Friday, January 12, 2007


Assalamualaikum~

I'm back here feeling alot better than yesterday. *SMILE* waaaa read Hanzi's Blog yeah~ yeah~ yeah~ .....moving on..... I have to admit it what she said ada banarnya. I was really at the low yesterday.. so i blogged twice *SMILE* heheheh baru ku abis mem-blog kan ada org katok bilik ku.. so when i open kan panya c Beb~ i didn't realised i was in my room like the WHOLE DAY!!! masa ia nampak aku she said 'hey Mas.. *look at me differently* ok ko kah mas.. lain jua sulmu..' n i BURST!!! panic ya.. asking me napa.. so luahkan laa ku arah nya.. pacah yo~~~ macam laut waaa bilik ku (a little exagerated) hehehhe so aku lama turun ke bawah altho i know the others d bawah.. hehehe sal bida waaa usul ku.. all read n puffy hhahahah =D

See, im good now.. Things will go well now.. Insya Allah.. chatted with D tadi n told him a bit of my story (sorry D.. tell u nanti k) he asked me waa.. 'what's so special about him that makes it hard for you to forget about him?' hmmm i don't know.. it's like when you like someone you'll be very selfish n willing to sacrifice anything.. pokok nya he used to be VERY SPECIAL to me.. Nya c Beb i need to stop being such a nice person yang inda mau menyakitkan hatinya and end up hurting myself so badly.. True!! but like always 'He's a Friend of mine' ok laaa i just need a time off him so that i can focus on myself n also my life yang lagik berantakan gituh oleh cowok ituh!! hahahaha.. lawa eeh apa c Beb ckp kemarin aaah 'Mas.. don't listen to what ur feeling and emotion is saying right now.. listen to what your head and mind is saying' get it.. because i was so sad aku makan luan d makan perasaan.. yatah pakai kepala mun cematu.. pasal kan when u calmed down dah u'll know what happened is just bullshit!!

Hanzi said.. Love is not blind.. its just i chose not to see what's obvious =D meaning im the only one who have control of Me, Myself and My Life not him.. i will not let anyone Break me anymore.. only I, Mas can Break me.. okeh!!

ok actually i was belajar-ing pastu kan ambil tissue pastu liat blog.. mem-blog plang ku hahahaha palau.. ok continue belajar ku luu~~ Until Next Time~~~ Tissue ku abis.. going down!!

currently listening to --> Brandy - Everthing I Do, I'll Do It For You

9:07 AM
MaSYHa.

Thursday, January 11, 2007


Assalamualaikum~

hey.. im here again... studied but very very bit bit bit~ *sigh* wats wrong with me!!! why can't i get over him.. why do i have secebis perasaan masih arah ia?!?!?!? n HE DIDN'T even KNOW!!! hanzi said to tell him off but but buuuuuuuut~~~ *sigh* i can't *tears* i can't believe i'm THIS WEAK!! its so sad to know this.. but entah i just can't im totally cold with all my responses but why m i the one that cries when i typed all those mean (sorta) stuff... y m i d one that feels the most miserable.. y m i d one that is so unhappy?... y m i so vulnerable when im around him? y is it easy for him to break me this way? why why why??? qns that are so easy to construct n yet so hard to answer...

nah kalinya ku meluah kan tuu aaah... yg paling bari sasak is when ur here feeling all the emotion n he's there feeling happy with his love ones... im not trying to be or sound mean but i am selfish waaa... it's not i don't want him to be happy... its just that.. entah eeeh.. he makes me feel miserable.. and i don't like feeling miserable waaa mas benci waaa.. i miss home now!!! *sigh* entah eeeh everytime we chat kan macam every words he said macam mocking me waaa.. m i being so overly sensitive or is my feeling sensible? either way i still don't know.. hopefully i get over him soon.. coz this pain is almost at the limit that i can just burst.. i don't want my old pain rekindle.. FUDGE HELL NO!!!! gillerrrr... Mas!!! Basssyha!!!! Cayo!!!! GAmbatte!!!! FAitooo!!!!! im STRONG!!! I AM!!!!!! he cant bring me down after today (hehehhe sal today alum abis) AMIN~~ ALLAH s.w.t akan sentiasa bersama ku Amin~~~ along with my love ones.. my Family n Bonafides~~ kan kan kan

bah kan cari makanan ku jap.. huhuhuhuhu will update soon hopefully with my vacations posts ayt... catch you guys later~~ Assalamualaikum

9:28 AM
MaSYHa.



heya people~~~

Assalamualaikum...

guess wat i actually wanted to post all the pictures waaa about wat i did in December all trips to Madrid, Notts and London ladidadida.. baut sumhow its sooo long that i cant finish it all in a day or sumtin.. oh well i sort things out nanti k.. maybe ryt after my exam.. =S havent started revising yet.. i know people would said.. "satu jua nganya" heheheh true plang but STILL i need to revise.. plan ku today but buka buku pun ku alum.. n here i m tiba tiba rajin kan blogging *sigh*

i was so shocked waaa.. i sooo didn't know Ajai and Nurul cerai!!!! ok im so random hahahaha i googled waaaa (that's how bored i m) sayang eeeh.. oh well lau bukan suratan.. don't really know the reason why.. both party seems to keep it a secret so that their image inda rusak or some sort. sweet enough tho' When i checked the website about the news i got this quote lawa:-


"Love is when you can't hate, no matter how much wrong is done to you, if you can love beyond all hurts and pain, then it's LOVE"

oh well, things have been the same lately... HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!!! altho belated but who cares it's still January!!! less than a week would be hijrah!!!! oh gosh..time flies huh!!! banyak plang resolution ku for 2007 ani.. like find a bf hahahaha... =D stay fit n healthy (need to hit the gym).. belajar (so far its slow) and shop less (not working at the moment :s) banyak plang lagi.. c hanzi ada buat list nya..but thats the most of it tho.. or maybe that's all hahahahaha =D

so far i spent more that what i shudda..haiya.. if like this makan daun laaaa.. but if u think like that i'll be healthy.. hmmm technically hahahahah kali plang tuuuu i still need other nutrients entah laaaa... oh yeah next mth ada rombongan dari bsu n brunei high commision naik ke HULL!!!! i really don't know whether i should be happy or not... but it would be exciting =D heheheh i was called like 10am in the morning.. hahahha awal tuu yo!!!! considering aku akhir tidor.. well i think dorg tipun rumah waaa bising bunyinya..so i didnt bother to wake up n pick up the phone. so cikgu Adi called my mobile hehehehh punya laaaa panjang questions nya.. HELLO I JUST WOKE UP! hahahahaha the qns sound like this

CK : Assalamualaikum Siti Ma-Shu-A-rah?
M : Wa'alaikumsalam.. aaah eeeem Siti Ma-Syhu-Rah!
CK : Dayang D Uni?
CK : Atau Dayang D rumah?
Ck : Dayang d Hull masa ani? Ada Class?
M : ...... ???
Ck : KAlau d Uni cikgu tipun karang lagi
M : Aaaah... eeeem D rumah... aaaah nada class.. alum start..
Ck : owh ok.. Dayang cikgu kan gtau.......... (the story cont.)

when i said the story cont. atu cikgu atu inda wasting time and continue with the story he want to tell me n all.. n it was very looooong and verry important.. thank god for my white board.. cincau jaaaa laaaaaaa hahahahhaha lapas atu inda laaa ku dpt tido balik hahhahhaha.. so yeah the rombongan lawat hull in february the 7th or 14th or 21st.. definitely on Wednesday.. TYT also dtg... waaaaaaa.... abit panic but yet challenging kan kan kan =p trying to make me feel better..

oh well i need to start revising dude!!!! gosh.. wish me luck less than 2weeks im going to have my exam hehehehe... need to start pigang buku n open it!!! haiya... need a kick laaaa!!! Till then ayt~ Assalamualaikum~ muaXxX Love Mas's Fam n BoNaFiDe Girls!!!


5:05 AM
MaSYHa.

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