Down and Mellow.
Woke up this morning thinking that my class would be at 10. However, it turns out my class is at 11. Thus, i end up watching three episode of Korean drama 'Time between Dog and a wolf'. I watched the first episode before when it first came out, but somehow i didn't continue. Maybe at that time my mood is not into some serious gangster drama, so i dropped it. Now, because Ummul is on Lee Jun Ki phase, she recommended the drama to me again. Balik2 tanya if i started watching them already or not. Well, guess what Mul, i'm hooked now :). I'm trying to get it finished before this weekend (if possible).
Just when i thought my life is begining to straighten out, there are always something that i stumbled upon. I think it's all about myself and my own self-esteem. For instance, today, as i was tying my shoelaces i have the thought of skipping my 11am class. How stupid is that? I was already dress up and ready to go and the malasness came. then i sat back and think carefully 'eh, there's registration of this class', so i went to uni. It seems like this semester i'm too malas and too tired to do anything about it. i know in the near future i'll be regreting the time i wasted. But why am i not doing anything about it? I always blame my health condition, regardless, which today my condition is not that well. The weather is cold that i can't even walk properly.
Earlier i had a class about culture and the lecturer said how important participation is so he gave us the chance to sign in the register and leave the class if we don't want to participate. But the most annoying thing is that the students who sat next to me JUST CAN'T STOP TALKING. I was on the verge of screaming at them, or at least said something to them (which i should), but i end up just giving them hints with my body language which is not successful. i was asked again in the class, i was quite happy that i participated but why can't i control the redness on my face. i can still feel it. Maybe Public talking is not my thing, but i want to be. Something to learn for the next lecture, not to sit next to chincau students (no offence), they just can't whisper quietly. I'm not being racist over here it's just the fact that it annoys me, not only in this class but also in other classes. it's funny how they whispered loudly but when were asked to participate they all shut up and looked confuse. What was that all about? Am i PMSing now? it seems like every little things bother me so much than before. Im not even sure if i'm getting mature or immature about the whole situation.
this post payah kan publish.. my ending paragraph selalu ilang.. i'm too tired to type it back.. let's just end it this way :P...
Edit: this post is actually yesterday's because of the stupid uni system i can't seem to post it :s
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