts of you.

There was only one thing on my mind

from when I woke up in the morning to when I went to bed at night.

I believe in you...

I will send all my feelings for you through the the way I look at you.

Do you know how my heart feels,

how I want to keep the feelings I have for you hidden?

Even the fearful feelings for when you might leave me one day.

You~

Love is~

a nervous feeling that flutters your heart...

it is like a breathtaking lonliness...

Please keep looking at me with the same eyes...

always and forever like this.

If only you~

could stay close enough to me so that my heart can relax...

just so that I could see you...

I would be very happy.

If I could stay by your side like this...

If, in the end,

it is that I don't know anything about how much I love you.

I can't let you go

You are the only one in my life

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ok i really don't feel good today....alot of things are flying in my head since yesterday..im trying to talk about it....but i really dont know how to put it a sentence..now im crying..for some stooopid reason..i actually don't know y im crying..WTH..c wat the bloody hell is wrong with me...HELP!!! im confuse right now...im not sure whetha its a good idea to actually say it out..luah kan apa yg berbeku dlm pala ku anie~ =s its sad enuff im alone here n yet with this qns hanging in my head like Hell...astagafirullah..i need to CHILL~ maybe mizah is ryt at sum point but i dun wana repeat what she said...i dun wana spoil wats nice in my life..but yeah~ errrrghhhh i dont know..maybe its the song yg buat my mood cani..errrghhhh..maybe the loneliness buat aku cani..or maybe its just ME!!! *sigh*

For a split second i feel my world is turning up side down..n i feel lost..confuse..blur..bangang.. =s im actually dont know which direction im heading ryt now.. =s ok im crying again now~ gosh i need a break..ive been an emotional freak today.. =s its just not my day i guess..i really want to say it out loud..but im so AFRAID..y m i soooo afraid? Y mas? Y? i dun knw.. this head of mine is full of unanswered questions..qns keep on popin out in my head, left me thinking 'wat m i gona do?' n i left with no ans at all.. Get it? No? well malas explain..

Sumtin' is sooo not ryt wif me...i know it..coz i know myself better (hopefully) =p gosh i wish im home ryt now..where i can feel safe n loved..im sooo missin home ryt now~ d Emo Freak is back.. if only U know, wats eating up my heart ryt now..IF ONLY Weird? hmmmm maybe...do u think im that lucky? Think again!

Assalamualaikum~
P/S: pada org yg terasa im really sorry...i know things can be hard to say it out loud but entah aaah~ u knw me =p
-n-

2005-12-06T11:30:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~ =D

ok this is my first post...lemme introduce my self..*cough* hahahahaha well as u can c im MASYHA~ =D
ok lame~ well im bored ryt now *sigh* No More classes... End of the semester. Well its actually on the 15th plang but WTH i dun have any lectures or tutorials so im officially FREE.. woooohoooo i really cant wait to go to Manchester man i dont know y..hmm keboringan tah ku tuuu banar =D

its me n hanzi =D n Lavender cheh~

ok ani ja dulu~ i post a better one next time ani main cuba cuba dulu hehehehe n because ada org atu kan *cough* mengomplain sal apa aku alum post hehehehe =D *peace* i <3>

Love u people who loves me so much.. muahzzzz
Assalamualaikum~ =D
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