Again, i think for every post i made, i'll be saying the same sentence all over again. Urinmaniya~ It's been a while.. maybe i should change my topic to it's been a while or write a song based on it. Ding Dong~~
Well, i'm in uni. why? i had ONLY one tutorial earlier at 1pm and that's it. man only one one-hour class for every Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. i feel like screaming 'put it on one day'. it's almost the end of fourth week, and i'm still on my complaint on my schedules.
Things have changed alot recently. I'm not sure i'm coping well with it. At times i feel scared, at times i feel confident, but most of the time i just feel stress out about life. The way things are now are different. i feel burden most of the time and experiencing low self-esteem. i hate myself msot of the time for being useless. SEE, i'm complaining about myself. the question is, why can't i face the truth about life. i know i'm still in a denying stage and i can't help it.
Oh well~
I had Research Methods tutorial just now talking about Research Proposal. Okay~ now i have to think of what to do a research on? if only i can research about my life LOL. Because of my feet condition, i was unable to walk fast. However, i was never late to any of my classes (talking about being a good girl :D). The funny thing is i was in the building like 5 minutes before my tutorial class started. i went in and Cheng Cheng Cheng, the class is full and i was like 'wait~ am i later?!!!??? Fudge man *&£%£*^£%' Yeah, i did feel like swearing since everyone doesnt seem to care my existence. so a reminder to myself: BE 15 minutes EARLY!!!!.
I'm missing alot of people back home. i'm homesick most of the time but i can no longer cry for that reason. Some people just dont understand what i'm going through. Couldnt blame them for that. i'm always a whiny person anyway. LOL.
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