9 more days until my dateline... this makes me think what I've been doing for the past few weeks. I actually cried before i go to sleep thinking about how the clock is ticking so fast. WEIRD? i know.
however, this stress helps me keep on going with my assignment. i would like to thank my lecturer at today's tutorial for mentioning what the facts needed in the assignment. now i know what I'm going to do tonight. Don't get me wrong i have started the assignment with the introduction. it's just that I'm pretty bad at structuring. So I'm glad for his guidance because now i know what's the sub-heading for the next chapter.
My mind is kind of in stable at the moment. i know that i am emotionally vulnerable and have a low self-esteem. i can't deny that because i feel it too. the fact of ACCEPTING the reality of life haven't sink in yet. My fault? Certainly is. Problem Solving? Currently None. Do i need a psychiatrist? I don't think it's that major.
Apa nya orang.. berantakan rasanya my life any. trying to stay strong, but i dont know how long i can take it. i'm actually fighting with my own self. As crazy as it may seem but it's true. i kept quiet because i dont think anyone can do anything about it. they're not the one who's experiencing it. im in denial? i think i'm still am. There are a lot of wishes in my mind right now but i know only 20% can be fulfilled. Sad ain't it?
Well, on the bright side, i'm still a Korean craze girl. when i stressed out, i turned on my Korean mode which is almost all the time. CAn't help it. LOL.
Well, i got to go back to my research now and grab some food after this before my tutorial. i think i've been gaining some weigth recently. if i said this to Mizah, she always give me that look 'are you kidding me'. LOL. woaaaa my shoulders hurts and my right knee hurts.. ALLAH KUATKAN LAH HAMBA MU <3
